Fic. "Back To Your Heart." PG-13

["A.M. Glass" <glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx>]

Title: "Back To Your Heart."
Author: A.M. Glass
Copyright: June 4th, 2000
E-mail: glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: The characters from "Buffy, The Vampire
Slayer", well, they don't belong to me, they belong to
Joss Whedon, et al. No copyright infringement is
intended or inferred. This a non-profit piece of fan
fiction, the story is the sole property of the author.
SPOILERS: None.
Distribution: Kim, Gary, Bill, Pat, etc... etc... etc.
Song: This is based on the song called, "Show Me The
Way To Your Heart", its written by Diane Warren. It's
from Gloria Estefan's cd. "Destiny". Lyrics are
denoted by the ( ) symbols. Some of Buffy's dialogue
will include the song lyrics.
Angst Warning: Granted, I'm not Kim; bowing to the
'Angst Queen', but, I try.

 
*****

Buffy walked along the paths on UC Sunnydale's campus,
all the while thinking about the argument she'd had
with Willow. She shook her head, she hated fighting
with Willow and she noticed that it was the only thing
they had been doing lately. She knew why it pained her
so much, each hurtful word lancing her heart like a
dagger.

(I remember days nights

were never cold)

Why couldn't it be the way it used to be? Willow
was...
 
Was.
 
When did that happen? When did Willow become a 'was'?

(I had you in my life...

I had you here to hold)

There used to be a time when all she had to do was
pick up the phone and Willow was there for her, no
questions asked. How she loved being held by Willow.
It was the only chance she had to be 'just' Buffy.

Not 'the' Chosen.

Not someone who had to try to save the world on a
daily basis.

'Just' Buffy.

(And I remember love warm

as a summer day)

Buffy knew her feelings had changed for Willow, she
had known this for a long time. But... there wasn't
enough time to let her know. Each time she thought
that 'this is the night I'll tell Will'; something
always got in the way, be it demon or ... Angel.

Buffy walked towards a bench and sat down, she bent
her head into hands and thought about Willow. All the
things she had taken for granted. Thinking she'd
always be there, and she was still there, but... out
of reach.

(But I lost you...

And I lost my way...)

Buffy did feel adrift, her life had no real anchor.
Nothing to keep her from running aground.

"Oh, that's just great," Buffy muttered as the sky
opened up and it began to rain. "It's not supposed to
rain you know!" she yelled at the sky. She got up from
the bench and began to jog back to her dorm, she was
drenched by the time she had made it to the front of
the building.

She stopped suddenly, she saw the light on in their
room, she could see Willow's silhouette against the
window.

(Now, I'm in the rain...

Begging you please...

Please)

"Baby won't you show me the way back to your heart?
Let me see a sign to know if I'm close or far. Lead me
back to the road that leads back to your arms.... to
your arms," Buffy said out-loud, not caring that she
was getting odd looks from other students as they made
their way inside.

She knew she couldn't go inside, not yet. She needed
to give Willow time. She had to think of something...
something that would show Willow just how much she
needed her in her life.

She turned away and walked away from the life she
wanted.

(Every night another lonely street

I walk down alone...

Searching for a light...

Your light to lead me home)

Willow did shine brightly. Whenever Buffy looked at
her, she could 'see' the light of innocence that
surrounded Willow. It was all she could do not to be
by her side always, soaking up the light, needing it
to counter act the darkness she faced.

(Leave a candle in the window

and let it shine for me

Take my hand and take these
tears away...

I can't take the pain)


Buffy couldn't take the pain, of being without her
friend... her companion. Her love. She stumbled...

(I'm on my knees... please....)
 
"Baby won't you show me the way back to your heart?
Let me see a sign to know if I'm close or far. Lead me
back to the road that leads back to your arms.... to
your arms," Buffy cried, her body shaking as the tears
she had held inside finally let go.

Willow found Buffy huddled in the rain, she had
spotted Buffy running away as she looked out the
window. She draped the raincoat she had brought with
her over Buffy's seemingly frail body.

"Come on Buffy... let's go home," she whispered.

"Will?" Buffy asked, thinking that she was in the grip
of some fevered delirium. She reached out...

(Take my hand and
take me into your arms)

Willow took hold of Buffy's hand and helped her up to
her feet and held on to her.

"I'm sorry Buffy. I hate fighting with you," she told
the Slayer, before leading them back to their dorm
room.

(I'm out in the dark...)

Buffy looked over to Willow, saw how the rain trickled
down her hair, onto her face, she reached out and took
a droplet off, staring into Willow's bemused face. Her
heart clenched when she saw the love in Willow's eyes.

(Down on my knees...

Please...)

"Buffy... what's wrong?" Willow asked anxiously as
Buffy suddenly dropped to her knees.

"Show me back to your heart... let me see a sign to
know if I'm close or far. Lead me back to the road
that leads back to your arms.... to your arms... to
your arms," Buffy whispered against Willow's ear.

"You've never left it Buffy... never," Willow replied.

Buffy looked and saw the truth.

And there in the rain, on her knees, in front of the
woman she loved, Buffy pledged herself to Willow and
sealed the pledge with a kiss. 

The End.

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