Fic. "Never Leave" 'PG'

["A.M. Glass" <glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx>]

Title: Never Leave
Author: A.M. Glass
E-Mail: glasswrks@xxxxxxxxx
Copyright: February 18th, 2001
Rating: PG- One word changed it from being a 'G'.
Disclaimer: Im not sure I need one, as I havent
mentioned anyone.
Authors Note: MAJOR angst warning here, perhaps even
a hanky warning. Hell, I felt bad just writing it,
thats got to say something. I should say that I was
listening to Bryan White singing, Thats Another
Song while writing this little ditty. BUT, this isnt
a song-fic.
Feedback: Im not sure this should even go out to be
read, let alone commented about, but, its up to you.

***

Id like to say that I sang to her, let her know my
feelings, let her inside&

But I didnt.

I want to say that wed take long walks, strolling
hand in hand, looking at things that wouldnt have
meant anything to me without her&

But I cant.

She never knew&

Id make the clock unwind if I could.

Do whatever it took to place that smile on her face,
to hear her laugh.

To make her feel that I cared.

I didnt know that I didnt have time.

Didnt know that the last time we said goodnight, it
was the last time.

I didnt even say, I love you.

How hard could that have been?

Really, how hard would it have been to look into her
eyes, and say, I love you.

She gave and she gave, and all I did was take.

And how I took.

I never had to ask twice, and shed gladly give me
what I wanted.

Yet, I held her hat bay, I never let her get inside,
to see the real me.

I dont even know who that is.

To have her here for& just for a moment or two, Id
give everything I am for that second.

To tell her what she means to me&

How empty I am without her.

That I cant go on&

How I want to break down and cry, and how I wont let
myself.

Cant let myself be vulnerable, to let anyone see this
side of me, this scared girl who wants to be held&

Wants to be loved.

But that moment is gone&

Shes gone.

Why can I say this now when its too late to do
anything about it?

WHY!!!

I cant take her into my arms and never let her go&

DAMN IT&

Give me a chance&

Ill do better, I promise&

Please&

Im begging&

Ill drop down to my knees if I have to&

DONT take her away&

Please.

I LOVE HER.

Dont&

Leave me alone&

Dont touch me&

You dont understand&

I didnt get a chance to tell her&

I know she can hear me&

I know it&

Get out&

Shes NOT DEAD.

SHUT UP!!!

Make them understand&

Tell them youre okay&

Please&

Wake up&

Plea&

Please&

dont leave me&

Im sorry&

I cant live& I dont want to&

Wake up.

Dont leave&

Honey& wake up.

Wha& what?

Wake up, youre dreaming.

Youre alive& youre alive& oh God& thank you& I love
you& I love you so much.

That must have been some dream.

Hold me& please& dont let go. Ever.

Never& come on, thats it. Its okay, shh& its okay,
Im not going anywhere.

Promise?

Promise.

The End.






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