FIC: Ashes03-Gravity Is Working Today

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Call Crow Call...

Call, crow, call in the dead air of the day
call from the brass of the sky;
strike your sour note against the heat
of the unmoving midday.

Are there eyes to pick,
live tongues to eat,
hearts to rend and tear,
entrails for your delight?

here, quick, take mine
before fate relents,
marks up their value again
a point or two on the market...

Call in the dead of day, crow,
call from the brass of the sky,
strike your lonely note
against the midday's unmoving heat.

Call, crow, call.

- Ian Mudie


Ashes, Ashes, They All Fell Down

Part the Third
Gravity is Working Today


"What am I?" The girl said.

In the darkness of the room within, greater then the darkness
of the night without, no one had an answer.

"What am I?" She wailed again. "Why am I here? What happened
to us?"

She sat huddled in the corner of the sofa, feet curled beneath
her, the ragged scraps of her death atire still barely covering her,
the shards of modesty lying about her, mocking the appearence of
something 'human'.

It peered down at it's messenger from it's place on her
shoulder. This would not do. Where there was supposed to be fire there
was only void, where there was supposed to be rage there was only
pain. Pain alone was not enough. Perhaps she would have to go back, to
the Earth, back to the grave, back to the shackles that had bound her.

Tara crawled across the floor on her hands and knees and
pulled herself into a sitting position on the end of the sofa opposite
the girl. Amy moved up behind her, curling up on the floor at Tara's
feet. She pulled her knees up and wrapped her arms around them, as if
to ward off a chill. There was no escaping this cold though.

Tara reached out a hand, tentativly, slowly across the space
seperating her from their 'guest'.

"Are you crazy?" Amy hissed seeing what Tara was about to do.
"Don't touch her!"

"I have to." Tara whispered back. "And don't talk so loud,
she'll hear you."

"No you don't." The girl said. "I can hear you fine. I'm dead,
not deaf." She looked up at the two of them. "Tara."

"Willow." Tara replied, pulling her hand back quickly.

"She's not Willow!" Amy protested loudly. "She can't be
Willow. Willow is dead! They're all dead!"

A memory..the ghost of memory flashed across the girls mind.
She smiled slightly, more of a smirk and in the darkness, something
truly horrid to witness. "A better one than I said this but it still
fits. I may be dead; but I'm still pretty."

"Oh Goddess!" Amy shuddered. She leaped to her feet and
grabbed Tara's shoulder. "We gotta get outta here." She gave a hard
tug.

"No!" The redhead cried. "Don't leave, please!"

Tara didn't move for a few seconds before resting her hand on
top of Amy's. "It's alright." She said quietly.

"It's not alright!" Amy insisted. Her eyes were begining to
tear over. "This..this thing is here, in our home claiming to .. it's
wrong. All this is wrong and she shouldn't be..she can't
be..please..please please Tara if you love me get on your feet and
run!"

Tara had never heard Amy beg for anything in her life; but she
still didn't move.

"Yes." Tara said quietly. "Yes it is wrong, the fact that she
is here, that Willow-"

"That isn't Willow!!" Amy practically screamed.

"It is Willow." Tara repeated quietly. "And it is wrong that
she's here, that's why she's here. So thing won't be wrong anymore."
She turned to the Crow. "That's it isn't it? It's the reason isn't
it?"

It just looked at them.

"You..." The redhead swallowed and tried again. "You know why
I'm here then?"

"Maybe." Tara shrugged slightly.

"What happened? To us..to..." The girl gestured helplessly.

The question punched through the hasty barriers Tara had
erected in her mind. This ..sitting before her the woman she had once
loved, still loved. Or at least loved her memory. Even, on warm
evenings laying in the arms of Amy she would dream of those short,
short moments when, for a bare instant, Willow had been hers.

At the cost of someone else's body, her morals, her honor, and
what little sense of self-respect she had had back then. Amy was
helping her build herself back. Had been.. after hearing what had
become of her first love..

'I can't, she's not, I can't, she's not, I can't, she's
not...' Tara's mind was locked in a loop of denail. Even though having
moments before argued against Amy's claims, she had not, up till now,
really truly believed. 'The quesion..I have to answer the question
because I want to help her. No..no don't think about, can't think
about it; it will hurt. Must help! No, the hurt.. Oh Goddess, she's
_here_ and it really happened, never really...help her..but that will
hurt...no no no no no no...'

"Tara?" Amy knelt down and put her hand on the other wiccan's
upper arm. "Tara honey?"

Tara was not very responsive. Her eyes stared at the redhead
still curled up in the far corner. The two of them were staring at
each other. The former seemingly lost within her mind and the latter,
simply lost.

The redhead reached slowly toward Tara, a look of concern
playing across her features only to have her hand slapped away.

"Don't touch her!" Amy hissed at the recoiling girl. "Don't
you dare touch her."

Again a field of obsidian slid across the witches eyes and the
air around her grew heavy, again curled lips began to snarl out
ancient words that called upon buried powers. The redhead whimpered
pitiously.

It fluttered from the girls shoulder and landed on Tara's
knee, the blonde still did not respond but it's present perch brought
it exactly at eye level to where Amy still kneeled upon the floor,
fists clenched, energies just begining to make themsevles known. Once
again ancient met fawn in a contest of wills. Black on black, raw
magic versus ancient, ancient ..patience.

The Crow stared.

"No." Amy hissed. "I defy you. I don't care your reasons of
justifications. She doesn't deserve this. She didn't do anything. It's
not her. I defy you. Do you hear me? You're just a bird..a...a feather
duster that doesn't know it's place. I defy you!"

The Crow stared.

"I..I have powers." Amy continued. "I'm not a weakling. I'll
crush your heart out. End your legacy. Destroy this thing you've
perpetuated on my Tara. Willow's dead. She's resting, asleep. This is
not her and you better let this thing go, let her free or I'll..I'll
kill you. I'll kill you real bad. So...Go DO it!"

The Crow stared.

"Just go." Amy's instructed. "Go away. Take her with you, we
won't interfere. We..we won't tell anybody if that's what you want but
please..go away."

The Crow stared.

The power of the witch melted away, vanishing back to the
ether. "Please..please please go away." Amy now sobbed. Her normal
brown eyes, her sense of self being swallowed by the sharp, deep, pit
in it's own vision.

The Crow stared.

Amy broke away and held a hand, palm out, in front of as if
attempting to block something or protect herself. She looked away
quietly wheeping. For herself maybe, or for Tara, possibly even for
the dead girl in her home. It didn't matter though, simply because It
did not care.

A black beak jabbed foward suddenly and the sharp tip
pentrated skin, muscle, nerves and bone. It punctered the flesh
cleanly from one side to the other. With a sharp yelp of pain Amy
pulled her hand to her breast, cradling it with her other and
continued to sob. Silently, the blood worked it's way from the deep
wound to slide down the white skin of her wrist and drip patiently
onto the rug, staning it deeply.

It flew back to it's original perch on the girl's shoulder,
she had moved out of her instictive fetal position to watch the
battle. Now she sat nervously in the corner. Legs curled beneath her
hands clasped in her lap. She said nothing the entire time
understanding it was not allowed. She now eyed It warily, in the dim
light it's blood soaked tip glimmered in the dark. It clicked it's
beak a few times and a black tiny tounge flickered out briefly to
taste the few drops it could reach.

Now together the two of them watched as Amy seemed to be lost
herself. She had stopped crying a few moments before and now her wet
cheeks reflected in the gloom. The wiccan held up her hand; It was a
tiny puncture but complete. She seemed to watch as the red eased over
her skin, almost grudgingly.

Her brown eyes were wide as she studied the wound. "Ah..." She
said softly. "I see!"

The redhead shuddered violently.

"She killed you." The whisper. Tara's whispered voice bounced
around the room. "Faith killed you, first your baby, then Buffy and
then she killed you."

Tara had not moved from where she was, herself, curled up on
her end of the sofa. Still staring off into the dark corners of the
room.

"Tara?" Amy said, not turning in her lover's direction.

"She killed you." Tara murmered again, quietly,
plainly, in a neutral tone of voice with no inflection behind it.
Nothing to indicate that she was being more than a voicepiece for a
memory. "Just..stabbed Buffy..sliced you open, baby's dead. Killed
Buffy..so Buffy's dead. The she sliced your throat. So you were dead
too." Tara gave a small giggle. "Sh-She slices..she dices..she even
makes julien fr-fries."

"Tara. Tara..c'mon baby..shhh.." Amy had clambered onto
the sofa, putting herself between the girl, the bird and the witch.
She eased Tara down so the long haired wiccan was lying with her head
in her lap. If either of them noticed Amy's still bleeding hand,
matting Tara's hair to her skull, they didn't say.

"She killed you." Tara started over. "She just-"

"Shush now love. Shhh..it's alright. Everything is
alright." Amy ran the fingers of her unhurt hand through Tara's hair.
The other hanging off behind the sofa, slowly dripping into the
carpet.

"No." She said quietly. Amy jerked her head around in
surprise. 'I almost forgot she was there.' She thought.

"No." The readhead repeated. "Let her speak. I..I need
to hear this."

Amy's lips began to curl up yet again and a sharp word
arose in her throat. Then the dull ache of her wounded hand seemed to
twist about in her head and both reactions died stillborne.


Tara sighed, she lifted her head out of Amy's lap
despite the others small cry of dismay. Turning her head slowly she
locked eyes with the redhead.

"She killed you." Tara began yet again. "And..there was
so much blood. I heard, I heard that the entire roof was covered in
it. Even after you were dead, supposedly Faith just kept cutting and
cutting. She..it's like she was trying to kill you, anywhere you might
go."

"Say it again." The command was spat out through tightly
clenched teeth.

Tara obeyed. "Faith... just..she killed you as ..and
your baby she.." Tara's voice began to crack.

"Say it again!!"

"She killed you!" Tara blurted. "With..her knife.
Stabbed and cut..the baby was ..and Buffy."

"Again!"

"She butchered you!" Louder.

"Again!!"

"She slaughtered your daughter!" Screaming.

"AGAIN!!" The redhead screamed back, leaping to her feet,
leaping at Tara and stopping mere inches from the wiccan's nose. A
tiny rivlut of saliva worked it's way between the girls teeth, over
her lower lip and hung there for an eterinity.

"She..." Tara gasped. "She hurt Buffy."

In utter contrast to the volume used a second before the
question uttered from dead lips was exquistily quiet.

"Buffy wasn't dead. Before you I mean." Tara whimpered. "Faith
hurt her..for hours."

The redhead took a numb step backwards. "But..but I felt her
..she died.. I know it."

"No." Tara whispered helplessly shaking her head. "Goddess no,
I'm sorry but Buffy was... Faith hurt her before she let Buffy die."

"H..how? How do you know?" The girl demanded quietly.

"The newspaper." Tara replied. "The..story was about how
she..she..was..found..covered..and...she was still alive when they
found her. For a while."

She tried to take another step backwards but her legs gave way
and she collapsed between the table and the sofa. "What did she do to
her?" She growled. "What did Faith do to Buffy!?"

Tara's jaw worked silently for a few seconds. "I.." She
started over. "I don't know."

Air rasped in and out of dead lungs, a mind that was far too
alive not being aware that the exercise in breathing was unnecessary.
The sounds of breathing from a dead person grew louder and louder in
the small, dark room, until, a high pitched keening wail that built
into a full throated scream then cultimated in violence.

"FaaaaiiiiiiiiTTTTTTHHHHHH!!!!" The redhead screamed standing
up and putting her fist through the glass tabletop. Her blow carried
through the flimsy matter and smashed into the carpeted floor but this
too proved no barrier. The rug was pulverised and driven down into the
cement foundation of the house and that too yielded allowing the fist
to be embedded within with a sickening crunch.

Again the redhead raised her arm let fly, again the cement,
solid rock, did give before her, and again, and again, each time with
the sound of flesh and bone being ground to pulp. The entire exercise
in futility was done in silence; silence of two witches staring in
abject horror, silence as an ancient force did ruffle it's feathers
slightly deciding that, at last, she was ready; silence as tears,
fresh ones, slid down her cheecks and agony curled in her guts.

It didn't matter though. Rage could only last so long, quick
and fast is was, burning itself out but the hate, and the pain those
would be a source of power for a long time; a harsh mistress, a
ceasless task master that would drive the girl on, never giving her
peace or respite. She would have to earn those and only through
vengence would they be paid for.

She stopped trying to destroy the floor as her rage burned
out, guttered and died for the most part. Her legs gave way to the
pull of the world and she slumped back against the base of the sofa
resting her face in her hands, on a mutilated mess of ruptured tissue
and bone, but quickly becoming less so before the two witches eyes.

"Willow...your hand." Tara began, out of the corner of her eye
she noticed Amy's wounded limb still slowly dripping blood onto the
carpet. "Amy! Your hand! What happened?"

The other blonde glanced at her own wound and her eyes, almost
drawn against there will, tracked across the room to rest upon the
black bird that had fluttered back to the girls shoulder. It seemed to
be waiting for her for as she looked up on It, It, in turn, was
staring at her. The human quickly broke the lock first.

"A lesson." Amy muttered. "Just a lesson."

Tara clucked her tounge a few times, reaching into her pocket.
"We..we'll never g-get those stains out of the carpeting." She pulled
out a hankerchief and gently wrapped it around Amy's palm. She tucked
the edges of the hankerchief into the wrapping so it wouldn't come
loose easily. Giving into an impulse or even a need for something
comforting Tara tried to give Amy's hand a tender kiss but her lover
pulled the hand away, beyond reach.

"No." She whispered. "Not now. It..it wouldn't be right."

With her hands, the one fully healed as if never harmed, spoke
up. "Yes, do it now. Always do it, never let anything stop you." She
turned to stare at the two lovers. "Never let anything stop you." She
repeated.

Her face was wet with moisture streaming down her face. Tears,
salty, but cold. Cold tears from cold flesh falling to a cold floor of
broken glass, torn carpeting and crushed cement. Her eyes though were
colder still. Like glimmering emeralds in the gloom of the house.
Shimmering, reflecting, captureing light and twisting it outward just
like the prescious gems would. And they had all the warmth of the gems
as well.

"It is alright now." The redhead continued. "It..wouldn't
bother me." She rubbed at her temple wearily. "It..might even help a
little." She smiled slightly lowering her hand. "Help me, seeing that
love still ..is?"

With a slight sigh of relief Amy held her arms open and Tara,
without a sound collapsed into Amy's embrace. 'At last.' She thought
to herself, cradling her head on Amy chest while working her arms
around her lovers waist. 'Something warm.'
She nestled down, luxeriating, briefly the warmth of Amy's
sweater, the heat from her arms around her, the stead beat of her
heart right next to her ear. A stab of guilt arced across her own
heart, here she was safe in the arms of her love and behind her, left
all alone...

'But she insisted.' Her mind countered. 'That doen't make it
any better though.'

"Willow." Tara said, voice slightly muffled be Amy's sweater
and embrace. "It..it hurts to see you."

"It hurts to be seen." The redhead replied distantly. She
sighed. "Go to bed. Get some rest I'll be gone soon. Where..I don't
know. To do what...that I do know."

"And that would be what?" Amy said gently rubbing Tara's back
and neck.

"Find Faith." The girl shrugged.

"And after that?" The Wiccan demanded.

"I..I don't know." The redhead seemed to wilt. "Maybe..."

"We'll help." Tara's muffled voice spoke up. "We have too.
I..I have to." She pulled away a bit and looked up at Amy's face. "I
do. You know that don't you?"

"Yes." Amy nodded. "I know and we will help."

"How can you help?" The redhead snorted getting to her feet.
"I mean really. What can you do?"

"We can...uh.." Tara briefly wore a look of panic. "We can
give you something to wear. Cause..it wouldn't be a good idea to walk
around like that."

The redhead looked at the tattered and torn dress that was
barely preserving any modesty she might have once had. "If you say
so." She shrugged again. "But I can find something myself. This isn't
a game Tara. This isn't the Scooby Gang anymore. That's dead..we're
dead.. I'M dead! Don't you get it? Don't you understand?"


"Yes." Tara said turning around in Amy's arms. "I think I do.
Amy does as well..now. Thats..that's why we're going to help. And the
others too we should.."

"No!" The girls shout bounced around the room. "We don't tell
them. They've..gotten over it Not gonna drag them back into..whatever.
We just don't tell them. Please.. I shouldn't have even.. come here
and it's all just.. just don't. Please."

"If..if that's what you want." Amy said.

"We can help." Tara insisted in the backround. "We ..we can
help you find Faith. Y-you think we didn't want too? That we just let
it go? We..we tried to find her, cause, even though the cops said
there were n-no suspects we knew. All of us..w-we knew and we tried."

"So how can you help?" The redhead asked again.

"Well..we tried..in the past to..scy Faith. Find out where she
was but..it never really worked." Amy shrugged. "The best we could get
was LA. She was somewhere in LA. and it's not exactly like we were in
touch with your friends that much."

Tara studed the new pattern of red in their now destroyed
floor. 'There goes the security deposit' her mind informed her
helplessly. "That..that would be my fault. What with everything..I
tried to do..so.."

"I can't be here." Willow said slowly, getting to her feet.
"I..can't it..it's not allowed. I'm..not sure but..it's against the
rules. Go to bed. Just..go to bed..sleep. Try and forget. I'm sorry
for all of this."

"We're coming then." Tara said sitting up straight.
"We'll..we'll come with you to Los Angels. We'll help you f-find
Faith. Do you think this is just about you? She hurt all of us,
Xander, Anya everybody! So..so we're coming along too and..and you
can't stop us."

With those words the black bird on the redheads shoulder
flapped it's wings and landed on the space of the sofa	seperating the
one woman from the two wiccans. It stretched it's wings out to their
full length and stayed that way. The meaning was clear; that of a
barrier.

"Yes." The girl replied looking at the bird. "I do think it's
just about me. I know it is. Faith killed us. She killed our child,
she killed my wife and she killed me. That's why I was brought back;
for vengence, but to be taken alone. I have to go now."

She stepped around the ruins of the small table that had been
the center of the room. "Sorry about that." She said indicitating the
mess. She steped toward the front door.

"Willow, wait!" Amy cried out. The redhead turned around
slowly, reluctantly.

Dashing out of the room Amy came back a few seconds later, in
her arms she carried clothing. These she tossed on the ground. "Take
them." She said. "We will help you, and if all we can do is prevent
you from being a naked women on a vengence trip than that'll have to
do."

The redhead knelt down and, it seemed reverently, ran her
fingers over the black jeans that lay on the floor. Also in the tangle
of clothing was a simple dark red button down shirt and black socks.
There even was a bra..also black.

"And..and..you can have my boots!" Tara suddenly piped up. She
too rushed out of the room and came back a moment later with the items
in question.

The redhead sighed. "Tara, they probably won't fit and I.."

"Y-yes they will." Tara nodded. "I..uh..I know so."

The boots joined the pile on the floor. They were grey, with a
just the tiniest bit of a heel and the material seemed to be soft
leather that, when worn would be a snug fit that stretched up the leg
and end just below the knee. They also were a deep, grey color.


"I..I..that is..." The redhead stuttered. She then gave a
sigh. "Where can I change?"

"Uh..the ..bathroom is through that door over there." Tara
said pointing in the direction.

Gathering the clothes up in her arms the girl crossed the room
and shut the door firmly.

The two wiccans sat, reluctantly on the couch. As they had
moved about the room It had followed them with it's eyes, wings still
outstreched, still playing the role of the barrier between them and
It's vessel. The empty minutes passed, the two of them, holding
hands, Tara mindful of her lovers injury being gentle. The sat on the
sofa as The Crow stood on the table, it's wings marking a border they
were not to pass. Where the redhead was, being on the other side of
that line.

And so they sat in the dark, waiting for the what had once
been to return.

With a flurry of feathers and the beat of powerful wings It
took to the air and, flying across the dark room, and vanished out the
still open window into the night.

"Uh.." Amy said in a puzzelled tone.

"Goddess!" Tara exclaimed and leaping to her feet hurried over
to the bathroom door. She flung it open and stared. Amy peered into
the room over her shoulder. The white neon light from within stabbed
across the dark living room floor creating very black, deep, shadows
of the two of them on the floor, on the carpeting, on the blood.

Within the wind, flowing in from the open window pushed gently
on the curtains. The rags that the girl had been wearing were sitting
neatly folded, or as neatly folded as possible, on the closed lid of
the toilet. There was no message, there was no note, no words in
lipstick on the mirror. Just an open window and some folded rags.

"She's gone." Tara said sadly.

"Yes." Amy replied. She gently placed her good hand on Tara's
shoulder.

"What do we do now?" Tara asked.

"We go to bed." Amy answered. "We go to bed and try and get
warm."