(REPOST) FF: Thoughts Of Us

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TITLE: Thoughts Of Us
AUTHOR: Arimis Adkinson
DISCLAIMER: All characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. I
don't own anything.
SUMMARY: Thoughts of love are spoken.
SPOILERS: None.
DISTRIBUTION: If you want it take it just let me know where it is.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This was my first fic. I looked it over and decided to
repost it and correct the mistakes I made the first time I posted it.
Feedback: As always I need the encouragement.

( Buffy's P.o.V )

" I love you. I have loved you from day one. You saved my life did
you know that ? I was alone and frightened and so close to the edge. I
had lost so much and never had a best friend before I meet you. You
showed me that I didn't have to be alone. I was a stranger in a new
place, just a face in the crowd. But the moment I saw I knew I had to
get to know you and maybe borrow a little of the light and innocence
that surrounded you."

" God ! do you know your what keeps me going? That your first thing on
my mind in the morning and the last before I go to sleep at night. My
dreams are full of you. Your Lips, Your smile, the light in your eyes
when you're happy and how my heart breaks when you're sad. The sound of
your laughter is like music or how I want to make you laugh forever. "

" But you don't see me do you ? You only see him. I sit outside in
the sun watching you laugh and smile at him the way I wish you would
with me. I watch him kiss you and I want to kill him. Finally when I had
gotten over my stupid infatuation with the unattainable and gotten ready
to confess my secret to you, you were coming to me for advice about him
because I'm your best friend. And because I love you and I want your
happiness above my own I helped you win him over. "

" So here I sit watching you sleep in my room in my bed probably
dreaming of him talking to myself. Saying in the dark all those thing
that I'm afraid to say in the light of day. You are so beautiful in your
so peaceful like an angel. You're my own personal angel. And I sit and
watch you sleep and listen to you breath. I'm so caught up in your spell
I don't notice you wake up until you call my name."
"What?"
" I asked if you were ok " you mumbled sleepily
" I'm fine just came back from the bathroom." I lie easily " Go back to
sleep you're meeting your guy for breakfast in a few hours." I smile at
you. You smile back dreamily " That's why I love you. You're always
thinking about others first." you reply and kiss me on the cheek and
snuggle back down into the warmth of blankets pulling me also down with
a yawn and cuddle up close to me your head on my shoulder." Love you
too" I reply as sleep claims you totally unaware of the state your
innocent displays of friendly affection left me in . "More than you will
ever know. " I say as inhale the scent of your hair. So I state once
again I love you and will love you forever. And I will wait for a day
when I can tell you this.

Because I know that will come, it has too. That thought alone keeps
me sane on nights such as these as I drift off to sleep and dream of
you.

THE END