FIC: A New Day 2/?

[jeepy91@xxxxxxx]

Hey guys, here's part 2. Thanks for the feedback :)

And for those having trouble with the formatting, here's the FF.Net link: http://fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=682956&chapter=2

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5 minutes later and she still hasn’t said a word. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. I’ve never known Willow to be so quiet. She’s known for her babble, not her pointed silence. I’m beginning to lean towards the side of badness now. “Will? Are you ok? I think I broke you or something.� Well my attempt at lightening up the mood didn’t make me feel any better, so I’m assuming it didn’t put her at any more ease either.

“Huh? Uh no, no breaking, I’m ok, not broken in the least bit. Surprised definitely, but not broken.� Willow manages to babble out enough to assure me that she indeed is still capable of speech. But that still doesn’t help me figure out how bad her reaction to my dirty little secret is going to be.

“Please don’t hate me, I don’t know what I can say or do to keep you from hating me, but I’ll do whatever it takes. I don’t know why I did it, I still can’t explain it. And I never wanted to tell you, because I was afraid you’d hate me.� I’m starting to cry now, tears slowly dripping from my eyes and finding their way down my cheeks, leaving solitary wet tracks in their wake.

Willow quickly turns her head around to look at me as I continue to gently sob. I’ve managed to curl myself up into a ball in the chair and have buried my head into the material of my sweat pants. “Buffy, I could never, NEVER, hate you. I don’t want you ever thinking that. And not to bring up a bad subject, but you almost killed all of us, granted it wasn’t your fault, but if I was going to hate you for something, that would be the more likely candidate.� Willow gets up out ofher chair and kneels down in front of me. I manage to look up at her through watery eyes and see that gentle, loving smile that she’s always had. “I’m not gonna say it doesn’t bother me that you slept with Spike, because it does. But I would never hate you because ofit.�

“I’m so sorry Willow, I don’t know why I did it, I really don’t. Can you ever forgive me?� I’m acting like I cheated on her or something. I hope she doesn’t pick up on that, because then I’m definitely going to be blown out of the water.

“Buffy, it’s your life, what you do with it has nothingto do with me. There’s nothing that I have to forgive you for, youdidn’t do anything to me.� She smiles again and takes my hand in her own warm palm and squeezes reassuringly. “But I will tell you what I told the Bot last spring..�

“The Bot?� Ok, I don’t have a clue what she’s talking about. I never knew that she and the Bot had an encounter. I can’t help feeling a little bit hurt again. They apparently had aconversation and she still couldn’t tell it wasn’t me.

“Uh yeah, she showed up at Xander’s apartment looking for Spike, and I answered the door. We went out on the terrace so we wouldn’t wake everyone else up.â€? Willow’s blushing a little bit, so I imagine she’s thinking about the same thing I am, how she couldn’t have known it wasn’t me. “I still can’t believe I didn’t know it wasn’t you, I mean I knew there was something wrong with her, I mean besides the obvious, being Spike’s sex slave and……..â€? I turned my head a