Fic: Fade to Black

["slayer1252001" <slayer1252001@xxxxxxxxx>]

Fade to Black
Slayer125 (slayer1252001@yahoo)
Pairing (your choice)
Small little stand alone, everyone has felt this way at least once. 
Remember these moments because it makes the special ones even more 
special.




I can't believe it.

I refuse to believe that she is gone, I look and I see tears but 
they have hope. I did too just hours ago but that was before.

Oh my god I cant breathe, I am trying but I can't the pain is so 
bad. The tightening of my chest is squeezing the very essence of my 
life out inch by bloody inch. How could fate ever be this cruel? I 
look around and everything is just the way she left it. I feel a 
tortured laugh erupt as I notice she didn't put her damn pants in 
the laundry again. Everyone looks at me some like I am crazy and 
some like scared. They probably are both right. This can't happen 
and you keep your sanity&.no..no no NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! If I scream it 
loud enough I will all go away right? Looking around their eyes are 
still watching me..I choke on a sob.

Legs no longer supporting me I fall to my knees cursing every 
existence that has brought me to this point. Just this morning we 
made love and it was ohhhhh so sweet there was cuddles and 
now&..NO!!!NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!! She can't be gone. Doesn't her 
existence mean anything to you so called Powers That Be? How can you 
be powerful and take away the only fucking good thing we had?

I lay down on the floor wanting it to envelop me and swallow me 
whole. Free me from the existence I know that looms in front of me. 
My eyes close and where I wish for nothing but darkness I see her 
face, tears running down, hands outstretched. OH MY GOD she doesn't 
want to leave can't you bring her back please I am begging!!!! Can't 
you see she is scared and needs me. 

My eyes open trying to escape the screams echoing in my head, she 
doesn't want to leave me. I have to save her but I know this time I 
can't, there were no demons, no evil&.she is just&..

GONE

OH my god it can't be. I am on my feet rushing out the door not 
feeling the rocks and glass tearing my feet to shreds. I can't feel 
pain, she can't feel pain. 

I push through the doors and push past the nurses needing to see her 
one last time. Hands grab me but punches are thrown and there is 
blood everywhere, is it mine? Does it matter?"  

It wasn't supposed to be like this, if it wasn't a demon then we 
were supposed to go together oh please god let us go together. I am 
almost there, I know she is gone but I sense her. Please let me 
reach her&.. I hear people screaming as I throw open the door not 
feeling anything but a sharp sting in my chest . I see her, oh god, 
oh yes&..there she is&.this is how it is supposed to be&

I hear my name&.don't worry baby they wont take you&no, don't be 
scared&.i feel a hand wrap around mine and everything is right&&&

Everything is here in my arms

Everything fades to black&.

The End or The Beginning that is up to you







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