Story: Allies & Enemies: The Scourge of Europe

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TITLE: Allies & Enemies: The Scourge of Europe
AUTHOR: Femvamp
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The Scourge of Europe

Human. I haven't been human in over two hundred years. I've been 
other things though. I've been the devil with the face of an angel. 
I've been the scourge of Europe. I've been Angelus. I've been Angel. 
I've even been in love with a slayer. Human is something I haven't 
been in a long long time.

Human again.. What would I do if I was human again? Would I continue 
to fight the demons and the evil? Would I continue to help the 
hopeless? Or would I settle down with some mortal woman and raise a 
bunch of mortal children? 

I like to believe that I became evil after I was turned, the truth of 
the matter is, I was never a very good human. I was a drunk and a 
womanizer. Would I be the same man I was then or as my time as a 
vampire changed me as much as the demon inside has? Would I be a 
better human then I was then or would I make the same mistakes I made 
then?

And what about Buffy? Would I get a second chance with her? Cordelia 
told me that she is in love with Willow and I know that Willow is in 
love with her. I guess the answer is no. I would never get in 
between them. 

I was the scourge of Europe. I reeked havoc on the world. I was the 
best of the best. I killed thousands of people. I drank from the 
blood of the innocent. The innocents were my favorite targets. I 
loved to corrupt them. I was good at that too. Corruption and murder 
were my two favorite sports.

My best work was with Drucilla. I was so proud of what I did to her. 
She was so good. She was so pure, a little off but pure. Then I 
drover her completely over the edge. Oh but I didn't stop there. I 
turned her. I drove her mad and then I made her a vampire. A crazy 
dangerous vampire. I was so proud.

And Spike. What can I say about William the Bloody. He was just so 
cool. I couldn't help but turn him. He made the perfect vampire and 
he earned his nickname. 

Spike and Dru. They were always my favorites. My best work. Even 
now I have a soft spot in my heart for both of them. I guess that 
means there is still some hope for me.

Now I have a chance to put that all behind me. To become human. To 
see the sunlight again. To feel the sunlight on my skin. To fall in 
love and not become evil afterwards. That's what I want.

But I'm not ready.

I know that. I still have too much to pay for. My debt is still too 
high.

I'm just not ready.

But some day I will be.