RE: Re: Becoming Real Part 14

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Title: Becoming Real Part 14
Rating: NC- 17. Smut Warning not for the squeamish
Chapter Fourteen: The Edge of Sixteen
Disclaimer: All BTVS characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy.
Summary: Set seven years after The Reinfield. Yes it is a sequel. 
Feed Back: YES! Please!
Thanks: Cheryl Hill for the Beta. AnneBar who I miss a great deal. 

The Edge of Sixteen

It was midnight when the phone rang at the Wilson's' house. "Hello, Mrs.
Wilson is Duncan there?"

"I don't allow the girls to have company this late Ms.... which one of them
are you again?"

"King, Tara King and can you please check. "

"Is she there." Buffy anxiously asked on one end of the phone as Paul Wilson
asked, "Who is it Honey?" on the other end from the background.

"It's those women. They want to know if Rachel is here."

"That would explain the whispering outside of Amy's door." Paul stated, he
had been on his way to ask his wife to look in on the girls. He preferred
her to catch them doing things rather than himself. He didn't like being the
bad guy.

"Why didn't you find out." She shouted at her husband. "Here you talk to
them." Shoving the phone in his face before storming out of the bedroom
door.

"My wife is checking." Paul spoke into the phone.

Chris Wilson burst into her daughter's room expecting to find? Actually she
had no idea what she expected to find. What she did find was her two
daughters' and Rachel Duncan sitting in different corners of the room.
Rachel was hugging her bag as tears poured down her cheeks. In a second she
knew what had happened.

"You ran away from home didn't you." She asked, Duncan just nodded her head.
"With your parents I am not surprised. You can stay tonight and we will talk
about it tomorrow." Chris Wilson said looking at the girl. "Amy, you and
your sister get her something to eat."

Chris got her settled in and left the girls in the kitchen. Paul was still
on the phone when she returned. 

"I don't know they went to the kitchen." He tried to explain to three
frantic women. 

"Paul let me have the phone." Chris said holding her arm out.

"She's ok?" Buffy asked from the other line.

"Other than the bruise across her neck she seems ok. Do you want to tell me
what happened?" Chris asked.

"We had a fight. We are coming to get her." Buffy stated.

"Not tonight. I think you two need some time apart. Come by in the morning
after a good nights sleep, things will be better." Chris could hear Buffy
crying on the other end as well as at least one of the other women. Chris
may not have liked their lifestyle but she knew they loved the girl.

"But she is safe?" Buffy asked.

"Thanks Ms. Wilson we are grateful to you. We have been worried sick since
we found out she left." Tara said on the other extension.

"How long has she been gone?"

"Almost three hours." Willow said from the third phone line.

(((((((((((((((****))))))))))))))))))))

Soon after they had found Duncan Buffy left to go on patrol. Willow and
Tara both knew she had gone to wait outside of the Wilson's house. Duncans
leaving had devastated Buffy. After Kate had fallen asleep Buffy had gone
upstairs to check on Duncan and found her gone. Thanks to Kate's cool head
they had called her friends homes first. The slayer had been fit to be tied.
Buffy was torn between so many emotions.

Her immortal Slayer Angel Shiva had experience of numerous lives that were
buried within her subconscious. That part of her psyche was furious and
feeling betrayed by her beloved Reinfield. The slayers anger swelling each
minute. The Buffy part was just hurt and scared. She had been with Duncan so
long she couldn't fathom life without her. She needed Duncan. Loved her,
wasn't that enough?

Buffy just found a spot across the street from the Wilson's to wait. Her
Shiva part wanted to storm the house and drag Duncan from it kicking and
screaming. She wanted to take the girl home and chain her in the basement
for a month. Take the whip to her skin. Beat out whatever had possessed her
lash by lash. Instead Buffy wrapped her arms around herself and let her mind
drift to happier times.

(((((((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))))))))

"Whoosh Whoosh" Duncan said holding her doll up to show Buffy how Xena
fought off demons. "Whompa balmba, bozuba whoosh whoosh." Duncan continued
as her Xena Doll beat up her Venom action figure. Buffy couldn't stop
laughing at the girl.

"Buff... eeeee liiiiiike Whoosh... kkkkkill... bbbaaadd tring." Duncan
explained happily handing her Xena doll to Buffy before curling up in her
lap. 

"Buffy like Whoosh and kill bad things." Buffy translated. She loved the way
the girl thought of her as a hero. Duncan smiled and leaned up to kiss her.
Buffy took her lips and deepened the kiss while her hand drifted between her
legs. Duncan responded by spreading her legs open and pushing her tongue in
Buffy's waiting mouth. Love making with Duncan was always so simple. The
girl was always ready, happy to do anything Buffy desired. Buffy gently
pushed the girl off her lap and opened her own legs. Duncan set her Xena
doll off to the side and kissed Buffy's knee. She would work her way slowly
up the slayers legs with her gentle kisses.

Another time, another place. Buffy remembered having Duncan pinned to the
ground in the living room. All the furniture broke and out of place. The
room a mess. She remembered not being able to stop laughing as Willow stood
in the door hands on her hips. "You two will never watch Xena in the same
room at the same time again." Willow had announced but even she was smiling
as she said it.

Thoughts of the family's first camping trip. Duncan caught upside down in
her sleeping bag. Duncan catching her first fish. Tara and Willow trying to
set the fish free after Duncan had caught it. Duncan and her shopping at the
mall. Taking Duncan to see Star Wars Episode III and trying to explain to
the girl that it was the third episode but the sixth Star Wars film. Duncan
loved movies so much. Giles yelling at her for corrupting the girls mind.
Duncans first report card. She was so proud of Duncan for going to school. 

Duncan was somewhere between child and lover to Buffy. She had been a child
herself when she was bound to Duncan and they had both changed so much. 
Inside the Wilson house Duncan peeked out the window. It was still a few
hours to sunrise. She had felt Buffy's presence for a long time and she
still didn't know how she felt about that. Not that Duncan knew how she felt
about anything at that moment. She had never been human. Never had human
emotions and feelings and now that she was having them she didn't understand
them at all.

She was happy Buffy had found her. She was also angry that Buffy had found
her. She loved Buffy and hated her all at once. Mostly she didn't know how
she felt. Which was how most teens feel in the long run. Looking around at
Amy's room, at the life she would never have Duncan quietly picked up her
bag and left the room.

Duncan walked quietly down the stairs and opened the back door. She knew
Buffy would see her. Knew that either Buffy's night vision would pick up her
movements or her bond would. Either way she knew Buffy would come into the
house. Duncan opened the basement door that led to the family room. She
didn't want to wake the Wilson's. Humans needed more sleep then Slayers and
Reinfields.

Buffy entered the house and closed the door. She then moved to the basement
door and followed Duncan downstairs. She had never been in this part of the
Wilson house. Duncan was seated on the coach. Buffy sat down on the floor
facing Duncan. The two just sat there for several minutes not speaking.

"I can't be your slave anymore." Duncan stated out of the blue.

"I don't think you can survive without the bond. Besides you are too young
to be on your own." Buffy replied fighting back the tears.

"I can't be your slave any more." Duncan repeated.

"Duncan I didn't create the world I didn't make things the way they are. You
belong to me. I can't change that, I don't want to change that. I need you.
Damn it, I love you."

"No you own me. There is a difference." Duncan said quietly.

"Would you prefer me to sell you to someone else. You have to be bonded. I
could bond you to Will or Tara." Buffy offered as the tears began to fall.

"Willow or Tara belong to you, being bonded to them would be the same as
being bonded to you now. And I am not talking about being bonded. You're the
only one I have ever wanted to be bonded with. I would rather die then bond
with anyone else. I just can't be your slave anymore. I want a safety
word." Duncan said frankly.

"You want a safety word? If that is all you wanted Duncan you only had to
ask."

"That's just it Buffy I had to ask?"

"I am missing something again." 

"When you took Kate in, how many times did you go over the safety words.
Made sure she would use them. No matter what you did to her, you made sure
not to hurt her. You gave her a means to opt out. You gave her a choice.
Buffy I never had a choice. Never."

"I'm sorry." Buffy said trying to figure out exactly what Duncan was saying.


"You never had a choice either, so you may not understand. They made you
what you are, they made you a slayer. Not that you would know how to be
anything else. And if you thought about it you don't want to be anything
else."

"I don't have to think about it. I like being a slayer Duncan. There was a
time when I hated it but .. I like my life. I like helping people. I love
You, Willow and Tara. Even Kate. I have great friends, Giles, Beth, Xander
and Anya."

"Who could blame you. You're Xena. You're the Hero. You save people. I'm not
even Gabrielle. Not even the sidekick, you have Tara and Willow for that.
And now you have Kate too. I'm your dirty laundry. The secret from your past
like when Xena would reveal some terrible thing she did when she was evil
Xena. I'm a fucking Reinfield. A bug eating sex slave. Nobody wants to admit
I am part of the story. I'm Joxer the Mighty without the crush on Gabrielle
and the song. I'm comic relief. But nobody admits to sleeping with Joxer."
Duncan said as she began to pace the room.

"Meg, Meg slept with Joxer."

"That is not the point and you know it."

"Maybe it is. I never bought the 'all these people just look like me' thing.
What if Meg was just a sluttier version of Xena?"

"Now you are really not helping." Duncan said floppy on the floor next to
Buffy.

"Do you remember what our lives were like before I married Willow?" Buffy
asked.

"Some of it, not all." 

"Well it wasn't that great. You and I had some rough times. But even in the
worst of it I kept you hidden. Outside of Giles and Beth none of my family
and friends knew about you."

"Expect for Angel."

"Angel already knew about Reinfields"

"And he could smell me on you."

"That too but it's not the point. The point is if I wanted to hide you, well
we have a fully functional dungeon. You would still be chained to my bed.
Duncan I didn't want to live that kind of life. And one of the reasons was
you. I didn't like hurting you." Buffy said smiling at the girl.

"I still remember the way Xander would look at me. I knew it was hate he had
in his eyes."

"Why did you bite him. I have always wondered about that?"

"It's not like I really hurt him."

"He needed nine stitches and you didn't answer the question."

"He called you a bitch. A selfish bitch." Duncan replied.

"So you bit him? There had to be more to it?"

"It was the way he said it. And I warned him. I growled first."

"Well that makes all the difference." Buffy said smiling, then taking on a
serious expression asked, "If it happened now would you still bite him?"

"If I bit Xander every time he said something stupid there wouldn't be
enough of him to bury."

"True. When you say you don't want to be my slave anymore what do you mean?
Explain it."

"I want control over my body. Safety words. I want to fuck you sometimes
instead of the other way around. I want to be real. A real person. I want to
be treated like you treat Kate or Willow or Tara. I want to make my own
decisions."

"And if I say no?"

"I don't know? Being bonded makes running away kind of a waste. Once you
calm down and remember you can see into my mind, well what's the point?
Buffy, I need this."

Buffy sat on the floor thinking for a long time. Just thinking. 

"Duncan I have to ask Tara and Willow and I already know I can't give you
everything you are asking for now. You're too young. That isn't an absolute
no, it's more like maybe someday. Safety words are easy. And I like being
fucked so that too is easy. I also never want to do anything to you sexually
that you don't like so again, no brainer. But you have to come home. You
need to finish High School. And if you ask your friends they don't have
total control over their lives. So you're still grounded. "

"Sooner or later you will have to let me go." Duncan said calmly.

"Maybe, for now let's just work this out. Get my wives input. Just don't
ever scare me like this again."

If Chris and Paul Wilson were surprised to find five people sitting in their
living room talking when they got up they didn't show it. 

"Can I get you some coffee?" Chris Wilson asked as she entered the room.

"No thanks Ms. Wilson. We really need to be getting home." Buffy said "And
thanks for letting Duncan spend the night."

"You get everything worked out?" Chris asked staring at Duncan. She would
not let the girl go if things were not all right.

"Most of it." Duncan answered. "I'm going home now." 

"Well if you need to you can always come back." Ms Wilson said not knowing
why she made the offer.

(((((((*****)))))))

Less then twenty feet from the Wilson home, Duncan leaned over and said, "I
get spanked when I get home right?"

"Do you want to be spanked?" Buffy asked

"Oh yeah, with your belt. Really hard."

"I had forgotten how fast teenage emotions can switch around." Tara
whispered to Willow.

"Or how black her ass is going to be for scaring us. " Willow whispered
back.

"Promises Promises." Duncan said as she jumped into the car. She really did
like being spanked.


((((((((((((*************))))))))))))))))))))

Two weeks later.

"Were the hell have you been." Buffy screamed at Wilson pulling her through
the door.

"What did she do this time?" Willow asked taking a deep breath and counting
to ten. Fighting demons was so much easier then raising one.

"You want to whole list?" Buffy said already pulling Willow to the kitchen.
The red-head noticed the open bottle of aspirin on the table. 

"Just tell me what she did."

"She chained Kate in the dungeon and left the house. Just left, she told
Kate to tell me she had a date. A date! I don't know with who or what! For
all I know she is dating a chaos demon or a bantam. Or maybe something
worse. And she is still grounded. And she is going to stay ground at least
until she is thirty. Damn it she knows better then to leave Kate alone when
she is chained up. What if Kate had to go back to work or the house catch on
fire? Kate's not a real Reinfield she could break her chains and free
herself." Buffy was stomping around the kitchen like a bull in a chain shop.


"Buffy calm down. Is Kate ok?"

"Fine, Tara is seeing to her. What ever Duncan did to her before she left,
well Kate was dripping wet. And not the 'I just took a shower dripping wet'
kind of dripping wet."

"You are letting Tara ..."

"Yes, Tara is going to make Kate come. I am not that cruel. Who knows maybe
I am that cruel? Or not cruel enough? The girl is driving me mad." 

-----Original Message-----
From: McKay, Ashley [mailto:ashley.mckay@xxxxxxxxxx]
Sent: Sunday, December 10, 2000 4:57 PM
To: 'buffywantswillow@xxxxxxxxxxx'
Subject: RE: Re: Becoming Real Part 14



> >Title: Becoming Real Part 14
> 
Aaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!

I accidentally deleted this before reading it! Would someone be
kind enough to either repost or forward it to me?

Thanks.

Ashley.


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