FIC: Is This Really Happening?

[montevallo64@xxxxxxxxxxx]

Hi! Sorry this has taken so long, but each time I sit down and write 
my mother comes in and interrupts me! This is the third hight Ive 
tried!

DISCLAIMERS: Joss owns all things Buffy. And I don't know who owns 
IHOP, but its not me.
Notes: [] thinkng, "" speaking.
RECAP:Buffy and Willow have finally admitted their feelings to each 
other, but the smoochies were interrupted by someone at the door.

KNOCK! KNOCK!

Willow struggled out of Buffy's arms, and ends up falling to the 
floor as a head peaks into the room "Xander!? What are you doing here 
this early?" [Damn1 Need to remember to lock the doors next time!] 
Buffy got up and pulled Willow up to her feet. Which in itself was a 
challenge since the girl was trying to crawl under the bed. "Well I 
was just coming over to see how you were, but..." "Xander why don't 
you come in and close the door?" Xander turned around closing the 
door, and effectively hiding his smile. "So. What's up?" "Nothing. 
Just slaying, studying, getting slashed with a big ass knife. You 
know, the usual." "Cool. As nice as that is, I kinda meant the whole 
bed thing." "What do you mean, the whole bed thing? There is no bed 
thing! How could you think there was a bed thing!" "Willow calm down. 
I saw and heard you fall out of the bed." "Oh." Willow looked to 
Buffy. "That. See, Wills and I are together." [How can Buffy be so 
calm?] "Like how wew said together?" It took Buffy's sleep/lust 
filled brain a minute to figure out what he was talking about. "Yeah. 
Together like Tara and-, yeah like we talked about." Willow looked at 
her best friend and her love, hurt that they had a secret, but also 
trying to decide who she could get the info form. "What did you mean 
Tara and? What were you going to say Buffy?" Buffy looked towards 
Xander for help, but all she got was a grin. [Some friend you 
are.] "Well, see what I was talking about was...see I didn't meant 
it, I was just talking and I would never, I was drunk-" "Buffy. Just 
tell me already." Buffy saw the resolve face and prepared herself for 
the mother of all babbles. "Will, me and Xander were talking one 
night, the night you were practicing some spells with Tara, and I 
kinda said something about how the two of you 
lookedmorethaninnocenttogether." [Oh my God! They thought that 
something was going on between Tara and I! I mean there was, sort of, 
but I didn't think that anyone else did! I mean I barely did! At 
least not until-" "Willow?" Buffy held Willow's hand, her eyes 
shinning with concern for the wicca. "What? I'm fine, really." Buffy 
still didn't look convinced. "Really, I'm fine." Willow started to 
turn red remembering what had happened with Tara. [Bad thoughts! Bad, 
bad thoughts! I need to do something.] "You know what? We need to go 
out and get some breakfast." Xander looked bac and forth between his 
two friends, unsure of how to react. "Sure! Where should we go? How 
aboput that pancake place, IHOP? Hey Buffy, what does that stand 
for?] Willow silently thanked Xander for following 
along. "International House of Pancakes." said Buffy, the whole time 
watching Willow. "Thanks Buff. Let's go!" Willow started to reach for 
her coat when she remembered that she was still wearing her clothes 
from the day before. "Xander we'll meet you there in say, thirty 
minutes?" "Okay, but you better hurry or I'll eat all of the 
pancakes." "You do that and I will have to hurt you. Now go so we can 
get ready." "Bye." "Bye." 

Willow started to think of a way to put off the conversation that was 
sure to come. [Think! Think!] "I wonder where I left my shower bag?" 
Buffy watched as her girlfriedn hightailed it to the otherside of the 
room. [That was fast even for Willow. Why is she avoiding I thought 
she would be angry?] "Wills? Are you all right?" "Ofcourse! Why 
wouldn't I be?" "I just thought that you might be a bit mad about 
what I said about Tara and you." Buffy casted her eyes down at the 
floor ashamed of herself, she would never of said the things she did 
if she hadn't of been drunk. Willow went over to the window and 
stared at the people walking by. "It's not like you said anything bad 
Buffy." "Wills, I kinda implied that you and Tara were attracted to 
each other, and other stuff." "What other stuff?" [If Buffy only 
knew!] "Wills I don't want to talk about it! I was drunk," Buffy 
started to tear up, remembering her mom's reaction. "If I hadn't of 
bee she wouldn't know! And I'm just so sorry, you can't believe how 
sorry I am." "What do you mean She? You mean he right?" [How can I 
tell her about my mom right now? God! We just had to stay at my 
house! We couldn't of gone to Giles's!}] Willow watched a couple that 
was strolling along,hand in hand. [Shold I tell her what happened 
with Tara? We'll never have a good relationship if we are not honest 
with each other.] "Buffy. I need to tell you something." Buffy looed 
up with fear and unshed tears in her eyes. "What?" Willow turned back 
around to face Buffy. "I need to tell you something important." 
Seeing Willow's shaken posture, Buffy reached for Willow cradling the 
redhead in her arms. "Okay,tell me." "You weren't, um, Buffy, you 
weren't." "Wills it'll be okay, just tell me." Willow took a deep 
breath to calm herself. "You weren't far off from the truth." The 
blonde's expression changed to one of confusion. "What do you 
mean?" "Tara and I, we... Buffy I'm so sorry!" Buffy felt all of the 
air leave her lungs, but she had to know what had happened, no matter 
how much it hurt her. "Tell me." "Th-That night that you went out 
with Xander, I went to Tara's and we practiced some spells." Willow 
stopped to choke back some tears. Buffy just continued to hold 
Willow, each word killing her again and again. "Buffy I don't want to 
talk-" "I have to know Willow." The wicca looked into Buffy's eyes 
and saw the pain in them. [She deserves to know the truth.] "We were 
doing this spell and something happened and Tara kissed me. And I 
kissed her back, but after I had I felt so bad." Willow let the tears 
flow freely now. [How can Buffy ever forgive me when she learns the 
rest of it?] "You mean that you kissed her?" Willow could only nod 
her head. [Oh that god!] Buffy enveloped Willow into a suffacating 
hug. "Buffy, I-" "Thank god! I'm just so happy!" Willow looked up at 
Buffy. "What?" "Wills I had thought that you had, man I feel stupid! 
Wills I thought that you and Tara had made love." [She knows! Wait a 
minute she said thought. She doesn't understand.] "Wills I can't tell 
you how relieved I am. I know that we weren't together or anything 
about how we feel, but I still feel kind of jealous of her. And when 
you said that I could just feel my heart breaking. I was just 
assuming, I know you would never do anything like that." [I'm never 
going to be able to tell her what happened with Tara.]Buffy wiped the 
tears from her face. "Come on we have to get ready." "What 
for?" "Xander? IHOP?" "Oh yeah." Buffy smiled at Willow and grabbed 
her around the waist as they walked. "Promise me that you'll never 
stop being you. I love her so much, and I don't think I can stand the 
thought of losing her." "You'll never lose me. We're one, and we'll 
be together for a long time."

I finally got to type it all out with out being interrupted!! 
Guess what's going to happen next! 
-angel