TITLE: Penance
AUTHOR: Regina
E-MAIL: brainysmurf16@xxxxxxxxxxx
SUMMARY: My own little epic.
RATING: I'll go with R overall.
TIMELINE: AU
DISTRIBUTION: If anyone actually wants
it, I'd be tickled pink to hear about it.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, If I did I'd be rich right now.
Penance
Life. It?s a funny word really. What does it mean? Different things to different people, I suppose, like love, or home. Idea words are what Buffy always called them. She said that those sorts of words only existed because people believed them. But then again there were a lot of things Buffy didn?t know. Looking back I think I can add ?idea words? to the list.
I don?t know how it came to this. If you told me 40 years ago my life would have ended up this way I would have laughed in your face. Back then I was young, in love, and perfectly happy. Life was normal, well, as normal as life in Sunnydale ever was. There were demons, monsters, vamps, and the occasional apocalypse, but I was happy really. Looking back, it was probably one of the happiest times of my life. It was right before everything went to hell. It was before my world ended, before my soul died, and before I was reduced to being a 63-year old woman sitting alone contemplating the meaning of life. Pursuing an answer no one will ever find.
I don?t why I?m even doing this really, I guess this story is just too important to die with me. So here we go: I?m Willow Rosenburg-Summers, and I?m dying. It?s a slow death, a death of my own choosing, designed to make me remember. To make me remember all the things I wish I could forget. To make me remember her. My love, my life, my reason, and the day I threw it all away. This is my story. This is my penance.