OT Fic: Letting Love In (5-7/7)

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Title: Letting Love In
Author: Sarah Dominik
Spoilers: Anything with Faith is fair game in this
Pairings: B/F and W/T X/A
Summary: Buffy finds out that she was wrong about Faith leaving town 
and finally the two meet up again.
Rating: NC-17
*******

"Mmm...Faith?" Buffy's soft voice brought the younger slayer 
out of her thoughts. Faith felt the smile returning to her lips as 
she tightened her hold on Buffy slightly. "Your still here," Buffy 
mused out loud. But when she felt Faith's body tense she knew she 
said the wrong thing.

"Yeah well I could always leave if you wanted." The tone in 
her voice was a little harsher than she intended it to be.

Buffy let go of her hold on Faith and shifted in the bed so 
she was propped up on her elbow. "Faith, I didn't mean..." she 
trailed off as she saw the hurt in Faiths eyes. She let her hand 
reach out to softly caress Faith's cheek and bent forward to brush 
her lips against the younger girls. "I never want you to leave me 
again," she whispered softly into Faiths ear.

"Then what? You think this was just another get some, get 
gone thing to me?" Faith asked as she tried to get up from the bed, 
but Buffy just pulled her back down. "Last I checked I didn't even 
get any, and it's certainly the last thing I'm worried about getting 
at this point B." 

Buffy couldn't help but smile, even though she knew she 
shouldn't. Faith had completely taken her words the wrong 
way. "Faith, I didn't mean it like that. I know it probably wasn't 
the greatest line to wake up with, and yes I was relieved that your 
still here. Not because I think you just wanna mess around with me, 
but because last night when I fell asleep I was scared I'd wake up 
alone, to find all that great stuff was just a dream. That I'd have 
to go back to life without you."

"Really?" Faith asked as a small smile formed on her lips. 
Buffy just nodded and kissed her once again, knowing that Faith was 
the kind of person who needed that kind of reassurance. "I'm sorry I 
got so defensive like that then," Faith said as they broke apart. "I 
guess I'm just new to having people care about me and I don't know 
how to handle it."

"I more than care about you, I love you Faith. Just don't 
forget that okay?" Buffy smiled when she saw Faith nod in 
response. "And I want you to trust me Faith. Let me into your heart 
and I promise I'll show you just how amazing love can be."
	
Faith took hold of Buffy's hand and placed it over heart so 
the blonde could feel it beating. "Your already in my heart B. You 
always have been." Buffy kissed her girlfriend and climbed out of 
bed. "Where are you going?"

"I was planning on brushing my teeth. That is unless you 
really enjoy kissing me with morning breath," Buffy smiled at her as 
she disappeared into the bathroom. Faith just shrugged. 'As long as 
I'm kissing you I don't care how your breath is,' she thought to 
herself.

When Buffy finally returned from the bathroom she kissed 
Faith again, long and passionately. "Better?" she asked her 
girlfriend with a smirk.

"Oh yes, I just love the taste of listerine. Gets all the 
juices flowing," Faith replied sarcastically. 

"Yeah well I aim to please smartass," Buffy poked Faith in 
the ribs to show she was just playing around. Faith instead of 
continuing their banter pulled Buffy back into her arms. "I missed 
this," Buffy said as she kissed Faiths neck.

"You were only in the bathroom for a few minutes," Faith 
said, once again not getting what Buffy meant. She thought the blonde 
meant being in her arms so she was caught off guard when Buffy 
started laughing.

"Has someone been slipping you stupid pills lately?" Buffy 
just laughed more. "I mean being able to joke with you. You're the 
only one I can be like this with, and when I pick on you I know you 
don't take it seriously or at least I hope you don't. But I don't 
think you do because," she was suddenly silenced by Faith's finger on 
her lips.

"And I see Willow's been slipping you her babble pills." 
Buffy smiled up at Faith and Faith's heart seemed to skip a few beats 
like it always did when Buffy smiled at her. "Want me to let you in 
on a little secret?" Faith asked as she played with Buffy's hair.

"I want to know everything." Buffy laid her head on Faith's 
lap and looked up at her.

"Last night I didn't sleep at all. I just laid here watching 
you sleep and it was the most amazing thing. And I realized that as 
much as it scares me I want to open myself up to you completely, 
because the thought of loosing you scares me even worse."

"You won't ever loose me Faith," Buffy choked out, unable to 
find her voice after hearing what her love just said to her.

Faiths fingers continued to absently play with Buffy's hair 
as she smiled down at her. "There's still a lot we haven't seen of 
each other Buffy. I haven't lost my temper yet and, you already saw 
me get upset for nothing this morning. And I'm stubborn and all these 
other things." Buffy started to say something but Faith just shook 
her head and continued. 

"But above all that, I love you Buffy. And I realized 
something last night. That everything in life comes full circle. All 
the bad I did, it came back to bite me in the ass and I've payed for 
it, and I know I'll continue to pay for it. But the good didn't go 
unnoticed either. At least you saw it and you never gave up on me. I 
realized as scared as I am, if I can't trust in the one person who 
never gave up on me all this time then I wouldn't be living much of a 
life. So I just wanted to tell you that I trust you Buffy and I feel 
really lucky because I know that even if I screw up along the way, 
you'll still love me."
	
Buffy was trying her best not to cry but she couldn't help 
but let a few tears fall. She was amazed at how much Faith was 
opening up to her. "I'll never do anything to break that trust Faith, 
and I love you so much." she sat up and kissed Faith tenderly. "I'm 
really lucky to have you, and I can't even tell you how much it means 
to me that your opening up like this."

"Then how about you kiss me again?" Faith asked with a 
suggestive tone. Buffy moved so she was sitting on Faiths lap and 
wrapped her legs around the brunette.

"I think that could be arranged," she whispered as she 
wrapped her arms around Faith. The two mouths met in a hungry kiss 
and Buffy slid her tongue over Faiths lips until they parted and 
their tongues met in what seemed to be a sacred dance. Faiths hands 
moved up and down Buffy's back as she deepened the kiss with her.

When Buffy pulled away for air she felt Faiths tongue sliding 
across the smooth skin of her neck and she let out a soft moan. Her 
brought her hands up and her fingers found their way into Faith's 
hair as she gently held Faith to her. When Faith finally realized she 
needed oxygen she pulled back to look into Buffy's eyes. They were 
full of so much love and passion she knew her greatest fantasy was 
about to come true.

With trembling hands she reached out to lift Buffy's 
nightshirt off and Buffy couldn't help but melt when she saw how 
nervous Faith was. Maybe it was soon for them, but it would be 
perfect. When the shirt came off Faith smiled as she planted small 
kisses along Buffy's neck. She pulled the blonde who was still 
sitting in her lap closer to her and she felt Buffy wrap her legs 
around her waist tighter.

Faith let her kisses go lower and lower as one of her hands 
moved up between them. She kissed her way down the valley between 
Buffy's breasts as she let her thumb caress one of Buffy's taut 
nipples. Buffy's head fell back in pleasure and she soon felt Faith's 
tongue dart across the other one, sucking it into her mouth slowly. 
Never breaking her contact with Buffy, Faith slowly shifted so Buffy 
was laying on her back on the bed.

"Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?" Faith asked 
before returning her mouth to Buffy's neck. Her hands trailed across 
every inch of Buffy's exposed skin taking in every curve of her body. 
Finally they settled at the waistband of her pants and she looked up 
at Buffy for permission.

Buffy nodded at her and Faith smiled as she slowly pulled the 
pants off, taking Buffy's underwear off with them as well. She lay on 
her side next to Buffy and recaptured her mouth in a passionate kiss 
as her fingers trailed slowly up Buffy's inner thighs until they 
reached her wet center. She slid a tentative finger into Buffy and 
when she felt the older slayer moan in her mouth she slid another 
finger into her. 

Faith thought she would almost die from the pleasure of being 
able to make love to Buffy. She increased her speed, sliding into the 
slayer faster as she trailed kisses along Buffy's jaw line. When 
Buffy's breathing became more ragged she slid in a third finger and 
let her tongue dance across Buffy's nipples. After a few minutes she 
could feel that her lover was close to the edge so she let her thumb 
rub across her swollen nub while pumping into her. She moved her head 
so her mouth was close to Buffy's ear. "That's it, just let go baby. 
Let it all go," she whispered softly. And the blonde did, climaxing 
as Faith whispered in her ear.

When her breathing became more steady Faith pulled out of 
her, and pulled Buffy into her arms once again. Faith didn't notice 
she was crying as she whispered I love you's to the blonde. "Just 
relax now, I won't let anything hurt you Buffy."

"I love you Faith," Buffy buried her face in Faith's neck as 
she tried to get her heart to stop racing. Just as she was about to 
fall back to sleep the door swung open and the two new lovers were 
left staring at a very surprised red head.

"Uhh, welcome home Red," Faith couldn't help but grin as she 
looked at the speechless Buffy.

**********

After a few moments of Buffy and Willow staring at each other 
with their jaws hung open, Faith decided to break the silence. "I 
take it that you like what you see," she stated as she raised her 
eyebrow in question, as she looked the red head in the eyes. She 
thought Willow's eyes were about to pop out of their sockets and 
while she managed to choke back the laughter the cocky grin was once 
again plastered across Faith's face. 

Finally Willow managed to make her body work again and she 
quickly rushed out of the room. As soon as Faith heard the door click 
shut, she broke into laughter. A few moments later she had to release 
her hold on Buffy and hold onto her sides from laughing so hard. "You 
shoulda seen your face B. That was priceless." Faith sucked in a few 
quick breaths trying to calm down. When she looked back into Buffy's 
eyes however the laughter quickly faded away. "Oh come on B, you 
can't be mad at me. That was funny."

Buffy just sent an icy stare in her girlfriend's direction. 
Faith just shrugged. "I thought it was funny. I haven't laughed like 
that in forever." Faith knew Buffy wasn't really mad at her, but she 
knew that awkward situation really got to Buffy. All she wanted was 
to get her love to lighten up a bit. "Oh come on B, you know it was 
funny. Sure it's not the way either of us wanted Red to find out but 
still..."

"You only think it's funny because she didn't notice you have 
Taz undies on," Buffy stuck her tongue out and tried her best to 
pout. Faith decided that was good enough and she pounced back on her 
lover and pinned the smaller girl underneath her.

"Making fun of Taz?" Faith loosened her hold on Buffy's 
wrists and tickled her again.
	
"Stop!" Buffy yelped betweens fits of giggles.

"Really want me to?" Faith did stop tickling her girlfriend 
but now her fingers were sliding up Buffy's body in a suggestive 
manner.

"Not really, but you have to." Buffy saw Faith frown so she 
pulled her down into a tender kiss. "We have to go deal with Willow."

"Already?" Faith had a pleading look in her eyes and Buffy 
felt bad for her...almost. 

"Yup, and of course you had to go make things worse with your 
little comment so now your stuck coming with me to tell her." Buffy 
laughed when Faith groaned.

"Awe, come on B. She'll be blushing 'till Tuesday so we 
should just leave her alone." 

"Nice try, really." Buffy smiled innocently at Faith and 
continued. "You know though, if we get her while she's still 
distracted from the events of this morning, she'll be a lot easier on 
us because she won't be properly focused."

That argument did it for Faith. "Put your clothes on, we've 
gotta go find Red." Buffy looked at Faith, astonished. "Yes, I'm 
actually telling you to put your clothes on. But don't worry, I don't 
plan on it ever happening again." She kissed Buffy and started 
pulling on her clothes that she came in. 

"You're wearing that?" Buffy looked at Faith like she was 
crazy, then was confused when Faith just started shaking her head.

"It's not like I've got much of a wardrobe here B. This is 
your place, not mine." Buffy smiled sheepishly as Faith pointed that 
out, then she blushed when she thought about telling Faith she should 
just leave some clothes there for when she did stay over. "Whatcha 
thinking about?" Faith asked as she walked over to the now dressed 
Buffy and wrapped her arms around her waist. Buffy tried her best to 
not blush and just shook her head. "Oh no you don't. Tell me what 
your thinking B. If it were nothing you wouldn't be blushing."

Buffy knew there was no way of getting around telling Faith 
what she was just thinking so she took a deep breath and told her. "I 
was just kinda thinking maybe you should leave some clothes here so 
when you stay you won't have to put back on the ones from the day 
before."

Faith's smile grew and she kissed Buffy's neck and the blonde 
relaxed in her arms. "Only on one condition. You gotta leave some at 
my place too."

"I think I could handle that," Buffy moved from her lovers 
embrace and walked to the door. "Are you ready to go now?" She held 
out her hand, which Faith happily accepted. 

Their fingers entwined and Faith smiled at her. "Lets 
motorvate and get this over with." The two walked out of the dorm 
room hand and hand with broad smiles across both of their faces. "So 
where are we going to find Red at?"

Buffy gently tugged at Faith's arm getting her to 
follow. "She's most likely over at Tara's. She said she was going 
there last night and I don't think she has any classes today."

"Tara's the girlfriend right?" Buffy nodded in response and 
Faith smiled. "I can't believe Red of all people stopped driving 
stick. Not that anything's wrong with automatic," she said as she 
kissed Buffy. "Hey whatever happened to that Beefstick I used to 
always see you with?"

"Beefstick? Oh you mean Riley. He was a nice guy and all but 
he got kind of boring after a while." Buffy stopped walking and Faith 
assumed they were now at Tara's dorm. "You ready?"

"As ready as I'm gonna get." Faith gave Buffy a quick kiss 
before the blonde knocked on the door. Tara was quick to answer it 
and she blushed as soon as she saw who was there. "I guess Red told 
her about what happened," Faith whispered to Buffy.

Buffy found that she was blushing too, remembering how Willow 
caught them earlier. "Is Willow around Tara? We kind of need to talk 
to her about some stuff."

"Yeah, c-come on in," the shy blonde moved out of the way so 
the two could enter her room. 

"Nice place," Faith commented as she looked around. "I'm 
Faith," she said holding her hand out to Tara.

"T-thanks, and I'm Tara." The blonde shook Faiths hand. Faith 
looked over at Willow who was obviously very uncomfortable with the 
idea of Faith making friends with her girlfriend.

"Will, we need to talk," Buffy walked over to her friend and 
sat down beside her on Tara's bed. "As you uhh, saw earlier Faith and 
I are now together and we really want you to be happy for us."

"How can I be happy for you?" Willow stared at Faith for a 
minute before looking at Buffy again. "She was going to kill me and 
you just forgive her? Have you forgotten what she did to your mom? 
That she worked for the mayor who was trying to ruin the world. How 
can you forget that stuff?"
	
"I haven't forgotten Willow, and neither has Faith. She's not 
the only to blame in this. It was both of our doing. I love her now, 
and I realize I always did. I was just too afraid to admit it before. 
We're in love Will. I'm not asking for you to forget what happened, 
or to forgive her right away but just give her a chance. Let her 
prove to you that she's changed?"

Willow didn't say anything to Buffy, but instead got up and 
walked to Faith. As she looked deep into her eyes she saw fear, and 
insecurity instead of the hatred and disgust that were once there. "I 
swear if you ever do anything like that again, or hurt her, not only 
will I beat you to death with a shovel I'll do some really...bad 
witchy stuff to you." 

Faith smiled a little, and Willow relaxed. "I promise I'll 
make things up to you somehow Red. I love Buffy and I only want to do 
the right thing here." Faith glanced at Buffy. "I really do love her 
Red." Willow smiled at the gentleness in Faith's voice. She knew the 
brunette wasn't lying. "And while I'm here, I know it's not much but 
I am, you know, sorry about before and all. The stuff I did is 
unforgivable but I'd like another chance if you're willing?"

"I think I can do that," Willow smiled and turned her 
attention to Buffy. "And I'll start knocking from now on or 
something." The two best friends both blushed at that comment and 
Buffy just nodded.

"We should get going," Buffy said as she walked over to Faith 
and took her hand. "I want to go tell Giles Faith is back." The two 
started to leave but Faith stopped and turned back to Willow. 

"Thanks," she smiled and the two left, closing the door 
behind them. As soon as they began walking away from Tara's, Faith 
looked at Buffy seriously.

"What's wrong?" 

They stopped walking and Faith kissed her. "Please tell me 
that once we're done telling everyone about us I won't have to be so 
soft around them all. It's killing me." 

Buffy couldn't help but laugh. "I guess some things never 
change do they?" The two began walking again toward's Giles' 
house. "And as long as you don't shut yourself to me, I don't care if 
your soft around them or not. Besides, I kinda like being the only 
one who can see you like that."

"Aww, your blushing again." Faith teased her. 'One down, the 
rest of the world to go,' Faith thought to herself. She glanced at 
Buffy who was trying to hide her blush. Faith knew that if they had 
Willow on their side the rest of the scoobs shouldn't be too bad. Or 
at least she hoped.

**********

As Faith and Buffy walked hand in hand to Giles' house Faith 
was lost in the sensation of simply holding Buffy's hand. "You know, 
I never thought I'd enjoy something so simple," Faith said as she 
squeezed Buffy's hand. 

"What do you mean?" Buffy asked as they continued walking.

"I was never the affectionate type B. With everyone else it 
was just screwing. No cuddling, no affection or `just because' 
kisses. The whole `get some, get gone' thing, ya know? I never 
thought it would feel so nice just to hold someone's hand. And when 
we, you know this morning, that was the first time I ever made love 
to anyone." 

"You know, you look adorable when you get that goofy grin on 
your face Faith," Buffy placed a soft kiss on her girlfriend's 
lips. "I think I'm just lucky to have you love me."

"I still think I'm the lucky one here B. I know I haven't 
done anything to deserve you, but I plan on spending the rest of my 
life doing everything I can to make things right, and to make you 
happy." They kissed again briefly and found that they were only a few 
feet from Giles' house. Faith stopped for a minute and looked at the 
house, trying to push her fears about facing the watcher down.

"Uhh, Faith?" Buffy asked softly causing Faith to loose her 
train of thought. "Xander and Anya just went in there so I guess 
we're going to have to deal with them too."

"Oh no way. I'm so can't handle dealing with Xander and Giles 
at the same time." Faith crossed her arms and went into her fully 
stubborn kid mode.

"Think of it as killing two birds with one stone," Buffy 
shook her head knowing that wouldn't be enough to convince Faith.

"I don't wanna kill anything anymore B," Faith said with a 
smile. "And I still have on dirty clothes so if we just swing by my 
place I can get changed and get a shower and then we can come back 
later or something."

Buffy gave Faith her puppy dog eyes. Still, Faith wouldn't 
budge. "Well we're going to do this first, then we'll go by your 
place and get your clothes and shower and stuff."

"But I want to be clean," Faith pouted, trying her best not 
to laugh at herself. Pouting defiantly didn't suit her.

"Like I said, we'll shower after we do this," Buffy said with 
a suggestive tone in her voice. "I'll make this worth the effort." 
She winked at the brunette and started walking the rest of the way to 
Giles' house.

Faith quickly caught up with her, goofy grin once again 
plastered on her face. "So you'll make it worth my time huh?" She 
took hold of her girlfriend's hand again and shook her head. `I'm so 
whipped already,' she thought to herself. Before Buffy answered her 
she knocked on Giles' door and smiled at Faith. Faith heard someone 
coming closer to the door and tried to relinquish her hold on Buffy's 
hand but the blonde wouldn't let her. 

"We might as well just tell them everything. Get it all over 
with now." 

Just then the door opened and the English watcher just stared 
at the two girls as if they had grown another head. "Buffy?and Faith?"

The blonde just walked past him, dragging Faith with 
her. "That's why we're her Giles, well because as you can see Faith 
is here."

"Yes, I can see that," he said as he closed the door behind 
him and followed the two girls into his living room. He saw that they 
were holding hands and quickly became confused. Of course he assumed 
they were here to explain things to him.

"Hey Bu?" Xander's mouth snapped shut when he saw who was 
standing behind Buffy. He stood up and immediately got 
defensive. "What the hell is she doing her?"

"Just sit down, and I'll explain." Buffy said flatly. The 
whole time Faith was still trying to release her hand from Buffy's 
but the blonde still wouldn't let her. Buffy knew Faith was scared 
about facing them again and didn't want to make things worse for 
Buffy, but Buffy wanted Faith to know there was no way should would 
hide the one she loves from her friends.

Xander quickly noticed they were holding hands and quickly 
became angrier. "Last I heard she was our enemy, tried to kill us and 
end the world so why should I sit down? Now your holding hands with 
her like she's been your best friend since you were five. What the 
hell is that?" Anya stepped up behind him and placed a hand on his 
shoulder trying to calm him down.

"They're orgasm friends. What's wrong with that?" she asked 
almost too innocently. Faith almost choked with the girls bluntness 
and Buffy just blushed. Xander and Buffy both knew that Anya could 
sense that sort of thing.

"Is that really true?" Buffy's silence answered his 
question. "I can't believe you Buffy! How can you forget what she did 
to us?"

"I didn't forget Xander. If you'd just calm down and let me 
talk I could explain it to you," Buffy said trying to hide her anger 
over her friends reaction. He finally complied and Buffy explained 
how Faith had wakened from her coma and tricked everyone into 
thinking she left just so she could stay behind to protect 
Buffy. "She's changed Xander." Buffy glanced at her girlfriend and 
smiled softly at her. "I love her. Even if you don't like her, can't 
you at least be civil? I don't want my best friends fighting with my 
girlfriend."

Xander just threw his hands up in defeat. He really didn't 
want to fight with Buffy knowing that it would only cause him to 
loose a friend. "I don't like you Faith," he stated as he looked her 
right in the eyes. "But if Buffy thinks your different now and loves 
you, then I'll do my best to get along with you for her. And maybe in 
time I'll be able to forgive you, but don't expect it anytime soon."
	
"Fair enough," the brunette said feeling relieved that he 
didn't rip her apart more. 

Giles' who stood behind them the whole time cleared his 
throat reminding them all that he was still there. "Well that's 
certainly quite a shock to us Buffy." He then turned his attention to 
Faith. "And it is always beneficial to have two slayers instead of 
one."

"So your okay with this?" Buffy asked hopeful. She looked at 
Giles' as a father figure and his approval was important to her.

"I don't see why it should harm anything. If you love her 
well, just whatever makes you happy Buffy." As soon as he finished he 
found Buffy hugging him.

"Thanks Giles, that really means a lot to me." She let go of 
her hold on them and walked over to Faith and took her hand in her 
own again. "I know this was really short and all but we just thought 
we'd stop by and let you know what was going on. Faith needs a shower 
and stuff so we're just going to go now." Buffy tried her best not to 
blush as she remembered what she had said to her girlfriend 
earlier. "We'll talk about it more later okay?"

"Thanks," Faith simply said looking at Xander, then Giles 
before she was pulled out of the house by Buffy. "Are you that eager 
to get your hands on me again?" Faith let a cocky smile form on her 
lips as the door shut behind them.

"No, well yes, but no that's not the reason we left. I just 
thought I'd try to make that as short and painless for you as 
possible. And aren't you glad we got it over with now?" She poked 
Faith playfully in the stomach.
	
"Well I suppose it is nice knowing that the scoobs won't try 
to kill me while I'm sleeping one day." The two girls walked until 
they were out of the sight of Giles' house. As soon as they were 
Faith stopped to pull Buffy in her arms and kiss her tenderly.

"See, and now all you have to worry about is loving me," 
Buffy said giving her girlfriend a gorgeous smile that she knew would 
melt the brunette.

"Well that should be easy enough," Faith said softly as she 
kissed Buffy's neck. "I could do that forever and a day."

Buffy turned so she was looking Faith in the eyes and a 
serious look spread upon her features. "Promise?" she asked very 
softly.

Fait took Buffy's hand in her own and lifted it to kiss her 
palm. She returned her gaze to Buffy's and smiled softly. "I promise 
B. I thought it would scare the hell out of me. And I know I'll mess 
up along the way, but I'll never stop loving you. I want to be yours 
for all time B."

Buffy wrapped her arms around Faith and held the taller girl 
to her tightly. "I really like how that sounds Faith," she whispered.

"Yeah, it is pretty nice huh? But you know, we gotta seal the 
deal with a kiss now."

Buffy pulled Faith into a kiss and put as much love into it 
as she could. "For forever," they both said in unison as they broke 
apart. They stayed in each other embrace in the middle of the street 
for several moments lost in thought. Both knowing that they were now 
free to move on from their past, and that the hardest parts were 
already done. They were both ready to start their new lives. Together.

-End