FIC: Blind Faith: The Healing, act 3

["Sam" <shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx>]

Blind Faith: The Healing

By

Sam


Act 3: A question of love.

Email: shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx 
Rating: R 
Disclaimer: Buffy and Faith along with the rest belong to Joss, I am 
only borrowing them for a little while.
Archive: Hey if ya already got something of mine then go for it, 
otherwise shoot me an email and I'll say yes.
Pairing: Buffy/Faith (sorta) W/T, X/Anya
Thanks: Most cool thanks for coy for giving way cool advise and doing 
a rad job at editing and betaing, oh yeah and for being a way cool 
friend also. Way cool thanks to Carol for helping me with the 
technical issues of this fic and well just for being Carol.
Summery: A reformed Faith is injured and faces an uncertain future 
with her fellow slayer.
Notes: It's time to set the stage to get the chosen to together, 
bout freakin' time ain't it :-)
Feedback: I love it; it's the fuel for my 
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Faith leaned back against her head bored and thought about everything 
that had happened to her today. At first she had been really nervous 
about going to the campus but she was glad she did, everyone there 
had been so nice, maybe it was going to be possible for her to make 
it like this after all. She ran her hand over the small wooden box 
that was resting on her lap, that box had helped her make it through 
some of her darkest hours in prison.  

Every time she had felt her world starting to cave in, every time she 
had wondered if she was gonna be able to change she had opened it up 
and talked to the picture of Buffy, <God B if you only knew how much 
you helped me>.

Faith felt around the side of the bed for a few moments until she 
found the nightstand, she then carefully placed the box on it; <guess 
I don't need you anymore, not with the real thing camping outside my 
room. God if I only could talk to B like I talked to you, I'd tell 
her I love her, that I need her, but of course you couldn't run away 
from me, but she can and I don't want to lose her, not know. >

Faith leaned back in bed, <Now only if I can figure out what's going 
on with B. I was afraid that maybe she wouldn't forgive me but she 
did, maybe I still have a chance with her, maybe she still has 
feelings for me, maybe I'm nuts. God I wish there was a chance for 
me and B to get back together, but I might have burnt that bridge, if 
only I hadn't been so fuckin' stupid and saw how good I had it, but 
no I had to go all evil and ruin the best thing I had going in my 
life?way to go, guess I should get the how to screw everything up 
award, but maybe I didn't screw it up as bad as I thought I did.  
She's out there on the couch and she doesn't have to be. She brought 
me to Sunnydale instead of leaving me in La, but that could be her 
sense of duty, maybe that's why she went to the center with me too.  
God B, I wish I knew what you where thinking, do I still have a 
chance, could you love me again>

Buffy sat on the couch staring at the door that led to Faith's room, 
<God what am I suppose to do, I can't go on like this anymore, but 
I'm afraid to tell her that I love her, that I never stopped loving 
her. I know she wouldn't intently hurt me like the last time but 
what if she doesn't feel that way anymore, what if she never felt 
that way. God I just don't know what to do, I want to pull her close 
to me, tell her that I love her, but I can't. Why can't I do it, 
it's just three simple words, but they mean so much, God what am 
gonna do>.

"Buffy, I need to talk to you," Giles replied

The slayer turned away from Faith's door and looked over a 
Giles, "About what?"

Giles walked across the room and took a seat in the recliner, "About 
you."

"Me?"

"Yes. Buffy what's going on?"

"Nothings going on, everything's fine."

"Buffy I'm not a idiot, everything is not fine. I mean your camping 
out in my living room under the pretense that vamps might get in and 
get to Faith."

"We already covered this, I really don't see?"

"I'm not done," Giles replied cutting Buffy off, "that's only the tip 
of the iceberg. You're not going to your classes because for some 
reason you have to be the only one who helps Faith. Buffy listen to 
me, I know what I am doing. My brother Jonathan was born blind and I 
helped raise him, so I do have an idea of what to do to help Faith.  
Plus the others can help to if we need them."

"Giles, I appreciate it but?"

"No buts, look there is no reason for you to try and do this all 
alone, everyone's her to help."

"It's not that simple, I have to do it," Buffy began to cry.

"Why?"

Buffy lowered her head, "I just do."

Giles got up from his chair and walked over to his surrogate 
daughter, "Buffy, I'm trying to understand, but you're not helping 
any. I want to help but you won't let me."

Giles placed his hand on the slayer's shoulder, "Why do you think you 
have to do this on your own?"

Buffy looked up at Giles, tears rolling down her cheeks, "Because I 
love her."

"You do?"

"Yeah, I never got over her from the last time."

"The last time, you mean before she..."

"Yeah, we were sorta dating, I was in love with Faith and I thought 
she felt the same way, then she went all evil," Buffy said with a sob 
in her voice.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know."

"No one did," Buffy wiped the tears from her eyes, "I still love her 
Giles, I want to tell her but I'm afraid, that's why I been doing 
everything the way I have."

"It is?"

"Yeah. I knew when I saw her in the hospital I still loved her, and 
after she got back here I realized I wanted her to love me."

"Buffy running yourself ragged isn't going to make Faith love you."

"I know," Buffy, cried, "I just figured that if we could be close to 
each other, that she might fall for me again."

Faith sat in her bed weeping over what she had just over heard, 
<Tomorrow B I'm telling you that I love you and then we can be 
together again>.

TBC?.