FF: Blind Faith; The Healing, act 4

["Sam" <shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx>]

Blind Faith: The Healing

By

Sam


Act 4: A Question of Love.

Email: shadowmage_draco@xxxxxxx 

Rating: R 

Thanks: lots of thanks to go out on this one. First I would like to 
thank Live for giving me some way cool ideas and a totally awesome 
scene that I am using in this part, you like so totally rock. Second 
I would lie to thank Coy for not only doing a super fantastic job at 
beta and editing but for offering most cool advise and support and 
being like a way cool friend. I also want to thank Carol for being a 
sounding board, provider of way cool advice and like a totally cool 
friend. Also thank to everyone who has provided feedback on this, 
it's keeping me going.

Disclaimer: Buffy and Faith along with the rest belong to Joss, I am 
only borrowing them for a little while.  

Archive: Hey if ya already got something of mine then go for it, 
otherwise shoot me an email and I'll say yes.

Pairing: Buffy/Faith, about freakin' time ain't it :-) W/T, X/Anya

Summery: A reformed Faith is injured and faces an uncertain future 
with her fellow slayer.

Notes: Time to get the slayers together :-)  

Feedback: I am a feedback addict so feel free to give me a fix grins 
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"In my life, there's been heartache and pain 
I don't know if I can face it again 
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far 
To change this lonely life 

I want to know what love is 
I want you to show me 
I want to feel what love is 
I know you can show me" 

--Foreigner, 'I want to know 
what love is'
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Faith sat up in bed, nervously fiddling with her fingers as she 
listened to the grandfather clock in Giles living room slowly tick 
away. <God why am I so nervous, I know B loves me, I heard her tell 
the G-man. I'm not suppose to be like this, all tied up on the 
inside, afraid of how she's gonna react. I should be happy with 
butterflies and everything but I'm not. Instead I am sitting up in 
bed at three in the morning worried that B is going to run away 
screaming, not that I can blame her. God I fucked things up so much 
last time, she offered me love and instead of taking it I used and 
hurt the one person that means more to me than anything else. God B 
please don't freak out when I tell you, I promise I want hurt you 
again, I'd rather die than do that>.

Buffy sat on the couch staring at Faith's bedroom door, <Damn Summers 
what are you gonna do now. It's bad enough I'm head over heels in 
love with Faith but that wasn't enough was it; no I had to go and 
tell Giles. Maybe I could get Willow and Tara to put a spell on him 
so he wouldn't remember what I said, no can't do that then I would 
have to tell them what's going on. Damn why does this have to be so 
complicated, I wasn't suppose to fall for her again, I was only gonna 
help, God what am I going to do>.

Later that morning?

Faith leaned back against the headboard waiting for someone to come 
and help her get ready for her first full day at the center and 
hoping it was Buffy. According to the chiming Grandfather clock it 
was five in the morning so she was gonna have to wait another hour or 
so until someone came, <God I hate this, I can't do anything but just 
sit hear and wait for some one to come and get me, this is worse than 
when I was in prison. At least then I knew what was going on around 
me, I knew how to get around now I can't even go from one room or 
another without someone fucking helping me. God if I only could get 
up and get something to drink without half killing myself, fuck why'd 
this have to happen. Guess I should be happy that B is here taking 
care of me, God why does she still love me; after all I did t her, 
and now this. God please don't let her freak out, I have to make up 
everything to B>.

Buffy carefully pushed Faiths bedroom door open so that she wouldn't 
wake the brunette if she was still asleep. She looked over at the 
bed and saw Faith sitting there twiddling her thumbs,
<God she's beautiful, > "faith?"

"B?y-you're early," <Get a grip, you can do this, you can tell her>.

"Couldn't sleep," <She stuttered, something's wrong?Oh My God what if 
she heard me and Giles talking, fuck she knows and doesn't feel the 
same way>.

"Same here, guess it's catchy," Faith nervously replied.

<God that's it, she knows, quick think of something, > "Do you n-need 
anything, you know something to drink or eat, maybe orange juice, 
yeah orange juice would be nice."

<Damn B's babbling, I got to tell her before she has a heart attack 
or something, > "B, I don't need any orange juice?c-could we t-talk?"

<Brace yourself her it comes, > "Okay."

"Maybe we should talk in the living room?" 

Faith leaned up against Buffy and took her arm after the blonde had 
helped her out of bed, <I could defiantly get used to this>.

<God if she is going to let me down why is she leaning up against me 
like that. Maybe I was wrong, maybe she didn't hear me and Giles 
talking, or maybe she did?God I wish I knew what was happening here>.

"Okay, we're here," <And it's a good thing a few more seconds of 
having you lean on me like that and I would have had to kiss you?damn 
get a grip on yourself Summers, she doesn't feel the same way>.

Buffy helped Faith onto the couch and took a seat next to her, <Okay 
time to find out what's going on, > "Faith, you said you w-wanted to 
talk," Buffy asked with a hint of anxiety in her voice.

"B, could you hold my?hand," <Please do it, please>.

<Okay she wouldn't ask me to hold her hand if she was gonna tell me 
she doesn't love me, or would she, > Buffy took Faith by the 
hand, "Okay," she sighed.

<Okay here is goes," B, I uh, (Come one spit it out, tell her you 
love her, > "Buffy?"

"Faith is everything Okay, I mean you called me Buffy and you never 
call me Buffy, It's always B and now pow out of nowhere your calling 
me Buffy," <Damn get a grip on yourself Summers and stop babbling>.

"B everything okay it's just that this is kinda big."

<Oh my God, this can't be good, > "How big?"

"Really big?I know I hurt you and I'd give anything to take it back 
but I can't," Faith sobbed, "I know I don't deserve it but I have to 
ask?. B-Buffy I still think about us and I want to try again?c-could 
you give us another chance," <Please say yes, you just gotta say 
yes>.

"Us?"

"B, I love you, I always have. God I know I screwed things up so 
bad, and I know I hurt you. I wouldn't blame you if you went running 
out the door and never looked back," Faith replied with tears rolling 
down her face, "but I have to tell you that I love you and asked, God 
B I'm begging here, please give us another chance. I love you so 
much, the holy reason I made it this far is because I knew I love 
you. God if you'll just give me another chance I swear on all that 
is holy that I will love you with everything that I have, that I'll 
never hurt you, that I won't ever let you down again."

Tears formed in the blonde's eyes as she reached over and wiped the 
tears from Faith's cheek, "God I can't believe this is happening, I 
wanted it to happen so bad every since I saw you in LA?You really 
love me."

Faith felt a warm sensation gently breeze through her body as Buffy's 
hand caressed up against her cheek, "With all my heart, all my soul?."

Buffy placed her finger over the brunettes' lips, "Shhhh. You don't 
have to say anymore, you've made me the happiest slayer in the world 
just by saying that you love me."

The Blonde slayer then leaned into Faith and gently placed a kiss on 
her forehead.

<B just kissed me. She didn't run away and she kissed me>.

"Faith you know what I see?"

"What," Faith nervously inquired.

"I see the most beautiful girl in world and love her more than I've 
ever loved anyone. ?I want to give us another chance."

"You do?"

"Yeah I do," Buffy replied, before tenderly kissing Faith.

"You love me," Faith asked, hoping all of this wasn't some cruel 
dream.

Buffy gently ran her hand through Faith's hair sending a mixture of 
erotic sensations through the brunette's body, "I love you."

The two slayers sat there on the couch holding on to each other 
weeping tears of happiness over the long lost love they had found 
again. Finally after a few moments they regretfully broke their 
embrace to get ready for Faith's first day at the center.

Buffy smiled at Faith and saw that the dark hared slayer seemed so 
sad, almost like she was gonna cry.

<Be strong! Accept it Faith...your blind. >.

"Faith, are you Okay?"

<Am I okay, no I'm not okay. Everything I had been dreaming about 
for the last couple of years has come just come true, I used to dream 
about how it would be if you ever could love me again, and now its 
happen and I can't see you?. I can't fucking see you and it's tearing 
me apart. >

Buffy placed her hands on Faith's shoulder, "Faith talk to me, tell 
me what's wrong," <please tell me, did I do something wrong>.

<I want to see how beautiful you are, I want to see your golden 
flowing hair being blown by a gentle breeze, I want to see your 
luscious lips, and your angelic body. I want to melt in your 
enchanting hazel eyes, the ones I fell in love with, that captured my 
heart and soul. God only to see those eyes again, but I can't.  
You're the only beautiful thing in my life and I can't even fucking 
see you>.

"Faith? Come Faith we just got together again, talk to me," <Please 
talk to me, tell me what's wrong so I can make it better>.

Tears of anguish flowed down Faith's face, <Damn, I such a wuss, I'm 
pathetic>.

"What's wrong Faith," Buffy asked seeing the tears in Faith's eyes.  
Her heart shattered into a million pieces just from seeing a single 
tear drip down the brunette's face, <Oh God. Please don't cry. I 
can't stand 
it if you cry! >

"N-nothin'," <Great cope out, God she's gonna hate me>.

"No Faith, I'm not buying it. You told me that you would never hurt 
me, that you loved me with all your heart and soul. I'm not gonna 
sit back and watch you suffer like this. Come Faith you got to tell 
me, we can get through whatever it is that's bothering you if you 
tell me," Buffy pleaded, tears of her own form in her eyes.

"It hurts to much," Faith sobbed.

"What hurts, what happened?" Buffy asked in a near panic.

"It's not that kind of hurt," Faith cried putting her hand over her 
heart, "It's this kind."

Buffy reached over and placed her hand on top of Faith's, "Then let 
me help, what's wrong."

"I dreamed of this moment B, I dreamed of us being together again and 
now that it's happen?it hurts."

"Why does it hurt?"

"Because I'm blind?. I just.... I just wish I could see you...." 
Faith said so quietly that only Slayer hearing could pick it up. "I 
know it sounds silly but I would give anything just to see you right 
now, but I can't and it's tearing me apart."

<God I think my hearts gonna break, all she wants to do is see me and 
she can't, it's not fair, > "Faith," Buffy tenderly spoke, wiping 
the tears from the brunette's face.

"Yeah?"

"Do you remember yesterday at the center, when you met your councilor 
and she said how you were gonna learn to use your hands in place of 
your eyes?"

"Y-yeah..." Faith said unsure of where Buffy was going with this.

"Well...You can see me." Buffy said grabbing Faith's hands. "With 
your hands."

"Oh no! Buffy!" Faith said pulling her hands away from Buffy. "I 
can't touch you!"

"Why not?"

"Because t-they're dirty!" Faith cried showing Buffy her hands. "I k-
killed with these."

Buffy shook her head. "No Faith." 

"But I did!"

"Yeah but your wrong. They're clean now." Buffy smiled grabbing 
Faith's hands once again. This time Faith didn't pull away.

"Let me." Buffy said rubbing Faith's hands with her thumbs.

Faith gulped, B are you sure about this?"

"Do you love me?"

Yes."

"Then trust me, Buffy replies, slowly, bringing both of Faiths hands 
to the sides of her face.

Both slayers felt a bolt of energy surged through their body as soon 
as Faith's hands made contact and Buffy closed her eyes and Waited 
for Faith to begin.

Faith gasped feeling Buffy's face on her hands. Her hands were 
shaking slightly, but slowly, she felt what was Buffy's nose. Then 
she moved and felt Buffy's lips, and cheeks, and finally her eyelids. 
Tears were streaming down her face but not from sadness but from joy.

"Faith," Buffy smiled, her own tears ran down her face.

"Buffy...are you crying," Faith asked a little worried that she might 
have hurt the girl, "Did I hurt you?" 

"No, I'm just really happy," Buffy replied as she held the brunette's 
hand against her face.

"Me too B....Me too."

TBC?.