FIC: Ashes03-Gravity Is Working Today

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(Grrr..Arrgh) The Crow belongs to J.O. Barr. 'Call Crow Call' is 
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Call Crow Call...

Call, crow, call in the dead air of the day
call from the brass of the sky;
strike your sour note against the heat
of the unmoving midday.

Are there eyes to pick,
live tongues to eat,
hearts to rend and tear,
entrails for your delight?

here, quick, take mine
before fate relents,
marks up their value again
a point or two on the market...

Call in the dead of day, crow,
call from the brass of the sky,
strike your lonely note
against the midday's unmoving heat.

Call, crow, call.

- Ian Mudie


Ashes, Ashes, They All Fell Down
Part the Third
Gravity is Working Today


"What am I?" The girl said. 

In the darkness of the room within, greater then the darkness 
of the night without, no one had an answer. 

"What am I?" She wailed again. "Why am I here? What happened 
to us?" 

She sat huddled in the corner of the sofa, feet curled beneath 
her, the ragged scraps of her death atire still barely covering her, 
the shards of modesty lying about her, mocking the appearence of 
something 'human'. 

It peered down at it's messenger from it's place on her 
shoulder. This would not do. Where there was supposed to be fire there 
was only void, where there was supposed to be rage there was only 
pain. Pain alone was not enough. Perhaps she would have to go back, to 
the Earth, back to the grave, back to the shackles that had bound her. 

Tara crawled across the floor on her hands and knees and 
pulled herself into a sitting position on the end of the sofa opposite 
the girl. Amy moved up behind her, curling up on the floor at Tara's 
feet. She pulled her knees up and wrapped her arms around them, as if 
to ward off a chill. There was no escaping this cold though. 

Tara reached out a hand, tentativly, slowly across the space 
seperating her from their 'guest'. 

"Are you crazy?" Amy hissed seeing what Tara was about to do. 
"Don't touch her!"

"I have to." Tara whispered back. "And don't talk so loud, 
she'll hear you."

"No you don't." The girl said. "I can hear you fine. I'm dead, 
not deaf." She looked up at the two of them. "Tara."

"Willow." Tara replied, pulling her hand back quickly.

"She's not Willow!" Amy protested loudly. "She can't be 
Willow. Willow is dead! They're all dead!"

A memory..the ghost of memory flashed across the girls mind. 
She smiled slightly, more of a smirk and in the darkness, something 
truly horrid to witness. "A better one than I said this but it still 
fits. I may be dead; but I'm still pretty."

"Oh Goddess!" Amy shuddered. She leaped to her feet and 
grabbed Tara's shoulder. "We gotta get outta here." She gave a hard 
tug.

"No!" The redhead cried. "Don't leave, please!" 

Tara didn't move for a few seconds before resting her hand on 
top of Amy's. "It's alright." She said quietly. 

"It's not alright!" Amy insisted. Her eyes were begining to 
tear over. "This..this thing is here, in our home claiming to .. it's 
wrong. All this is wrong and she shouldn't be..she can't 
be..please..please please Tara if you love me get on your feet and 
run!"

Tara had never heard Amy beg for anything in her life; but she 
still didn't move.

"Yes." Tara said quietly. "Yes it is wrong, the fact that she 
is here, that Willow-"

"That isn't Willow!!" Amy practically screamed. 

"It is Willow." Tara repeated quietly. "And it is wrong that 
she's here, that's why she's here. So thing won't be wrong anymore." 
She turned to the Crow. "That's it isn't it? It's the reason isn't 
it?"

It just looked at them.

"You..." The redhead swallowed and tried again. "You know why 
I'm here then?"

"Maybe." Tara shrugged slightly. 

"What happened? To us..to..." The girl gestured helplessly. 

The question punched through the hasty barriers Tara had 
erected in her mind. This ..sitting before her the woman she had once 
loved, still loved. Or at least loved her memory. Even, on warm 
evenings laying in the arms of Amy she would dream of those short, 
short moments when, for a bare instant, Willow had been hers. 

At the cost of someone else's body, her morals, her honor, and 
what little sense of self-respect she had had back then. Amy was 
helping her build herself back. Had been.. after hearing what had 
become of her first love.. 

'I can't, she's not, I can't, she's not, I can't, she's 
not...' Tara's mind was locked in a loop of denail. Even though having 
moments before argued against Amy's claims, she had not, up till now, 
really truly believed. 'The quesion..I have to answer the question 
because I want to help her. No..no don't think about, can't think 
about it; it will hurt. Must help! No, the hurt.. Oh Goddess, she's 
_here_ and it really happened, never really...help her..but that will 
hurt...no no no no no no...'

"Tara?" Amy knelt down and put her hand on the other wiccan's 
upper arm. "Tara honey?"

Tara was not very responsive. Her eyes stared at the redhead 
still curled up in the far corner. The two of them were staring at 
each other. The former seemingly lost within her mind and the latter, 
simply lost. 

The redhead reached slowly toward Tara, a look of concern 
playing across her features only to have her hand slapped away.

"Don't touch her!" Amy hissed at the recoiling girl. "Don't 
you dare touch her." 

Again a field of obsidian slid across the witches eyes and the 
air around her grew heavy, again curled lips began to snarl out 
ancient words that called upon buried powers. The redhead whimpered 
pitiously. 

It fluttered from the girls shoulder and landed on Tara's 
knee, the blonde still did not respond but it's present perch brought 
it exactly at eye level to where Amy still kneeled upon the floor, 
fists clenched, energies just begining to make themsevles known. Once 
again ancient met fawn in a contest of wills. Black on black, raw 
magic versus ancient, ancient ..patience. 

The Crow stared.

"No." Amy hissed. "I defy you. I don't care your reasons of 
justifications. She doesn't deserve this. She didn't do anything. It's 
not her. I defy you. Do you hear me? You're just a bird..a...a feather 
duster that doesn't know it's place. I defy you!"

The Crow stared.

"I..I have powers." Amy continued. "I'm not a weakling. I'll 
crush your heart out. End your legacy. Destroy this thing you've 
perpetuated on my Tara. Willow's dead. She's resting, asleep. This is 
not her and you better let this thing go, let her free or I'll..I'll 
kill you. I'll kill you real bad. So...Go DO it!"

The Crow stared.

"Just go." Amy's instructed. "Go away. Take her with you, we 
won't interfere. We..we won't tell anybody if that's what you want but 
please..go away."

The Crow stared.

The power of the witch melted away, vanishing back to the 
ether. "Please..please please go away." Amy now sobbed. Her normal 
brown eyes, her sense of self being swallowed by the sharp, deep, pit 
in it's own vision.

The Crow stared.

Amy broke away and held a hand, palm out, in front of as if 
attempting to block something or protect herself. She looked away 
quietly wheeping. For herself maybe, or for Tara, possibly even for 
the dead girl in her home. It didn't matter though, simply because It 
did not care. 

A black beak jabbed foward suddenly and the sharp tip 
pentrated skin, muscle, nerves and bone. It punctered the flesh 
cleanly from one side to the other. With a sharp yelp of pain Amy 
pulled her hand to her breast, cradling it with her other and 
continued to sob. Silently, the blood worked it's way from the deep 
wound to slide down the white skin of her wrist and drip patiently 
onto the rug, staning it deeply.

It flew back to it's original perch on the girl's shoulder, 
she had moved out of her instictive fetal position to watch the 
battle. Now she sat nervously in the corner. Legs curled beneath her 
hands clasped in her lap. She said nothing the entire time 
understanding it was not allowed. She now eyed It warily, in the dim 
light it's blood soaked tip glimmered in the dark. It clicked it's 
beak a few times and a black tiny tounge flickered out briefly to 
taste the few drops it could reach. 

Now together the two of them watched as Amy seemed to be lost 
herself. She had stopped crying a few moments before and now her wet 
cheeks reflected in the gloom. The wiccan held up her hand; It was a 
tiny puncture but complete. She seemed to watch as the red eased over 
her skin, almost grudgingly. 

Her brown eyes were wide as she studied the wound. "Ah..." She 
said softly. "I see!"

The redhead shuddered violently. 

"She killed you." The whisper. Tara's whispered voice bounced 
around the room. "Faith killed you, first your baby, then Buffy and 
then she killed you." 

Tara had not moved from where she was, herself, curled up on 
her end of the sofa. Still staring off into the dark corners of the 
room. 

"Tara?" Amy said, not turning in her lover's direction.

"She killed you." Tara murmered again, quietly, 
plainly, in a neutral tone of voice with no inflection behind it. 
Nothing to indicate that she was being more than a voicepiece for a 
memory. "Just..stabbed Buffy..sliced you open, baby's dead. Killed 
Buffy..so Buffy's dead. The she sliced your throat. So you were dead 
too." Tara gave a small giggle. "Sh-She slices..she dices..she even 
makes julien fr-fries."

"Tara. Tara..c'mon baby..shhh.." Amy had clambered onto 
the sofa, putting herself between the girl, the bird and the witch. 
She eased Tara down so the long haired wiccan was lying with her head 
in her lap. If either of them noticed Amy's still bleeding hand, 
matting Tara's hair to her skull, they didn't say.

"She killed you." Tara started over. "She just-"

"Shush now love. Shhh..it's alright. Everything is 
alright." Amy ran the fingers of her unhurt hand through Tara's hair. 
The other hanging off behind the sofa, slowly dripping into the 
carpet.	

"No." She said quietly. Amy jerked her head around in 
surprise. 'I almost forgot she was there.' She thought.

"No." The readhead repeated. "Let her speak. I..I need 
to hear this."

Amy's lips began to curl up yet again and a sharp word 
arose in her throat. Then the dull ache of her wounded hand seemed to 
twist about in her head and both reactions died stillborne.


Tara sighed, she lifted her head out of Amy's lap 
despite the others small cry of dismay. Turning her head slowly she 
locked eyes with the redhead. 

"She killed you." Tara began yet again. "And..there was 
so much blood. I heard, I heard that the entire roof was covered in 
it. Even after you were dead, supposedly Faith just kept cutting and 
cutting. She..it's like she was trying to kill you, anywhere you might 
go."

"Say it again." The command was spat out through tightly 
clenched teeth. 

Tara obeyed. "Faith... just..she killed you as ..and 
your baby she.." Tara's voice began to crack.

"Say it again!!"

"She killed you!" Tara blurted. "With..her knife. 
Stabbed and cut..the baby was ..and Buffy."

"Again!"

"She butchered you!" Louder.

"Again!!"

"She slaughtered your daughter!" Screaming.

"AGAIN!!" The redhead screamed back, leaping to her feet, 
leaping at Tara and stopping mere inches from the wiccan's nose. A 
tiny rivlut of saliva worked it's way between the girls teeth, over 
her lower lip and hung there for an eterinity.

"She..." Tara gasped. "She hurt Buffy."

In utter contrast to the volume used a second before the 
question uttered from dead lips was exquistily quiet. 

"Buffy wasn't dead. Before you I mean." Tara whimpered. "Faith 
hurt her..for hours."

The redhead took a numb step backwards. "But..but I felt her 
..she died.. I know it."

"No." Tara whispered helplessly shaking her head. "Goddess no, 
I'm sorry but Buffy was... Faith hurt her before she let Buffy die."

"H..how? How do you know?" The girl demanded quietly.

"The newspaper." Tara replied. "The..story was about how 
she..she..was..found..covered..and...she was still alive when they 
found her. For a while."

She tried to take another step backwards but her legs gave way 
and she collapsed between the table and the sofa. "What did she do to 
her?" She growled. "What did Faith do to Buffy!?"

Tara's jaw worked silently for a few seconds. "I.." She 
started over. "I don't know."

Air rasped in and out of dead lungs, a mind that was far too 
alive not being aware that the exercise in breathing was unnecessary. 
The sounds of breathing from a dead person grew louder and louder in 
the small, dark room, until, a high pitched keening wail that built 
into a full throated scream then cultimated in violence.

"FaaaaiiiiiiiiTTTTTTHHHHHH!!!!" The redhead screamed standing 
up and putting her fist through the glass tabletop. Her blow carried 
through the flimsy matter and smashed into the carpeted floor but this 
too proved no barrier. The rug was pulverised and driven down into the 
cement foundation of the house and that too yielded allowing the fist 
to be embedded within with a sickening crunch. 

Again the redhead raised her arm let fly, again the cement, 
solid rock, did give before her, and again, and again, each time with 
the sound of flesh and bone being ground to pulp. The entire exercise 
in futility was done in silence; silence of two witches staring in 
abject horror, silence as an ancient force did ruffle it's feathers 
slightly deciding that, at last, she was ready; silence as tears, 
fresh ones, slid down her cheecks and agony curled in her guts.

It didn't matter though. Rage could only last so long, quick 
and fast is was, burning itself out but the hate, and the pain those 
would be a source of power for a long time; a harsh mistress, a 
ceasless task master that would drive the girl on, never giving her 
peace or respite. She would have to earn those and only through 
vengence would they be paid for.

She stopped trying to destroy the floor as her rage burned 
out, guttered and died for the most part. Her legs gave way to the 
pull of the world and she slumped back against the base of the sofa 
resting her face in her hands, on a mutilated mess of ruptured tissue 
and bone, but quickly becoming less so before the two witches eyes. 

"Willow...your hand." Tara began, out of the corner of her eye 
she noticed Amy's wounded limb still slowly dripping blood onto the 
carpet. "Amy! Your hand! What happened?"

The other blonde glanced at her own wound and her eyes, almost 
drawn against there will, tracked across the room to rest upon the 
black bird that had fluttered back to the girls shoulder. It seemed to 
be waiting for her for as she looked up on It, It, in turn, was 
staring at her. The human quickly broke the lock first.

"A lesson." Amy muttered. "Just a lesson."

Tara clucked her tounge a few times, reaching into her pocket. 
"We..we'll never g-get those stains out of the carpeting." She pulled 
out a hankerchief and gently wrapped it around Amy's palm. She tucked 
the edges of the hankerchief into the wrapping so it wouldn't come 
loose easily. Giving into an impulse or even a need for something 
comforting Tara tried to give Amy's hand a tender kiss but her lover 
pulled the hand away, beyond reach.

"No." She whispered. "Not now. It..it wouldn't be right."

With her hands, the one fully healed as if never harmed, spoke 
up. "Yes, do it now. Always do it, never let anything stop you." She 
turned to stare at the two lovers. "Never let anything stop you." She 
repeated.

Her face was wet with moisture streaming down her face. Tears, 
salty, but cold. Cold tears from cold flesh falling to a cold floor of 
broken glass, torn carpeting and crushed cement. Her eyes though were 
colder still. Like glimmering emeralds in the gloom of the house. 
Shimmering, reflecting, captureing light and twisting it outward just 
like the prescious gems would. And they had all the warmth of the gems 
as well. 

"It is alright now." The redhead continued. "It..wouldn't 
bother me." She rubbed at her temple wearily. "It..might even help a 
little." She smiled slightly lowering her hand. "Help me, seeing that 
love still ..is?"

With a slight sigh of relief Amy held her arms open and Tara, 
without a sound collapsed into Amy's embrace. 'At last.' She thought 
to herself, cradling her head on Amy chest while working her arms 
around her lovers waist. 'Something warm.' 
She nestled down, luxeriating, briefly the warmth of Amy's 
sweater, the heat from her arms around her, the stead beat of her 
heart right next to her ear. A stab of guilt arced across her own 
heart, here she was safe in the arms of her love and behind her, left 
all alone...

'But she insisted.' Her mind countered. 'That doen't make it 
any better though.'

"Willow." Tara said, voice slightly muffled be Amy's sweater 
and embrace. "It..it hurts to see you."

"It hurts to be seen." The redhead replied distantly. She 
sighed. "Go to bed. Get some rest I'll be gone soon. Where..I don't 
know. To do what...that I do know."

"And that would be what?" Amy said gently rubbing Tara's back 
and neck.

"Find Faith." The girl shrugged.

"And after that?" The Wiccan demanded.

"I..I don't know." The redhead seemed to wilt. "Maybe..."

"We'll help." Tara's muffled voice spoke up. "We have too. 
I..I have to." She pulled away a bit and looked up at Amy's face. "I 
do. You know that don't you?"

"Yes." Amy nodded. "I know and we will help."

"How can you help?" The redhead snorted getting to her feet. 
"I mean really. What can you do?"

"We can...uh.." Tara briefly wore a look of panic. "We can 
give you something to wear. Cause..it wouldn't be a good idea to walk 
around like that."

The redhead looked at the tattered and torn dress that was 
barely preserving any modesty she might have once had. "If you say 
so." She shrugged again. "But I can find something myself. This isn't 
a game Tara. This isn't the Scooby Gang anymore. That's dead..we're 
dead.. I'M dead! Don't you get it? Don't you understand?"


"Yes." Tara said turning around in Amy's arms. "I think I do. 
Amy does as well..now. Thats..that's why we're going to help. And the 
others too we should.."

"No!" The girls shout bounced around the room. "We don't tell 
them. They've..gotten over it Not gonna drag them back into..whatever. 
We just don't tell them. Please.. I shouldn't have even.. come here 
and it's all just.. just don't. Please."

"If..if that's what you want." Amy said. 

"We can help." Tara insisted in the backround. "We ..we can 
help you find Faith. Y-you think we didn't want too? That we just let 
it go? We..we tried to find her, cause, even though the cops said 
there were n-no suspects we knew. All of us..w-we knew and we tried."

"So how can you help?" The redhead asked again. 

"Well..we tried..in the past to..scy Faith. Find out where she 
was but..it never really worked." Amy shrugged. "The best we could get 
was LA. She was somewhere in LA. and it's not exactly like we were in 
touch with your friends that much."

Tara studed the new pattern of red in their now destroyed 
floor. 'There goes the security deposit' her mind informed her 
helplessly. "That..that would be my fault. What with everything..I 
tried to do..so.."

"I can't be here." Willow said slowly, getting to her feet. 
"I..can't it..it's not allowed. I'm..not sure but..it's against the 
rules. Go to bed. Just..go to bed..sleep. Try and forget. I'm sorry 
for all of this."

"We're coming then." Tara said sitting up straight. 
"We'll..we'll come with you to Los Angels. We'll help you f-find 
Faith. Do you think this is just about you? She hurt all of us, 
Xander, Anya everybody! So..so we're coming along too and..and you 
can't stop us."

With those words the black bird on the redheads shoulder 
flapped it's wings and landed on the space of the sofa	seperating the 
one woman from the two wiccans. It stretched it's wings out to their 
full length and stayed that way. The meaning was clear; that of a 
barrier.

"Yes." The girl replied looking at the bird. "I do think it's 
just about me. I know it is. Faith killed us. She killed our child, 
she killed my wife and she killed me. That's why I was brought back; 
for vengence, but to be taken alone. I have to go now."

She stepped around the ruins of the small table that had been 
the center of the room. "Sorry about that." She said indicitating the 
mess. She steped toward the front door.

"Willow, wait!" Amy cried out. The redhead turned around 
slowly, reluctantly.

Dashing out of the room Amy came back a few seconds later, in 
her arms she carried clothing. These she tossed on the ground. "Take 
them." She said. "We will help you, and if all we can do is prevent 
you from being a naked women on a vengence trip than that'll have to 
do."

The redhead knelt down and, it seemed reverently, ran her 
fingers over the black jeans that lay on the floor. Also in the tangle 
of clothing was a simple dark red button down shirt and black socks. 
There even was a bra..also black. 

"And..and..you can have my boots!" Tara suddenly piped up. She 
too rushed out of the room and came back a moment later with the items 
in question. 

The redhead sighed. "Tara, they probably won't fit and I.."

"Y-yes they will." Tara nodded. "I..uh..I know so."

The boots joined the pile on the floor. They were grey, with a 
just the tiniest bit of a heel and the material seemed to be soft 
leather that, when worn would be a snug fit that stretched up the leg 
and end just below the knee. They also were a deep, grey color.


"I..I..that is..." The redhead stuttered. She then gave a 
sigh. "Where can I change?"

"Uh..the ..bathroom is through that door over there." Tara 
said pointing in the direction.

Gathering the clothes up in her arms the girl crossed the room 
and shut the door firmly. 

The two wiccans sat, reluctantly on the couch. As they had 
moved about the room It had followed them with it's eyes, wings still 
outstreched, still playing the role of the barrier between them and 
It's vessel. The empty minutes passed, the two of them, holding 
hands, Tara mindful of her lovers injury being gentle. The sat on the 
sofa as The Crow stood on the table, it's wings marking a border they 
were not to pass. Where the redhead was, being on the other side of 
that line.

And so they sat in the dark, waiting for the what had once 
been to return. 

With a flurry of feathers and the beat of powerful wings It 
took to the air and, flying across the dark room, and vanished out the 
still open window into the night.

"Uh.." Amy said in a puzzelled tone.

"Goddess!" Tara exclaimed and leaping to her feet hurried over 
to the bathroom door. She flung it open and stared. Amy peered into 
the room over her shoulder. The white neon light from within stabbed 
across the dark living room floor creating very black, deep, shadows 
of the two of them on the floor, on the carpeting, on the blood. 

Within the wind, flowing in from the open window pushed gently 
on the curtains. The rags that the girl had been wearing were sitting 
neatly folded, or as neatly folded as possible, on the closed lid of 
the toilet. There was no message, there was no note, no words in 
lipstick on the mirror. Just an open window and some folded rags.

"She's gone." Tara said sadly.

"Yes." Amy replied. She gently placed her good hand on Tara's 
shoulder.

"What do we do now?" Tara asked.

"We go to bed." Amy answered. "We go to bed and try and get 
warm."