Fic: Greatest Weakness (1-4/13)

[inell@xxxxxxx]

Title: Greatest Weakness
Author: Inell
Email: Inell@xxxxxxx
Disclaimer: Joss owns them all
Distribution: My site, Kiss or Kill, 
http://members.fortunecity.com/kissorkill Anyone that has permission, take. 
Otherwise, just ask
Rating: R
Pairing: Willow/Buffy
Notes: This is the first W/B fic that I wrote, over a year ago. I like to 
think that I've gotten better at this writing thing :) I thought I'd post it 
because maybe someone would enjoy it. Forgive any errors etc. Yes, I am like 
a stray dog. If you feed me once, I never seem to go away :) 
Set at the end of Season 2 then veers into my own verse
To Rod~just because :) 



GREATEST WEAKNESS (1-4/13)


Willow couldn't sleep. She heard the droning beeps from the machines she was 
hooked into. She hadn't heard from Buffy or Xander. She had no idea if they 
were 
both laying dead somewhere. She knew that Kendra was gone, another slayer 
called. She closed her eyes, wishing for an answer.

Buffy waited until the nurse was busy before sneaking into Willow's room. She 
saw her friend laying there, pale and tired. She felt a pain in her heart. 
This 
was all her fault. Jenny was dead because of her. Her mother had found out 
her 
secret. Angel was gone, killed by her. And Willow had almost died. She felt 
tears in her eyes as she imagined life without the redhead. She moved closer 
to 
the bed, stopping when green eyes watched her.

"Buffy?" Willow said, taking in the slayer's appearance.

"Willow" Buffy said softly, moving beside the bed. "How are you?"

"I'm going to be fine. You know me, takes more than some bookcase to kill me."

"Don't even joke about that" Buffy said, her voice low.

"What happened?" Willow asked, knowing that something was wrong.

Buffy glanced away, "I did it...he's gone."

"Oh God...Angelus?" Willow asked, reaching for Buffy's hand. She held it 
tightly, wishing she could take away the pain her friend was feeling.

Buffy shook her head, "No...it was Angel."

"What? The spell...it worked?"

Buffy looked at her, "What spell?"

"Xander was supposed to tell you...I tried the curse again....you were 
supposed to 
buy time...he didn't tell you?"

Buffy shook her head, not able to feel anger towards the boy. He had made her 
do 
something she should have done months before. "No. I had to kill him, Willow. 
It 
was Angel...I couldn't stop it. Everything is falling apart. The police are 
after me...Mom hates me...Angel is gone...I have nothing left."

"You have me." Willow said softly. "I don't like the tone in your voice, 
Buffy."

Buffy smiled, "I have you? Even after I almost got you killed...twice?"

"You're my best friend. You'll always have me." Willow said, her eyes showing 
the truth in her words.

"What did I do to deserve you?" Buffy asked softly, looking at the redhead in 
amazement.

"Got lucky I guess" Willow said, smiling.

"I'm leaving Sunnydale....I have to get away...Too many memories...."

"No!" Willow cried out. "You can't leave. Running never solves anything."

"I have to, Willow" Buffy said, praying her friend understood.

Willow looked away, "I don't want to be here alone....please stay?"

"I can't.....so much has happened....." Buffy trailed off, looking at her 
friend. She loved Willow. Since Angelus had come, she had often thought about 
her life. It had dawned on her after he first attacked Willow, that he knew 
something she was trying to ignore. He had gone after Willow first....he had 
recognized Buffy's love before she did. 

Willow was her weakness....her greatest weakness. She'd do anything if it 
meant 
saving the redhead. She hadn't realized it was love until she and Angelus had 
had words a few weeks before. He had mentioned going after Willow again. She 
couldn't describe the anger she had felt. She had come closer that night to 
killing him than any other. She let eyes watch a tear go down the redhead's 
cheek.

"Buffy...promise me you won't go." Willow begged.

Buffy shook her head, "I have to go. I can't deal with all this now. The 
police...mom...Kendra and Jenny...All my fault....Angel....God Wills. The 
look 
in his eyes. I'll never forget it. He loved me and I killed him. How can I 
ever 
forgive myself?"

"Running won't make it easier."

"I'll be back. I just have to go away...give myself some time to adjust to 
everything. Mom kicked me out....I just feel so alone right now."

"Quit! I told you, I will always be here for you.....you're just going for 
the 
summer?"

Buffy nodded, "I can't leave Sunnydale that long....I just need some time. 
There 
are so many things I have to deal with right now...."

"Be careful...please?"

Buffy looked at Willow, her heart tightening as she realized she'd be without 
the girl for a few months. "Willow?"

"Yes?" Willow asked quietly, trying to understand why the thought if Buffy 
leaving hurt her so badly.

Buffy took a deep breath, her eyes serious, "Come with me."

**********

Willow stared at the white tiles of the hospital ceiling. She had counted 
them 
several times as she had tried to sleep. It was pointless. Sleep was 
illusive. 
She had too much on her mind to sleep.

She looked beside her and smiled slightly. Buffy was sleeping peacefully, 
exhaustion having overtaken her soon after her proposal for Willow to 
accompany 
her. She brushed blonde strands from her friends peaceful face. 

Buffy had been through so much in the last six months. Willow often wished 
she 
could somehow take away the pain and hurt and leave some nice happy feelings 
in 
its place. She knew that wasn't possible. In a way, the pain had made Buffy 
grow 
up. She had watched her friend mature into a woman. Angelus had caused that.

Willow was glad that Angelus was gone. She felt incredibly guilty though that 
Angel had been the one sent to hell. She could kill Xander for not telling 
Buffy. Her friend had suffered so much already. She now had to deal with the 
memory of sending her love to hell. Willow had never met anyone braver than 
the 
slayer. Ever. Buffy was so strong. Willow was always weak. She hated it at 
times, but she knew what she was.

She was in love with Buffy. She didn't know quite when it happened. It just 
had. 
She had realized it when she found out that she and Angel had had sex. She 
had 
felt jealous...not because Buffy had a hottie like Angel but because Angel 
had 
taken what she wanted. She didn't think she was gay. No other woman was 
attractive to her. It was always just Buffy. With the slayer, it didn't 
matter 
that she was a girl. Willow loved the person that Buffy was, regardless of 
her 
sex. Had she been a man, Willow's feelings would not have changed. 

She watched as Buffy's breathing became more rapid. Her friend whimpered in 
her 
sleep. Willow knew her friend would have nightmares about that night. It was 
inevitable. She leaned down and kissed Buffy's forehead. She heard Buffy 
mumble 
in her sleep. Startled, Willow leaned back. Had Buffy just said I love you 
Willow?

She was going crazy. It was just wishful thinking on her part. She watched as 
Buffy began to settle down as her hand slowly caressed the girl's arm. She 
made 
her decision. Her parents were in Europe for the summer. She would call them 
and 
let them know she was taking a trip. She wasn't letting Buffy leave alone. 
She 
was going with her. In the morning, she'd sneak out of the hospital. They 
could 
make some time before anyone realized that they were gone. With that settled 
in 
her mind, she felt sleep overtake her. 

**********

"Gone? What do you mean gone?" Xander asked, staring at Giles.

"Gone." Giles said softly, "Just gone."

"No...she was in the hospital. They wouldn't just let her walk out." Cordelia 
said, disbelieving.

"It appears that her parents called and gave permission for her to check out. 
The hospital is unconcerned. She isn't at home."

"Then where the fuck is she?" Xander demanded.

Giles cleared his throat, "It also appears that Buffy has left too."

"Damn...well, there you have it. They left together. Why? What happened?" 
Xander 
asked.

Giles shook his head, "I don't know. I spoke to Joyce. It appears that she 
knows 
about Buffy being the slayer. She kicked Buffy out. Now, she regrets it, but 
she 
can't find Buffy. It appears that they both ran away."

"Willow wouldn't just run away" Cordelia said. "They must have decided to 
take a 
trip or something....they'll be back."

"Since when do you know Willow so well?" Xander asked his girlfriend.

"Duh, I've known her for years. Willow wouldn't run. She's probably helping 
Buffy is all. I assume since we are alive and the world isn't hell that 
Angelus 
is gone. Buffy must be going through her own hell right now." Cordelia 
observed.

"Well, yes, I assume she must. I'll give them a few days to call. If we don't 
hear anything, I'll start searching for them."

"They'd better call. I hate not knowing if they are alive or not" Xander 
said. 
Somehow, it made sense. He had watched his friends slowly growing closer over 
the last few months. He had realized that Buffy would never have anything for 
him besides friendly love. He had also thought that there might be more 
between 
the two girls than even they knew. He said a little prayer hoping that they 
would be safe until they returned to Sunnydale.

**********

Buffy sat up and watched Willow get ready for bed. They were in a small motel 
somewhere in Nevada. They had been on several buses since the morning. She 
still 
couldn't believe Willow had come with her. She had to smile as Willow began 
to 
wash her face. Her best friend....her love. She was so thrilled that Willow 
had 
stood by her. She could just imagine how her face had looked at dawn when 
Willow 
had woken her up. Her friend had told her to get ready, that they were 
leaving. 
Willow had called her parents and gotten their consent to leave the hospital. 
She had told them she was leaving for awhile, to find herself. Her mother had 
thrown a fit, but her father had told her to be careful and to take a credit 
card. Buffy couldn't believe how easy Willow's father had taken everything. 
It 
amazed her.

They had left the hospital early in the morning, going by Willow's for the 
girl 
to get what she needed. Buffy had already packed her own things before going 
to 
Willow. It was Willow's idea to take several busses and change them. They 
didn't 
know where they wanted to go exactly, so it was a good way to see several 
places. Plus, it provided a good diversion in case the police or someone else 
tried to find them. 

"What are you smiling about?" Willow asked, toweling her face dry as she 
faced 
Buffy.

"Just glad you're here with me" Buffy said honestly.

"Me too." Willow replied, moving to the bed. She looked at Buffy uncertainly.

"I love you Wills." Buffy said, her eyes not leaving Willow's green eyes.

"I love you too" Willow said softly.

"Come here" Buffy called to her.

Willow moved to the bed and sat down. She watched as Buffy leaned over and 
kissed her softly. Sighing, Willow put her arms around her friend and hugged 
her 
tightly.

"Where should we go?" Buffy asked softly.

"How about Texas? I've always wanted to see Texas" Willow said, laying down 
beside her friend.

Buffy laid down and put her arms around Willow. "Texas. I like that. Texas it 
is. Sweet dreams, Willow."

Willow smiled, glad to finally be in Buffy's arms, "Sweet dreams Buffy. Don't 
worry. Things will get better."

"I know. I have you now." Buffy said, kissing Willow softly before turning 
off 
the light.

**********