Fic: Thoughts Of Us ( continued )

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" But you don't see me do you ? You only see him. I sit outside in the
sun watch you laugh and smile at him the way I wish you would with me. I
watch him kiss you and I want to kill him. Finally when I had gotten
over my stupid infatuation with the unattainable and gotten ready to
confess my secret to you you were coming to me for advice about him
because I'm your best friend. And because I love you and I want your
happiness above my own I helped win him over. " 

" So here I sit watching you sleep in my room in my bed probably
dreaming of him talking to myself. Saying in the dark all those thing
that I'm afraid to say in the light of day. You are so beautiful in your
so peaceful like an angel. You're my own personal angel. And sit and
watch you sleep listen to you breath . I'm so caught up in your spell I
don't notice you wake up until you call my name."

"What?"
" I asked if you were ok " you mumbled sleepily
" I'm fine just came back from the bathroom." I lie easily " Go back to
sleep you're meeting your guy for breakfast in a few hours." I smile at
you You smile back dreamily " That's why I love you. Your're always
thinking about others first." you reply and kiss me on the cheek and
snuggle back down into the warmth of blankets pulling me also down with
a yawn and cuddle up close to me your head on my shoulder." Love you
too" I reply as sleep claims you totally unaware of the state your
innocent displays of friendly affection left me in . "More than you will
ever know. " I say as inhale the scent of your hair. So I state once
again I love you and will love you forever. And I will wait for a day
when I can tell you this. 

Because I know that will come' it has too. That thought alone keeps
me sane on nights such as these as I drift off to sleep and dream of
you.

THE END