FF: Thoughts Of Betrayal

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TITLE: Thoughts Of Betrayal
AUTHOR: Arimis Adkinson a.k.a Reality Bender
DISCLAIMER: All characters belong to Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. I 
don't own anything.
SUMMARY: Part Three Of the Thoughts series. Revelations are made. Lies
are exposed and a frightening truth is shared.
SPOILERS: Takes place after Season Two but Before Season Three 
DISTRIBUTION: If you want it take it Just let me know where it is 
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Third fic attempt so sit back and enjoy the show. 
Feedback: Please read and review. I thrive on the praise of others and I
use the negative comments as a reason to try harder next fic


( Willow's P.o.v )

" You didn't tell Buffy I was going to try to curse Angelus again did
you Xander ? " I say all of sudden into the companionable silence we've
been sitting in located in various places around Giles' apartment after
returning from one of our now routine patrols in Buffy's absence. I
watch as the color drains from my oldest friends face and every eye in
the room focuses on him. I haven't told any one about the letter she
left for me yet and I know I have to because some thing is coming I can
feel it in my bones and in my soul. 

" Wha...what makes you say that Will? " Xander stutters his reply. "
Just Answer My Question Xander Did You Tell Her Or Not ? " I say barely
controlling my rising anger. He looks around the room everyone is
waiting for his answer and he knows it. " No I didn't because
Angelus..." His honest response is cut as I slap him as hard as I can
knocking him to the floor. " Why did you lie to her Xander ? " I shout
as he sits on the floor holding his rapidly reddening cheek. " I did it
because Angelus should pay for what he did to us, for killing Ms.
Calendar." He responds " And what of Angel Xander ? the man who saved
us countless times the one who wanted redemption for the crimes of his
demon ? " I bellow 

The others a silent in their shock that I actually stuck Xander. Oz
his usual stoic self but I can tell he is shocked too. " To Hell with
Angel he deserved what ever he got he was a monster ! " He shouts as he
rise off the floor wearing my hand print. " Exactly the point you never
saw any difference between the two. " I rasp through clenched teeth. "
What the point to all this any way Angel is gone and so is Buffy."
Cordelia speaks cutting me off. " The point is because of Xander here
Buffy was forced to send Angel to Hell not Angelus." I reveal. " How
could even you know that Willow? " Giles asked into the silence 

" Buffy left a letter for me explaining exactly what happened after
Xander got you out of the mansion." I explain as I turn to face him. "
You know Buffy blames herself for everything that happens to us whether
or not it her fault in reality so imagine how she would feel after
sending her lover to Hell but that is the least of our problems right
now I suggest you stop looking for her Giles because you may not want to
find after I say what I have to next. She was distracted after the fight
she was attacked by a vampire and turned." I see Giles go from a livid
purple to ghostly white at my final revelation. " I don't think you'll
find Buffy until she wants to be found. She left because she was
wrestling with what ever she is now and was afraid she'd hurt us." I
finish saying my piece and leave in the ensuing silence Oz right behind
me as I walk to his van.

( Oz's P.o.v )

There is more to this then Willow is telling. She be distant ever
since Buffy left at first I thought it she was just missing her best
friend but now I'm not so sure. But as watch her sitting beside me on
our way to her house I realize I won't know until she tells me or until
Buffy comes home either I don't think it's going to go over well. All I
can do is be here for my Willow as long as she allows me to be. I just
can't shake the feeling that life in Sunnydale is going get really
interesting when Buffy gets back and I don't mean that in a good way. 

Xander. I can actually believe that he would lie to Buffy about
Willow recursing Angel. I've seen the way he looks at Willow when we're
together and it's the same way he looked at Angel and Buffy. He's
jealous of me the same way he was of Angel. But at least I now know to
watch my back around him.

( Giles' P.o.v. )

My God. Buffy turned. Xander lying about the curse. A thousand and
one thoughts race across my mind the council must be notified. A turned
slayer is unprecedented as far as my knowledge goes. I fear what might
happen if Buffy loses control. I pray she is strong enough to maintain a
balance an not kill anyone. I shudder at the possible carnage of enraged
slayer-vampire hybrid could do. " Please leave I must consult with the
council immediately abut Buffy" I say absently to Xander and Cordelia. I
stop mid thought I can't just let Xander leave like this. " Xander." I
call and he an Cordelia stop at the door. The pain and fear in his eyes
is unmistakable." I understand why you did what you did but that doesn't
excuse the fact you betrayed someone who trusted you with her life and
who you owe your life to as well." He looked at me and nods and allows
Cordelia to lead him out the door of my home.

After they have left I pour myself a drink and pick up the phone. I
hope the council can help me save my slayer or what ever she is now.
"Get me Quintin Travers please it is an emergency call from Rupert Giles
in Sunnydale."

( Cordelia's P.o.v )

I can't believe Xander would lie to his all powerful Buffy. I'm
watching Xander break down as I drive him home. It's a very scary
thought Buffy as one of those things that she protects us from. God Help
us All because I don't think any one else can. I am almost sorry I got
involved with this group of losers. For all their faults they really are
the type of friends you can count on not to stab you in the back or at
least so I thought so until tonight.

( Xander's P.o.v. )

What have I done. I've betrayed Buffy. Lost Willow's trust or at
least her respect. I am totally afraid of what will happen when Buffy
returns. Just because of my stupid jealousy. I destroyed my life and put
those around me in danger with one lie. And I don't how to fix it.

( ? p.o.v )

A new town a place to hide and maybe find a way to stop running.