Fw: Birthdays & Truths Part 2

["Melinda" <msantoyo@xxxxxxxxx>]

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From: Melinda 
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Sent: Friday, March 22, 2002 10:07 PM
Subject: Birthdays & Truths Part 2


Ok! Guys here's the next part. Hope you like.
 
 
Birthdays and Truths Part 2
Author: Melinda aka Panda Mel
Disclaimers: Buffy and Co. are owned by Joss Whendon. Standing Still By Jewel off CD This Way 
Spoilers: general sixth season
Rating: R For Sexuality
Archives: Take Want Have

"Well?" The Red-head questions when the Blonde doesn't respond. Buffy's face suddenly clears up as if a light had suddenly got turned on and she had figured out a hugh puzzle.

"I guess I don't have to kill my friends in order to have an epiphany." Buffy mutteres to herself. "What?!" Willow questiones, becoming more confused and concerned about the blonde in front of her, just standing in the middleof the living room, talking to herself. Did she say kill her friends? Willow's eyes bugs out again for the second time that night. I Thought she was cured from the poison? Willow's face becomes one of complete concern, quickly taking her friend's arm and leading her to the couch to sit.

"Here Buffy. I'm worried about you, Why don't you sit down." The Hacker says softly, Well guess I can't have that heart to heart I wanted with her. Willow frowns inwardly, thoughts quickly passing her already preoccupied mind. "Once you fall for Willow you stay fallen." Buffy says to Willow trying to convince her of Tara's Love. If she only knew. Willow shrugs her shoulders at her thoughts then sits next to the Slayer.

"Willow! Really. I'm fine. I mean, Yeah staring off into space, isn't fine,but really it was a good stare!" Suddenly Buffy starts to pick absently ather shirt, not looking at Willow, Before Willow could restate her questionthat was still being ignored, Buffy was up like a jack rabbit, pacing in front of the Red Head. Goddess, If I didn't know any better I would think she was nervous about something. Willow wonders to herself. Meanwhile Buffy,had stopped in front of WIllow, apparently coming to an unresolved issue in her head. Then taking Willow by complete surprise, the Blonde drops to her knees in front of Willow. Oh boy! Here she is in front of me, probably needing some kind of friend-comfort and all I can think of all the naughty things she cold do to me, while she was down there! Willow blushes furiously as her thoughts take a turn toward the gutter. Willow's breath quickly becoming rapid, her heart rate speeding up.

Do you need me 
Like I need you
Or am I standing still
Beneath a darkened sky
Or am I standing still
With the scenery flying by
Or am I standing still
Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you passing me by

"OK Will. I've been doing ALOT of thinking lately. What with thinking this whole slayer deal was all an illusion. First, I want to start by saying..."Buffy suddenly takes hold of Willow's hands, "..You are my Best Friend. And I would never ever mean to hurt you.." As Buffy continues to talk, Willowbegins to have a panic attack. Oh my Goddes!! How did she?? Tara and I just talked..I don't see how???.. As the panic filters across Willow's face, Buffy immediately picks up on it. 

"Will! No! You didn't do anything wrong!. I just ..just.." Buffy sighs, "There's really no easy way to say this." Buffy suddenly looks Willow directlyin the eyes. Hazel eyes holding green ones. "Since coming back from..well,death, ..I..I started having sex with Spike." Buffy suddenly closes her eyes.

Wh..what??!! Spike?! Vampire?! Spike?! How?! Where?! What?! Willow blinks. "I..I.Huh?"

Buffy tries to let go of Willow's hands, wanting to turn away from the incrimination she's sure to see in the most-forgiven-person's eyes. Willow, sensing what Buffy is trying to do, won't allow the movement, keeping the Slayer's hands in her own.
 
"You're in love with Spike?" The red-head falters a bit, a little bit of her world and heart crumbling. Maybe black magics aren't so bad after all , comes Willow sudden darken thoughts.

"What?! Love??!! No-no. Definately a negative. I-I just. God! I was lonely.I..I..have no excuse, other than, I felt horrible about coming back, thinking something was wrong with me. Then feeling horrible when you found out about me and Heaven. Then finding out Spike can hit me, so something's got to be wrong with me, then..." Buffy's ramblings start spiraling out of control. Willow would have thought it cute except...

"Spike can hit you?!!" I'll Kill that no good bastard, touching MY SLAYER..He'll pay. Wait! My slayer?

"Huh? Oh yeah. No big. Tara told me, my molecular-what's-a-ma-jigger got moved around. That's why. I'm the only one he can hurt."

What?! Is she serious? That's enough! "Buffy. Wait. Spike can hit you. you're having sex with him, but not in love with him. Tara knows. AND you're unconcerned??"

"Willow, please. Don't blame Tara. I..I.Broke down and told her..I..just..she was easier to tell then you. You were dealing with all of your problems with magic, last thing I wanted was to burden you. I begged her not to tellyou.

Begged?? What the Hell,did you do,have sex with her too?? "I..You know you could have told me. I just get the feeling you don't trust me" Willow now tries to pull her hands away from the burning look the Blonde is giving her,worried she is right.

"Wha..What? Trust-Willow! Of Course I trust you! I..I. Oh boy. This startedall wrong. I..I'm not having sex with Spike any more. I stopped. Buffy shakes her head. Looking Willow directly in the eyes, a small smile forming onher lips. "I'm IN love with you Willow."

Do you love me
Like I love you
Or am I standing still

TBC