Disclaimers: Spoilery for all the way up to 'Entrophy'.
Summary: This is my take, a different ending of sorts to Entrophy, so be warned a few things are changed around.
Notes: [ ] indicates thoughts. Hope you enjoy
My Statements
Pt.1
I love you. I don't think there is enough words, or air for that matter, for me to ever get tired of saying that. I know you're thinking that I have gone bonkers starting a letter with I love you, but I do. It tears me up at night thinking of you, and the pain your going through. But I don't wanna remind you of that pain so I'll move on to a new subject. Speaking of subjects, I started writing this during the middle of my AP class. I know what your thinking, 'Someone call the doctor! Willow is not paying attention in class.' But you do that to me, make me feel as if I can do anything. That's why I had to do it, the spell. I couldn't leave you like that, you mean to much to me. So I hope you can forgive me for it.
Loving you,
Willow
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I'm sorry. I know it isn't enough. I know it might never be enough. But I want to try to make it up to you, because after everything I don't think I could have made it without you. It will never be the same I know, that's why I want to leave you alone for awhile, to not be there constantly. Serving as giant flaming beacon to your pain that I have caused.
Always,
Willow
Willow put the letters into the two envelopes, wearily sealing them. [Can't believe that I don't have the guts to tell them face to face.] Willow barely noticed the students rushing by her, as she put the letters into the mail box. [They'll get them soon enough, and I'll know if they can ever forgive me.]
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"Buffy! You have mail!" [Let's marvel at the new eight wonder of the world!]
Dawn bounced into the kitchen, waving the letter madly throughout the air.
"What is so special about a bill that you have to jump arond like a chimpanzee?" Buffy continued to cut the vegetables for their dinner.
"It's not a bill."
"And ad?" Buffy added the newly diced vegetable to the lettuce.
"Nope. It's a letter." That gave Buffy pause.
"From G- where is the post mark from?" Dawn frowned, she knew Buffy was upset about Giles leaving, but why would he write? Dawn sometimes wondered, and not for the first time, at her sister's intelligence.
"It's from Sunnydale." [Weird.] Buffy closed the oven door having placed the tray of chicken inside.
"Who is it from?" Dawn checked the letter, but couldn't find a name or any other clue on the outside.
"I don't know." [Well I might as well get this over with.] Dawn handed over the letter.
[What?] The letter, was one of sorrow, expressed by Willow. [Why would she be writing me a letter about her-]
"Who is it from Buffy?" Dawn had wandered into the kitchen , and was now pouring herself a glasss of juice.
"It's from Willow. But I don't understand why she would send me a letter."
"Gee, maybe it could be because you have been supercold to her recently."
"I haven't been. I've been busy, working, the whole paycheck thing."
Dawn finished off her juice and placed the glass in the sink trying to think of a way to get her point across to Buffy.
"Buffy you haven't, ever since we found out that you- that you weren't whatever, the point is that she feels like she has brought you into hell. That you don't want to be reminded of her-"
"Wait a minute. I was upset at first, but now I know what it is that is different since I came back." Buffy went over to the stove and set the timer for the chicken. [She thinks I hate her. That's what Dawn and the letter mean.]
"Which is?"
"Dawn I- it's a personal thing." Dawn threw the towel to the floor
"Fine! Don't tell! It's not like I care or deserve to know, me being your sister and all!"
"Dawn please don't turn this into a fight. It's complicated."
"Explain it then." Dawn walked over toward Buffy, pulling the blonde's hand into her own.
"I love Willow."
"Duh! Tell me something new." Buffy picked up the towel Dawn had thrown down.
"I love Willow, like Tara loves Willow." [And now for Scream-A-Thon 2002]
"Oh, Buffy!" Dawn threw her arms around her older sister.
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Tara closed the door to her dorm room, and not for the first time wished that Willow would be waiting for her. Tara had walked over to the Summer's house, gathering her courage to go and talk to Willow about their relationship, but had left when she saw the window to their room, her memories of her singing and the spell coming back full force.Tara had run, away from the pain, the memories of her love playing with her mind, away from the one thing that she wanted the most.
Tara set the mail down on the kitchen top, checkin the answering machine to see if anyone had called. [Maybe Dawnie wants to get together, she is always so upset about being left alone.]
"Tara?" The blonde looked up, surprised by the voice outside her door. "Tara are you in there?"
The wicca opened the door, allowing Anya to enter.
"What's wrong?" Anya paced nervously, upsetting Tara by her frantic pace.
"I, D' Hoffryn offered me my powers back," Anya came to a sudden halt. "and I accepted them."
Tara said nothing, wanting Anya to calm down. [Hopefully getting eveyrthng off her chest will do that, or at least she will gain a bit of perspective.]
"Today when you were at the coffee place with Willow I was trying to get you to wish on Xander. I also tried to get Dawn and Buffy to do it also." Anya wiped at her eyes with the back of her hand. "It hurts. I just want it to stop, I don't want to hurt or hate Xander. I love him so much! How could he do that to me?!"
"Sweetie it's okay. He was scared, Will's told me that- his parents did an awful job of raising him. I don't think he meant to hurt you." Tara looked to see if Anya was still listening. "You know how you feel, but can you imagine how he feels? H-he hurt t-the person he loved the most trying to p-protect them. You Anya, he was trying to save you pain. Unfortunately he tried to late...." [I can't talk about this, it's to close to what happened between Will...]
Anya stopped wiping the tears away.
"You think that he is in pain too?" Tara thoughts flashed to the look Willow's face while they were in the sewers, when she had discovered about the second spell.
"I know he is."
TBC if you guys want it.
-Will