Re: Love, Pain, and Fear Ch. 2/?

[Jodie Lynn <sweet_n_slick2002@xxxxxxxxx>]

Here ya go. 


Love, Pain, and Fear

By: Angel

Rating: NC-17

Coupling: Buffy/Willow and who knows what else

Disclaimer: Unfortunately Joss owns them but if I
did..... these two would be together

Summary: Buffy reveals that she loves Willow, but
thinks her feelings can?t be returned. Giving up on
life Buffy is turned by some nameless vamp that is
killed with the ex-slayer?s last bit of strength. 
Buffy decides to come back and apologize to Willow,
but doesn?t plan for Will to see what she has done to
herself. Learning later that Willow does love her she
actually regrets something in her life. A
life-altering mistake that changes everybody.







Willow awoke to a loud crash from Buffy?s room next
door. Groggily, she sat up on her bed and swung her
legs over the side. She wiped the sleep from eyes and
tried to wipe the dried tears from her cheeks. She
thought back to the night before and prayed that it
was just a bad dream. Her thoughts were soon
interrupted by another crash from Buffy?s room.

She quickly jumped off her bed and ran out into the
hall. Stopping just outside she froze. Was last night
a dream? Cautiously, she inched the door open. The
room was a mess. Broken figurines laid on the floor,
clothes strewn across the room, a broken chair was in
the corner. Moving farther into the room, Willow saw
her. Her hands were pressed against the wall and she
was shaking violently. Her knuckles turned white as
she curled her fingers into tight fists. 

"B-Buffy? What?s wrong?" Willow asked concern
etched in her delicate features. 

A low growl came from Buffy as she continued to
shake. "Get out." She said quietly. 

"Buff-"

"GET OUT!" Buffy growled swinging her head around to
look at Willow. Her golden eyes glowed with so much
anger it scared the witch.

"Will, get out now. Get out of the house. I haven?t
fed since being turned." She took a deep breath and
closed her eyes. She bit her lip making her teeth
puncture the flesh. Desperately trying to stay in
control she was able to add, "Willow I don?t know how
much longer I can hold it. Get Tara and Dawn out. 
NOW!" Another growl erupted from her and she threw a
hand through the wall. 

Scared of what would happen if she didn?t leave she
ran back to her room and threw a pair of pants. 
Running down the stairs two at a time she glanced in
the living room and saw that Tara had already left.

Reaching for the front door she heard a door upstairs
open, and the soft, lulling voice of her best friend
floated to her. "Oh Willow. Where are you?"

Willow?s heart sped up and she ran out of the house. 
She thanked the heavens that the sun was out. At
least Buffy wouldn?t be able to eat yet, but that one
little word scared her now...Yet.


Willow walked into the Magic Box, trying to calm her
breath, and spotted Giles hovering by the bookshelves.
He seemed to be stocking the new witchcraft folklore
volumes that had just come in the night before.

"Giles." Willow called out walking towards the bent
figure. 

"Giles can I ask you something?" 

"Ok." He replied not looking up.

"Thank you for shopping at the Magic Box. Please
come back soon to buy more." Anya?s voice rang from
behind Willow.

Waiting until the patron had left, Willow curiously
asked, "What happens if vampires don?t feed?"

"Uhhh?." Willow watched as his body stiffened and he
stood slowly.

"It?s been told that if the fledgling?s will is great
enough they won?t feed." Anya said walking slowly up
from behind Willow. Sitting down in a chair and
crossing her legs, she slowly continued, "The body
usually goes into a state of shock, and the demon will
go into withdrawal."

"Have you ever seen it happen Anya?" Willow asked
curiously.

"Yeah but only once though, It doesn?t happen often."
The ex-demon replied, picking up a book and handing it
to Giles.

"Well what happened to them?" Willow asked again.

"Yeah I do. They?re dead." Anya replied casually.

"What exactly do you mean?" Willow asked worried,
sitting down in a chair across from her friend.

"Well the body remains, unlike when they?re staked. 
You know how the soul leaves and a demon takes over
the body, well if they don?t feed the demon rips its
way out of the dead body from insanity." Anya said
using hand motions to prove her point. "It?s not a
pretty sight if you ask me." She continued, stacking
books in a pile and handed them to Giles.

Willow felt useless just standing there watching the
two workers stack books. She still had many
unanswered questions, but one question in particular
stuck out like a sore thumb. "Giles, has there ever
been a turned slayer?" She asked staring at the
ground. She hoped that the fear and worry she felt
didn?t show in voice.

"Uh?no not that I know of."

"Yes there has." Anya argued.

"In Nagarek?s Diary. It said that his slayer was
killed from the demon?s insane-"

"How do you know of his diaries? All Watcher Diaries
are off limits even to employees." Giles said
agitated.

"Well what do you expect me to do in this God
forsaken store at night?" Anya defended.

"Anything but reading private official documents. 
Clean up or something."

"Giles the store is always?"

"Hey back to my question. What do the diaries say?" 
Willow interrupted the workers feud.

"It just sa-"

"Anya those documents aren?t meant for the public,
and if you?ve read them then you are now under oath
not repeat anything that you have read from them."

"But?"

"Anya please." Giles said taking his glasses off and
cleaning them with the hem of his shirt.

"Willow, why all the questions about turned slayers
and vampires?" Giles asked repositioning his glasses.

"Oh nothing really. With me helping Buffy with her
patrols I just thought it best to be knowledgeable and
all." 

"Okay."

"Thanks a lot you guys. I guess I?ll talk to you
later. Good luck with those books." Willow called
out as she turned around and walked out of the door.

"Welcome to the Magic?." Anya?s voice was heard as
the door closed.


"Willow!" Tara called again.

"Oh Tara, hey."

"Were are you going?" Tara asked nervously.

"Ummm I need to run an errand real." Willow said
apologetically. 

"Oh, I was hoping that we could go out to lunch today,
and maybe? spend some time together. You know, just
us." Tara said sheepishly looking towards the ground.

Willow?s eyes sought out Tara?s with a saddened
expression and she reached out and made Tara look at
her. "Baby I?d like that, but I really gotta do this.
Please understand."

Tara moved in and gently kissed her Willow, but could
feel her hesitation. Willow tentatively kissed her
lover and pulled away. "I?ll be home later. Take
Dawn out shopping tonight and don?t come by the house
till later."

"Why?" Tara asked, hoping it wasn?t what she thought.

"Well I can?t really say?" Willow said. "I?m hoping
you guys will like it though. I mean I don?t really
want to spoil anything for anyone, but I gotta go do
this errand first so I can?t really talk or else I may
not have time to?" 

"Willow it?s ok." Tara smiled at Willow?s babbling. 
"I understand. It?s a surprise and you don?t have to
explain." 

Willow smiled at Tara?s smiling face. "Thanks hun. 
I?ll see you tonight. Could you and Dawn stay out
until about 8? Everything should be done by then."

"Yeah, she?s at a friend?s house right now so I?ll
pick her up later."

"Thanks." Willow smiled and kissed Tara lightly on
her cheek.

Tara stared after her, worried about what was on her
witch?s mind. But I trust her, Tara thought. Even
though I may be second in her heart.



--- "J. Williams" <uj18@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
> Hey.
> Would some kind soul send me chapter 1 of this
> PLEASE?
> 
> Thanks.
> J
> 


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