FIC The Spaces Inbetween (11/13) NC-17

["Red Willow" <reddwillow@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

Title: The Spaces Inbetween
Author: Red Willow
Email: reddwillow@xxxxxxxxxxx or nick_elodian@xxxxxxxxx
Disclaimer: All characters and reference to belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant 
Enemy, and all them
other peeps. I'm just using them to make my own fun. Casey and Claire are 
mine though. Girl on Girl action.. you know like.. you no read.
Distribution: Story belongs to me. If ya want it, just ask and credit me.
Pairing: W/B with a little bit o' Tara and a smidge of Spike
Rating: NC-17 (up to)
Summary: part 11 of 13 S6 and veering off into AU land. Tara's left 
Willow. Buffy slept with Spike. Willow's trying to keep
away from magicks. The spaces inbetween refers to the time between one
relationship and another.... the fight and the makeup, the time spent in 
reflection, dreams...
alone time....
Feedback? I thrive on feedback. Hope you enjoy!
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Song featured: 'Bodies' by Soul Minor's Daughter 1995
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I let her stare at me, taking in my body. I wasn?t nervous about this 
anymore. When I realized she was taking a shower and that I would have to 
wait even longer, my confidence came back and I made the decision that we 
were going to make love and we were going to enjoy each other, make it work, 
make us work, and I wanted it at that very moment more than I had at any 
other time in my life.

I knew she was scared, I saw it in her eyes, sensed it in the tension of 
her body. I didn?t blame her though; I was scared the first time too. With 
Oz it was nice, I wanted it and he surprised me. Of course the possibility 
of us dying helped. With Tara it was different. There was no imminent 
danger to our lives. There was just this connection made through magic that 
we wanted to explore physically and the sexual tension was already at a 
desperate level as it was. I was scared to death because I hadn?t ever been 
with a woman, and I hoped I wouldn?t disappoint her and it took a lot of 
coxing on her part to get me to relax and enjoy. Tara was great for that, 
helping me be more confident with my body, with my sexuality.
I wanted to help Buffy that way. Show her how good it could be, and that 
she didn?t need to be scared, or nervous about it.

I got up and took off my bra and panties, wanting to slide into that hot 
shower with her, share in the intimacy of our nude bodies against the heat 
and water.

She must have been really deep in thought because when I pulled back the 
curtain and peeked in, she didn?t even notice me at first. Again, her 
Slayer senses must have been on hold. I took in the sight of her body and 
the rivulets of water flowing down her tanned skin. I knew I?d be able to 
kiss and lick that skin for the rest of my life and die happy.

?Buffy?? I asked, hoping I wouldn?t startle her.

Good play by Rosenberg! She almost slipped and fell I scared her so bad. 
She automatically flung her arms around her, barring my eyes from her most 
intimate features.
?Willow!? She shouted.

?S-sorry? I just? I thought maybe?? I could get wet with you and sex you 
up. Yeah, great.
?I-I-I?? She stammered, unable to speak.
?I-I?m sorry? I?ll go?? I choked out.

I let the curtain fall and stood there for a moment, wondering if Buffy and 
I would ever be intimate.

?Wait!? She shouted suddenly, pulling back the curtain.

And there she stood, letting me see her naked body while she stared at mine, 
stared hard. Her mouth was open and she was visibly in awe. I flushed, 
embarrassed and wowed at the same time. She was really looking at me, 
taking in every single inch of my body in wonderment. She really wanted 
what I had and I couldn?t help but be a little surprised by that. I never 
thought of myself as anything very desirable and was always surprised at any 
attention payed to my body. I am small, have little breasts, and pale skin, 
what could they possibly find appealing? But Buffy was soaking me up, 
making love to me with her eyes. I smiled, enjoying the attention and 
enjoying my own little show as she made no attempt to cover herself this 
time, the water still sliding over her sexy form.

She licked her lips and then shot a glance at me, blushing a deep red as she 
realized I was watching her stare at me. She tried to speak, but I stepped 
forward, putting my index finger to her lips.

?Can I come in?? I asked, letting my desire show.

She nodded and I gestured for her to make room.

Stepping into the hot spray was gratifying in itself. The shower I had 
taken earlier had been lukewarm if that. I wrapped my arms around Buffy and 
pulled her close, feeling her relax against me, while the water continued to 
stream over us. I wanted her to be completely relaxed and at ease with what 
we were both venturing into. I needed for her to be completely comfortable 
with me, with our bodies, and with what we both so desperately wanted from 
each other. She had been hiding her sexuality for a very long time, and I 
knew all too well how emotional it could get.

?I love you Buffy.? I whispered in her ear.
?I love you too, Will.? She whispered back, holding me tighter.
?I didn?t mean to scare you.? I started, ?I-I just? I want this so bad, and 
I want us to be together.?
?Ah? you didn?t scare me??
I pulled back from her and eyed her, a grin forming on my lips.
?O-okay? well, you scared the crap out of me, but? I?m not scared now.?
?A-are you sure??
?I-I?m not scared? when I?m with you.? She said in all honesty and my heart 
soared.
?Good.? I stated and kissed her cheek.
?Will??

I looked at her again, searching her eyes for anything that might help me 
best navigate.

?What??
?I? I um? this is hard for me??

She looked down and I noted the embarrassment lighting her features again.

?Tell me Buffy.? I said, lifting her chin so I could look in her eyes again.
?W-well? it?s just that? ya know, I?ve never? I mean? I?m not sure if I??
?Shhh?? I pressed my lips to hers, catching her bottom lip with mine and 
pulled on it briefly before breaking the kiss.
?You don?t have to worry about anything.? I told her. ?I-I want to make love 
to you? make you feel good and show you how much I love you. I don?t want 
you to be worried? about anything.?
?But? I-I-I want??

I put my fingers on her lips and let her kiss them.

?I know Buffy? I know what you want and I-I know you?re nervous? I get 
that.?

I kissed her again, sliding my tongue along her lips until she parted them, 
inviting me in. Our tongues met, dancing inside her mouth. I brought one 
hand down to her waist, while I brought the other behind her neck. I stepped 
forward and putting my foot between hers, I pushed her against the wall. 
She gave no resistance, only strengthening her hold on me. We kissed long 
and passionately, breathing through our noses, our tongues chasing each 
other from her mouth to mine and back again. Teeth pulling on lips, lips 
sucking on tongues, her mouth to mine, building energy between us, both ends 
rooted deep in our separate bodies.

I broke off the kiss finally; trailing light kisses along her cheek to her 
ear.

?Do you trust me?? I asked, kissing her ear.
?Always.? She breathed out.
?Good.?

I ran my tongue along her outer ear before nibbling with my teeth. At the 
same time I brought my hand up from her waist and cupped her breast, running 
my thumb over her erect nipple.

?Do you want this??
?Yes! God yes!? She moaned, leaning into my kisses, arching into the touch 
of my fingers on her breast.
?Good.? I said again.

I proceeded to kiss and lick my way down her neck. I pinched her nipple 
between my thumb and index finger firmly and was rewarded by a sharp intake 
of breath, followed immediately by a moan and shutter. She brought her own 
hand from my shoulder to my side, stopping just short of my breast. I 
waited patiently, gently caressing her breast and kissing her neck. She 
inched her fingers closely and needles of anticipation crept over my body. 
She loved what I was doing to her, but I also felt how nervous she was.
I placed my other hand on hers and gently urged her forward on her quest, 
letting her cup my left breast. With the approval I gave she followed her 
instincts and began rubbing her thumb over my nipple, causing me to moan 
into her neck.

I was practically dripping between my legs now. The heat of the shower 
combined with the way our naked and wet bodies were sliding against each 
other was sending tiny waves of energy through me. I wanted nothing more 
than to throw her down on the floor of the shower and ride her thigh while I 
made her come with my fingers. But I needed this to be special, to be good 
for her and to take my time, letting her decide what she wanted.

I felt her mouth on my neck, her tongue sliding over the wet flesh until she 
found my pulse point and began to suck, using her teeth, driving me crazy.

I moaned loudly and pushing myself against her, I bit her shoulder, feeling 
the swell of passion take over just as her other hand confidently found its 
way to my other breasts. She rolled both of my nipples between her fingers 
and I reciprocated by doing the same. I tugged, rolled, and squeezed on her 
nipples, eliciting affirmative moans from lips I again sucked and licked, 
even scraping my teeth over her tongue. She caught my lips and pulled me 
into another deep desperate kiss that seemed to go on forever. I could feel 
the heat rising between us, swirling like the steam in the bathroom.

It was then that I noticed the water wasn?t as hot as when I first stepped 
into the shower and realized that it was actually cooling down some, 
regardless of the stopped up steam.

I broke from the kiss and eased up on my assault from her breast.
She moved quickly across my cheek, leaving butterfly kissing along the way, 
and clasped onto my earlobe. I didn?t want to stop, but I knew that 
regardless of the states of our bodies, we would freeze if we stayed much 
longer.

?Buffy?? I whispered huskily.
?Hmmm??

She continued to lick and suck her way around my ear.

?Buffy.?

I tapped her on the shoulder, gaining her attention. She pulled back and 
looked at me and I knew right away that she thought she was doing something 
wrong.

I smiled and ran a finger down her the gentle slope of her nose.

?Don?t look so scared.? I said in an amused tone.
?W-what?s wrong??
?I-I?m getting cold.?
?Huh??
I giggled, my face blushing.
?The water, Buffy? it?s getting cold.?

She paused for a second as if having to translate what I said. A smile 
crept across her face and she turned back to turn off the water.

?Sorry?? She started. ?I? I guess I got caught up in??
?Me too?? I assured her. ?But? can we???
?Bed?? She asked, shyly.
?Yeah.? I responded nodding. I wanted her to know that I definitely didn?t 
want to stop, just didn?t want to be cold. I grabbed her head and pulled 
her into another deep kiss.
After a few moments we broke apart and grinned at each other.
?A-are we really doing this?? She asked suddenly.
?Yes.?
?Good. I didn?t want to be? dreaming? again.?
I smiled at her knowing exactly what she was talking about.
?So was it good??
?Was what good?? She asked, obviously a little confused.
?The dream you had earlier??
?Y-you? you know about that? How???
?I pay attention.? I said before adding, ?Plus, you kind of? moaned my 
name.?

She blushed, turning her face from me slightly. I reached back up and 
turned her to face me again.

?A-are you embarrassed??
?Uh, well? yeah.?
?Don?t be? I-I was? flattered actually.?
She simply smiled at me.
?Hey Will??
?Yeah??
?How did you get so? hmm? I?m not sure how to? say it? confident? maybe? I-I 
mean? sexually? uh? hmm??
?I-I think I know what you mean? I-I um? let?s just say I discovered a part 
of me that um? well? I-I?m a force to be reckoned with when I?m horny.?

We both busted out laughing and she shook her head. I already knew we were 
going to have lots of fun.

?Come on.? She said, giving me a light peck on the lips.

She slid open the shower curtain and we stepped out into the cool air of 
the bathroom, the remaining steam starting to dissipate as we toweled off, 
enjoying the view of each others? reddened skin.


Making our way back into the bedroom, I hit repeat on the cd player, and 
smiled at Buffy. Dawn was downstairs, and even though I was sure she knew 
we were in here together, I didn?t think I wanted her hearing us, especially 
after her admittance to hearing me and Tara, and I knew all too well how 
sound seemed to travel in this house.

Buffy had slid into bed quickly, pulling the sheet over her body, the 
nervous tension flooding her eyes again. I was going to take that tension 
away though, and make her love every minute of it. Gee, I?m a little freak 
sometimes, aren?t I?

I walked to the bed slowly, letting her trail her eyes over my body again 
and again. I pulled the sheet back away from her and scanned her body 
before crawling beside her.


Well don?t burden me
with those hypothetic questions in your eyes
and times already stood still
long enough to make you cry
well are you thinking what I think you?re thinking
drive me mad
and wet my lips with tear drops
or moisture not so sand?
*****


"What is a poet? An unhappy person who conceals profound
anguish in his heart but whose lips are so formed that
as sighs and cries pass over them they sound like
beautiful music"
-Soren Kierkegaard


Willow: Oh Buffy, you really need to have every square inch of your ass 
kicked.
Buffy: Then show me what you got, and I'll show you what a Slayer really is.

Who the hell am *i* to capitalize myself?


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