FIC: Wild one 13/?

["Jennifer DuBoe" <jend2002@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

The song in this part is Joe Cocker ?Have a little faith in me?.

Author: Jen D
Disclaimer: I don?t own just like it.
Rating: G-R and all points between mostly language and violence
Pairing: Willow/ Buffy
Spoilers: I guess all of the shows this is A/U but some of it might come up.
Summery: A/U A different first season, different Willow.
Author notes: I am still working on Learning to live. Let me know if you 
think.


At 4:55 Buffy walked through the doors to the library to find Giles gone 
and Jenny waiting on her.
?So you ready for this?, Jenny asked Buffy.
?As ready as I will ever be?.
?Ok Giles left and we are having dinner tonight at my place, so you should 
be safe. I hope you don?t mind but I called your mom today and invited her. 
I thought it would be nice to get to know each other, since we?ll be working 
so close to keep you alive.?
?No that?s cool. I talked to her this morning about Willow and it might do 
her some good to talk to someone.? Jenny looked into Buffy eyes trying to 
judge how the talk with her mom had gone, ?Did she freak out??
?No, I thought she would but she didn?t. I?m a very lucky kid. She was 
worried about me getting involved with someone so unstable but she told me 
if things get to be too much to let her help.?
?You are very lucky. My parents would never have taken it that well at your 
age. It took me a long time to get the courage up to tell them. I happen to 
think that your mom is pretty lucky to have a daughter like you?, Jenny 
handed Buffy a bag, ?Here is that CD that I told you about. I?m out of here. 
Good luck and you can call me tonight if you need to talk. I wrote my cell 
phone and pager number down and put it in the bag. Just be honest and 
patient.? Jenny gave Buffy a hug and left. Buffy looked through the bag and 
was amazed at what she found. Not only was the CD in there but also an 
assortment of candles, ?Damn she thought of everything?. Buffy smiled and 
shook her head. Buffy went about setting up the candles and went to the 
office to find the radio that she knew that Giles kept in there. She found a 
plug and put the CD in and found the song that Jenny had told her would be 
perfect for the night. Buffy had been hesitant but when the music filled the 
room she knew how right the witch had been. She sat down at the table and 
tried to collect her thoughts. She knew that she had to find the right words 
to say the things she needed. ?The last thing that I want to do is hurt her 
anymore?, she thought to herself. The closer it got to six the more nervous 
Buffy got, ?What if she doesn?t show up. What if she just laughs at me? Oh 
god tell me why I?m doing this to myself. Ok Buffy you are the slayer, 
killer of all bad things, you can handle this even if it doesn?t go the way 
you want it to?. Buffy inner meltdown was cut short by the doors of the 
library opening. ?Well here goes nothing?, she thought.
?Hey I wasn?t sure if you would come?, Buffy said quietly.
?Well after that kiss this morning, curiosity got the better of me. That and 
Jenny told me that I had better have my ass here. Buffy, what?s going on.?
?First I want you to listen to something, then we can talk, ok.? Willow 
could see how nervous she was and nodded. Buffy walked to the radio and 
started the song and turned to watch Willow.




'When the road gets dark And you can no longer see Let my love throw a 
spark
Have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry Are all you can believe Give these loving 
arms a try
Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me Have a little faith in me Have a little 
faith in me'



Buffy walked over, put her arms around the red head and held her close. 
Willow stiffened at the touch but relaxed when she saw the love in Buffy 
eyes.




'When your secret heart Cannot speak so easily From a whisper start 
Have a little faith in me

When your back against the wall Just turn around and you will see I 
catch your fall
Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me Have a little faith in me 
Have a little faith in me

When the road gets dark And you can no lounger see Let my love throw a 
spark
Have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me Have a little faith in me 
Have a little faith in me

I have been loving you for such a long time Expecting nothing in return 
Just for you to have a little faith in me'




Buffy lead Willow to a chair and they sat down, ?Will, I have no idea where 
to start. I have never felt anything like this before. Everything is jumbled 
up in my head. I spent most of the day thinking about you and what I wanted 
to say to you. I had this big speech ready and the minute you walked into 
the room it went right out the window. I?m scared, I have never had to 
question my sexuality before. That is until I met you. I?m going to be 
honest with you I have never thought of myself as gay or bi-sexual but I 
know that I want you. I will understand if you don?t want to take the risk 
of getting hurt. I can?t tell you that it won?t be too much for me. I want 
to protect you and keep you safe. I want you to trust me and talk to me. I 
want you to have faith in me like the song said.? Buffy finally ran out of 
steam and lowered her head letting the tears run down her face. Willow put 
her hand under Buffy chin and lifted her head so that they were staring into 
each others eyes, ?Buffy, if anyone needs to worry about getting hurt it?s 
you, hon. I?m not sure if I am in a place in my life where a relationship is 
the best for me.? Willow saw the look of defeat in Buffy face, ?No let me 
finish, I do want you more then I could put into words but I just need some 
time to think about things. I have never let myself get close to anyone 
before I?m not sure if I know how.? Willow pulled Buffy into a kiss that 
took both girls breath away, ?Just give me some time. I?ll call you later. 
Buffy, I do feel something for you too, something I have never felt. I just 
have to sort it all out.? Willow gave her another short kiss and left the 
library. Buffy didn?t know what to do. ?At least we were both honest with 
each other?, Buffy thought as she gathered up the candles and put the radio 
back in the office. ?I guess now I wait?, she said to the empty room.

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