Fic: Triune (3/?) B/W/T NC-17

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Title: Triune

Author: The Bear!

Spoilers: up through season 5

Pairing: Buffy/Willow/Tara (Some of the other Scoobies might get a
little some-some as well)

Summary: Ends the Triad Trilogy- Sequel to the Please Trilogy. The new
Triad deals with an angry Hellgod and new relationships are on the
horizon

Warnings: NC17 Ahoy! I Love BDSM. I Love chains and whips. I love
Sex! If any of these gives you the wiggins, then so will this story.
(Part 3 is kinda pg-13ish maybe verging on R)

Disclaimer: If I owned ?em, they?d have to show it on the Ecstasy
Network.

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Part 3

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?Well Xander, we?ve got a few hours to kill. Whatcha wanna do?? Buffy
asked as she closed the door behind her girlfriends.

?Whaddya mean?? Xander asked, ?I thought they were coming right back??
he trailed off when he saw Buffy?s smirk.

?Yeah, that?s what Tara thinks too.? She giggled.

?But?? Xander said, drawing it out in hopes of an explanation- thoughhe
thought he had a pretty good idea of what was going on.

?My little witch has other plans for our sweet Tara. Plans that don?t
include rushing back here any time soon!? Buffy was bouncing on her
toes, laughing in giddy pleasure.

?You know, Buff? I don?t mean to be insensitive or whatever?? Xander
started.

?I hear a big ?but? coming,? Buffy said.

?I? well? I don?t get the whole you and Tara and Willow thing. With
Willow and Tara going on a date, and you here with me?? Xander said,
sounding confused.

?What?s not to get?? Buffy asked. ?It sounds like you got it- I?m here,
they?re there??

?Yeah, but? You?re not jealous? I mean, obviously you aren?t, jealous
that is?? Xander clearly didn?t know exactly how to explain himself.
?What I don?t get, I guess, is how come??

?How come I?m not jealous?? Buffy asked with a smile.

?Yeah,? Xander said, and then quickly backtracked, ?I mean, I?m not
saying you should be, cause if you aren?t then there?s no reason you
should be, I guess. I just don?t get why you aren?t??

Buffy smiled broadly, understanding how this could be confusing. If she
weren?t in it, she imagined she?d be as messed up about it as Xander
was. ?I don?t know. I guess? as long as no one?s getting left outof
smoochies, and we all know what we?re doing? it?s not like we?re being
left out. We don?t hide stuff from each other, and we all get time
together- all three of us together, and two at a time, too.?

?Weird,? Xander said, shaking his head.

Buffy arched an eyebrow and asked, ?Weird??

Xander backpedaled, ?Uh, not bad weird??

Buffy maintained a straight face as she teased Xander. ?Good weird?? she
asked in the same flat voice.

?Well, yeah, I mean, not weird like? ?wrong? or anything, just? you
know? different. I mean?? Xander sputtered.

?Relax,? Buffy said, letting him off the hook. ?I was just teasing.?
She nodded her head as if agreeing with some internal conversation she
was having and said, ?It is different. I?ve never known anyone in a
polyamorous relationship before either.?

?It?s not like they teach about it in ?human development? class at
school,? Xander said, at ease now, knowing that Buffy was just playing
with him. ?Taxpayers not big on the ?alternative relationship? studies
for the kiddies, I guess.?

?Yes, because the traditional nuclear family is such a successful
model!? Buffy said with just a trace of bitterness.

?Sure, your parent?s divorce is probably the best role model we?ve got,?
Xander said. At Buffy?s perplexed look he explained, ?Just think about
it, your parents weren?t in love with each other or whatever, so they
split. They could have stayed together like mine, and become useless
drunken alcoholics whose lives are leading examples of misery. Or, they
could be like Willow?s- distant, cold, and neglectful. Or you could
have Tara?s ?right out of Deliverance? Hillbilly wife-beaters,? Xander
paused for a moment and then said, ?Face it Buffy, you got the best of
the bunch.?

Buffy stared at her friend for a moment then chuckled ruefully, ?On that
happy note!? She stood up and stretched, saying, ?Wanna go patrol? We
can swing by the video place on the way back and find some mindless
comedy to take our mind off the hellmouth for ninety minutes.?

Xander almost managed not to stare as Buffy arched her back in a giant
stretch. It took a moment for his brain to process her question-
fortunately his response time was significantly faster than it had been
in High School, and Buffy didn?t notice the pause before he said, ?Sure,
patrol, video, laughter. Sounds like a good plan.?

Xander stuck out his hand and Buffy pulled him up to his feet. She
turned to walk towards the door, but turned back as if she had just
thought of something. ?You know, I had no idea of what I was getting
into when Tara and Willow invited me into their relationship. I knew I
wanted Willow, I knew I liked Tara.?

Xander stood, silent, listening. He somehow realized that it was
important for Buffy to put this into words, for her own sake more than
for his.

?I think I already loved Willow. I mean I?ve loved her as a friend
forever? and I? I always wanted her, I just couldn?t? I wasn?t brave
enough to do anything about it,? Buffy said.

?It turned out Willow had been wanting me too. For a long time,? Buffy
said. ?We were both too afraid of messing up our friendship to do
anything about it. If it wasn?t for Tara?? Buffy shook her head and
turned back to the door.

Xander followed Buffy out into the night. He was genuinely curious
about the whole triad thing, and not just for the obvious ?stimulating?
reasons. He decided to take advantage of Buffy?s introspective mood.
?Tara got you together??

Buffy chuckled. ?Yeah. Doesn?t seem likely, does it??

Xander said, ?No, I- I can see it? now anyway. At the time, no I
wouldn?t have guessed it would be Tara that did it.?  

?Yeah, back in the ?shy Tara? days,? Buffy mused. ?She?s definitely not
shy anymore!?

?I guess a little Buffy is good for the self confidence, yeah?? Xander
joked.

Buffy rolled her eyes at him. ?You know, she should be confident.
She?s amazing! I never knew how good it could be before??

Xander waggled his eyebrows and said, ?That good huh??

?Xander!? Buffy said in mock-outrage. ?I wasn?t talking about the sex.
Although, she?s really, really good at that too!?

Xander gawked, completely not expecting Buffy to say that.

Buffy laughed at the look on her friend?s face. ?I meant the other
stuff- caring, giving, loving? that stuff?? Buffy had a look of wonder
and contentment on her face. ?She makes me feel so loved that I can?t
even explain it. And then there?s Willow, and I love her so much it
amazes me, and still she loves me back even more. Between the two I
feel more alive and wonderful and?? Buffy trailed off, realizing that
she was being rather insensitive to Xander, who had just broken up.
??sorry.?

Xander frowned, ?you feel sorry??

?No! I mean, sorry I?m going on and on about how happy I am, and? here
you are just broken up with Anya and you probably don?t really want to
hear how happy I am? and I?m just making it even worse now, aren?t I??
Buffy said, realizing she was still going on about it.

Xander laughed, ?Don?t worry about it Buff,? he tried to reassure her.

?You aren?t? I don?t know? sad? I mean, not that I want you to be
depressed or anything, but you were going out with her for, like, a
year!? Buffy didn?t understand how he could be ok, and thought maybe he
wasn?t so ok and was just hiding his feelings, cause that?s what
Scoobies did- they hid their feelings from each other cause they were
scared and didn?t want to hurt each other- which of course always
backfired and made them end up hurting each other, and, ?Ok, I?ve got
Willowbabble!? she thought, ending her internal rant.

?You know, I?m really ok,? Xander said.

?Well? you know, it?s ok if you?re not ok; I mean, this is the new and
improved Scooby gang- honesty is our policy!? Buffy said in a cajoling
voice. ?You don?t miss her??

Xander stopped walking and considered for a moment how honest he wanted
to be. ?You really want the truth?? he asked.

Buffy stopped and turned to face him, seeing the seriousness in his
eyes, she answered, ?Yeah, Xander. I think it?s time we actually
trusted each other enough to be honest.?

?I?ll miss the sex,? Xander said.

Buffy?s eyes bugged out, and her jaw dropped.  

Xander laughed but there was little humor in it. ?You know, the more I
think about our entire relationship, the more disgusted I get with
myself.?  

Xander resumed walking, and it took Buffy a moment to snap out of it and
catch up. ?Why?? she asked.

?Why which? The sex or the disgusted?? he asked sardonically.

Buffy wanted to say the disgusted part, but if she were serious about
the honesty bit, she would have to admit that she was curious about the
sex, too. ?It had to be pretty amazing to make him put up with her,?
she thought, then immediately chastised herself for the mean thought.
?Uh both,? she answered.

?The sex was amazing. I mean I?ve only ever been with one other person,
and that lasted all of ten minutes, so I don?t have a good comparison?
but Anya made me feel things I?d never even imagined before? We did
stuff I?d never even heard of- stuff that would make a movie camera
melt?? he trailed off as he remembered some of the more creative things
Anya had taught him. ?Not only the stuff she did to me, but the stuff
she taught me to do to her? I have no doubt in my mind that I could
knock the socks off of just about any woman out there after being
trained by Anya.?

Buffy raised an eyebrow in disbelief.

Xander chuckled, ?Yeah, I know it sounds pretty conceited, but trust me
when I tell you, Anya didn?t sugar coat things. If I wasn?t making her
see stars, she let me know it. Did you know vengeance demons aren?t
celibate? I figured, you know- with the hating men thing- there
wouldn?t be a lot of smoochies going on, but that?s not what she said.
So basically, I had a teacher with about twenty times the experience of
the average human.?

Buffy?s eyes once again grew round as she imagined the possibilities.

Xander continued, ?And, you know how they say practice makes perfect??
He asked, smiling as Buffy slowly nodded her head. ?Yeah. We practiced
pretty much constantly. In fact, she had some ?old friends? who owed
her a few favors?? 

?You mean?? Buffy whispered, beginning to think that maybe there was a
good reason they weren?t completely honest with each other.

?I won?t go into details?? Xander began.

?For which I will say thank you,? Buffy interjected.

?But, your girlfriends aren?t the only ones with magical powers?? he
said with not a little pride. ?And, you aren?t the only one with
supernatural recuperation!?

Buffy gulped loudly.

?Of course, none of which helps me in a fight at all?? Xander lamented.

Buffy was a little stunned by the ?breadth? of Xander?s honesty. ?Oh.
Wow.? She said quietly.

Xander didn?t say anything for a moment and they resumed walking. After
about fifty meters, he continued, ?I feel like I was the stereotypical
female in the relationship, if you could call it a relationship.?

Buffy didn?t understand that at all.  

Seeing her confused look, he said, ?Anya only wanted me for sex. In the
beginning I knew that, but I tried to convince myself that there was
more to it after a while. I?m disgusted with myself because I was the
one trying to make the whole thing into something it wasn?t; a
relationship.?

Buffy was a little concerned by the bitterness in his voice. ?Xander,
it might not have been the perfect relationship??

Xander interrupted her, ?It wasn?t anything Buffy! I pretended it was,
but it wasn?t really. I pretended Anya wanted me for my mind and my
heart and all the other stuff- when all she wanted was my body.?

Buffy couldn?t help but grin at that. She looked away so he wouldn?t
see it, and tried not to laugh.

?Anya pretended she cared about all the other stuff so I wouldn?t stop
having sex with her. She told me what I wanted to hear, tried to behave
the way I wanted her to, but it wasn?t real, it wasn?t the real Anya.
The real Anya didn?t really care about anything but money and sex. And
I was kidding myself that it was ever anything else.?

?You really think it was that bad?? Buffy asked sadly. Sure, Anya was a
pain to be around, and- being honest again- Buffy was kinda glad she was
gone. But?

Xander sighed. ?I finally realized that Anya was never really human.
Destroying her necklace didn?t kill the demon, it just kept her
powerless and locked up in a human-looking wrapper.?

Xander kicked a rock down the gutter as they entered one of Sunnydale?s
many cemeteries. ?The only thing I?ll miss is the sex, because that?s
the only thing that was real. Everything else was a lie I told myself
to keep from realizing the situation I was in.?

?Wow,? Buffy said. ?So, whaddya gonna do now?? 

Xander took a deep breath and said, ?Well, I was thinking, really the
only answer is hookers.?

Buffy stumbled and almost fell. Her eyes went wide and her jaw sagged
once again.

Xander somehow managed to keep a completely straight face, despite the
hysterical giggles that rose up in side him at the sight of her
reaction.  

Her strangled squeak, ?XANDER!!? broke his façade and his mouth slipped
into a manic grin.  

She was just about to smack him when he pointed over her shoulder and
said, ?Whaddya know? Saved by the vampire!?

Buffy spun around to see a minion-level vampire rushing up on her. She
almost sighed in annoyance. ?I don?t know, Xan,? she said as she waited
for the vamp to get to her. When it was almost upon her, she crouched
down and her arms shot up, catching it in the chest and crotch, and then
she jumped up, combining her legs, her arms, and its own momentum to
throw it almost ten meters through the air to crumple against a large
stone monument. She continued her quip, saying, ?it?s kinda small? why
don?t I let you have it.?  

Buffy laughed as the tables were turned and it was Xander?s turn to gape
like a fish on dry land.  

?Oh, Crap!? Xander thought. He quickly fumbled for his stake and rushed
over to the dazed vampire, hoping to dust it before it regained it?s
limited senses. Small for Buffy meant just about all he could handle.

Fortunately for Xander, the blow had been severe and the vampire was
barely staggering to its feet when he got to it. He didn?t waste any
time or try for a Slayeresque quip, he just staked it in the back and
breathed a sigh of relief as it blew into dust.

He turned around to blast Buffy but she beat him to it.

?Oh you *so* deserved that, Xander. Don?t even pretend you didn?t.? she
said with her hands on her hips, and a smile on her lips.

?I? ok, you?re right?? he admitted. ?But you should have seen your
face!? he crowed, laughing as he remembered it. ?Priceless!?

?Yeah!?? Buffy said, starting to rant, but then Xander?s infectious
laughter got to her and she couldn?t help chuckling herself. ?Well? I
was just so shocked!? she said.

?I could tell! If it hadn?t been for that vamp, I was worried for my
safety,? he teased.

?Yeah, alright? you definitely got me on that one,? she said as she
started to walk again.  

They walked in companionable silence for a while until Buffy asked,
?Where do you think Anya went??

That was the one thing that had Xander worried just a little. ?I don?t
know. I just hope she hasn?t found a way to get her powers back,? he
said.

?Yeah,? Buffy agreed.

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