FIC: Insomnia

["hd_genscher <HD.Genscher@xxxxxx>" <HD.Genscher@xxxxxx>]

TITLE: Insomnia
AUTHOR: HD_Genscher (hd.genscher@xxxxxx)
RATING: PG-13
PAIRING: B/W
DISCLAIMER: All characters and places belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant
Enemy, et al.
ARCHIVE: HD's Fan Fiction Archive (http://www.u34.de/hdffa/). If you
want it too: take it!
FEEDBACK: Please.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This fic is based on the idea of using as many episode
titles as possible in a consistent story. I don't know if that has
been done before, but I kinda liked the idea. 
How many episode titles can you find, and which isn't from BtVS?
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I can't sleep. Outside, the not so New Moon Rising above the horizon,
and shining into our dorm room, is just bright enough to make me toss
and turn Restless-ly in my bed. You, on the other hand, are sound
asleep in the bed next to mine. In a couple of hours, The Harsh Light
Of Day will put an end to the night (and I hope some incautious vamp
will be Killed By Death due to exposition to it), but I'll probably
still be contemplating the same question over and over: Who Are You in
love with? 

Now that you're sleeping, there's a couple of Revelations I can make
to you safely. 
I must have been Out Of My Mind to sleep with Parker, really. I never
thought he would Lie To Me about his feelings, but he did. 
I've learned my lesson: there won't be A New Man in my life, ever
again. I finally found the 'Real Me,' my true self. I'm not interested
in boys anymore. They're all Out Of Mind, Out Of Sight now.
Of course, there was Angel. He'll always be my first, the one I lost
my Innocence to, but our love was Doomed. I still have Nightmares when
thinking about the time When (S)he Was Bad. I felt that we were
Becoming strangers to one another after he returned from hell, and
finally I just said, "I Will Remember You" to him on our Graduation
Day, after the mayor was defeated. Without any word, he turned around
and was Gone.
Looking back, my love life so far is best described as 'Beauty And The
Beasts,' don't you think? 

It might be a Surprise for you, but I'm Helpless-ly in love with you.
Yes, it's true, I'm gay. Considering in retrospect, it didn't take a
Prophecy Girl to realize that, to know that I Was Made To Love You.
With you by my side, The Weight Of The World -- being the Slayer and
all -- is that much easier to endure. Plus, you're a really powerful
Witch, helping me to defeat all the Dead Things, demoniacal Enemies
and Big Villains from the Hellmouth.

This isn't just one of my Phases. You aren't just a boyfriend
Replacement - never will be. I may have made stupid Choices in the
past, but I'm certain this isn't one of them.
I know that it's more than just a Crush. I felt it All The Way, but it
wasn't until now that I admitted to myself that I Only Have Eyes For
You, since quite some time.
In fact, it happened As You Were sitting on that bench at the fountain
quad, and I was Seeing 'Red' (as Faith would say) for the first time.
Only after making friends with you did I really feel Welcome To The
Hellmouth.
Subconsciously, I always hoped you would take The Initiative, ever
since we met Vampire Willow, your gay alter ego from
Doppelgängland.

We might be facing a Tough Love, with the coming-out and all, but
together we'll go All The Way. People might say we're Bad Girls, or
other nasty things. Our Living Conditions might seem as if Hell's
Bells are ringing sometimes, but I'm willing to bear the Consequences
of being in love with a girl.

When we're Older And Far Away, when all of our lives' Shadows have
been replaced by bright sunlight, I can see me whispering into your
ear -- in Hush-ed tones -- how sexy your Body is.
We'll go Into The Woods hand in hand, you'll be wearing Something Blue
underneath, and we will show the world Where The Wild Things Are,
playing 'I Robot, You Jane.' Afterwards, we'll do it Once More, With
Feeling, if more Passion is possible at all. Or you'll tie me up like
an Inca Mummy Girl, and we'll try out that new vibrator (the one whose
instructions say 'Some Assembly Required').

You know, I really Wish we'd become a little Family, and every time
I'd be Homecoming, I'll think to myself: 'there's No Place Like Home.'

Please don't think I'm a Fool For Love now. And don't say 'Go Fish,'
either. I would love to go for a (Lover's?) Walk with you tomorrow,
and the greatest Gift would be the fact that you love me too.

"Forever," I suddenly hear you say. 'Oh my God! How much have you
heard?' I wonder. Somehow I must've thought aloud... 
You get up - and I'm afraid you're going to leave. Believing I've
Wrecked our friendship, the only thing I manage to get out is "Willow,
I'm sorry." 
"Shh...don't be," you whisper. Instead of leaving, I feel you slipping
into my bed and snuggling up to me, making sure I'll never be
sleepless again.

THE END


Here's the solution to the title hunt...
20
19
18
17
16
15
14
13
12
11
10
9
8
7
6
5
4
3
2
1
...because it's all in the numbers.

The number of episode titles used is 69, counting 'All The Way' twice
since I used it twice.
'I Will Remember You' is from Angel, not BtVS.