Fic:: Realizations PG-13 Pt. 5-6/8 B/W

[Crazypnaigurl@xxxxxxx]

Disclaimer: See pts 1-3

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Part 5

"So what do you want to get. I am only limiting you to a few things so don't 
get excited."
"Actually… I made all that stuff up with you promising me to go shopping. I 
just wanted to talk to you."
"Okay, let me get this straight. You wake me up just so you can lie to me and 
to talk in a… umm… not so crowded mall when we could of talked about it at 
home?"
"Umm… yea?"
"Ok… while were here might as well talk. What do you want to talk about?"
"I just wanted to know what you think of what happened between Willow and her 
killing spree and all that. We haven't really talked about it that much."
"Well… she killed a human, who deserved it by the way, but it was because of 
what he did. She was happy and then the moment they just got back together, 
he took it away from her. To me, I think I would of done what Willow did all 
the same. Well… except for the skinning part 'cause that was just ewww."
"Then I guess you guys went through a lot together huh. I mean, that kinda 
happened between you and Angel didn't it. I mean… you were happy with him and 
when you guys shared a moment of happiness, Angel was gone and instead turned 
into Angelus which I got to say was not pretty."
"I guess your right"
"It's not that all different from what happened between her and you. Plus, 
didn't you feel just a bit of hurt when you found out about Riley and him 
letting vampires suck his blood. Didn't you feel betrayed? That's probably 
how Willow felt when she found out that Oz was cheating on her."
"Ya know what… you are totally right. I never knew that she went through 
almost the same thing I went though. Huh? Go figure."
"See, I told you someone almost went through as much crap as you did."
When Buffy heard what Dawn said, something struck her.
"Why did you say that?"
"Say what? I didn't say anything."

When they were walking through the mall, a lady popped out of no where and 
said to her…
"Did you realize it yet?"
After that… she disappeared again. 

This was starting to get out of hand. She knew that it only came in dreams 
but knowing that it isn't anymore gets her worried. It must be important. I 
better call Willow and ask her to come and help with some research. 

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Willow was about to leave the house when the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Willow? I need your help. Can you stay there for awhile so we can work 
together on some research?"
"Yea… of course I can."
"Okay, I'll be there in 10 minutes."

When Buffy got home, Willow was on her laptop doing something.
"Hey Will!"
"Hey Buffy! What do you want me to do?"
"Well, I have been having dreams and they seem to be prophetic and now they 
are not dreams anymore but also coming to life. Kind of like its evolving if 
I don't realize something."
"Realize what?"
"That's the thing I am trying to find out because I don't know what I am 
supposed to realize."
"Ok… let me just look through some sites and see if they have anything on 
manifesting dreams."
"Ill see if I can find some information on manifesting dreams."
"Ill go hit the books and see if I can find anything."

While Willow was researching on her laptop, Buffy couldn't help but notice 
how wonderful Willow smelt, how her left side profile made her look like 
heaven, and how her lips look luscious enough to just suck and nibble- 'Wait 
a minute… why am I thinking these thoughts? I don't think these things about 
my best friend' Buffy scolded herself. 'What is wrong with me?'

Buffy was so caught up thinking how good Willow looks and smells that she 
didn't hear her talking to her.

"BUFFY?!"
"Huh… Im sorry, what were you saying?"
"Must be some daydream huh?"
"Wha?.. Yea… I guess so. Did you find anything?"
"No… either this never happened before, or it did and no one seems to have 
had any information about it."
"Oh… I'll just go and see if I can look anything up myself. You cango if ya 
want. I don't really need anymore help."

Willow was more than a little hurt over that and she couldn't control what 
was about to come out of her mouth.

"Buffy… how can you say that, you know that I'll help you with anything. I 
can't believe you think that you are not able to let me help you or anything. 
I mean… I can see if you can never trust me again… but I have always been 
there for you and will always be no matter what. What made you realize that 
you can do this all by yourself and don't need my help? I was about to go to 
a very important class when you called me thinking 'oh, this must be serious 
because she needed me' 'cause God knows you don't need me anymore. Gosh 
Buffy, I- I… I don't know what to say anymore… maybe I should of stayed in 
England and should of never came back. I know I did a lot of things that 
messed everything up… but I have been trying so hard Buffy…its either I am 
not trying hard enough or you just don't want to do anything with me anymore. 
You have been so distant and I can't even talk to you anymore. I'm sorry but 
I have to go."

Willow picked up her things and practically ran out of the house with tears 
in her eyes. 

Buffy was shocked beyond her belief. She never knew Willow felt that way. 

"I need to go out for a walk."