'Changing the Future' (1/?) - G - Buffy/Willow

["Louise ." <iwantyourblood@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

Title: Changing the Future (1/?)
Author: Louise
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Rating: G
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Summary: Reply to a challenge set by Xenocide. Willow is sent back in time 
to change events to save Buffy from devastation.

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I let my tears fall freely as I hold her against my chest. I know that she 
is crying as well. Her gentle sobs tell only a fraction of what she feels 
inside.

I bow my head and watch the steady action of my hand as it caresses her 
golden hair. She has such beautiful hair. I take a few strands between my 
fingers and let them slide one by one over my skin and fall back against her 
head.

I can smell her shampoo. Mixing with her natural scent and filling my 
senses. It is intoxicating. She always smells so good, even after slaying.

My gaze travels down. Her hand clutches at my shirt even tighter, pulling 
the fabric just so I can feel the tension across my back.

It seems like she is holding on in fear of falling. But I would never let 
her fall. Never.

She is curled up beside me, the top half of her body in my lap. My other 
hand makes circular motions on her back, in an attempt to soothe the quakes 
that crash through her body as she cries.

The moisture on my cheeks start to collect at my chin and I wonder why 
exactly I am crying. But I already know the answer. When you are in love 
with someone that much you laugh when they laugh and you cry when they cry.

I want to say something to calm her but I have no idea what. What can I say? 
I can?t imagine what it would feel like to have to send your lover to Hell 
to save the world.

She loved Angel so much, just as I love her. But she doesn?t know how I 
feel. She can?t know. It would ruin our friendship. Our friendship is the 
most important thing to me. She is the most important thing to me.

I wish I could make her sadness go away. But I can?t. It?s not like I can 
turn back time...

Or can I?

^^^^

I can feel the power around me, it?s all around me. Surging through me. This 
is like nothing I have ever felt before. It?s even more powerful than the 
spell I did to restore Angel?s soul.

I failed at that, I wasn?t able to save him. Or Buffy, from her pain. But I 
know I can do this. I have to do this.

I close my eyes and focus on Buffy, the way she was before. The happy, 
vibrant Buffy. My head begins to feel light. I feel like I?m floating. Am I 
floating? I can?t tell, the power crackles around me and I can?t see 
anything.

I think back to the first time I met her. How countless emotions invaded my 
body and mind at once. How she looked at me, talked to me. I felt so good. 
That?s exactly where I want to be again.

My skin begins to give off a brilliant white light, seeping out from inside 
me. As it grows brighter, I open my eyes. It is all I can see. Suddenly, 
everything becomes clear. I know what I have to do.

^^^^

To Be Continued...

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