Re: FIC: Cold reunion 5/?

["bighotvirgo" <BHV@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

ahhh jeez! Don't make us wait too long to find out what happens.


--- In buffywantswillow@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx, "jend1205" <jend1205@y...> 
wrote:
> Ok guys Kim wrote the biggest part of this. This is her first thing 
> she has written and I think it turned out pretty good. So let her 
> know and maybe it will encourage her to get busy on her part of the 
> next part. I will forward them to her. Jen
> 
> Author Jen D and Kim
> Rating: NC-17- Rape, Violence
> Disclaimer: I own nothing. Believe me I have three boys, I own 
> nothing.
> Spoilers: Season 2
> 
> 
> Willow and Dawn walked around the park, both lost in the 
> revelations of the last few hours. Willow steered them to a bench 
> and sat down.
> 
> 
> 
> "Willow, why won't you tell us about this ritual that you have to do?"
> 
> 
> 
> Willow studied the young girl beside her before asking, "Well what do 
> you want to know?"
> 
> 
> 
> "Is it dangerous?"
> 
> 
> 
> "Could be, if I'm not powerful enough."
> 
> 
> 
> "What will happen then?", Dawn asked.
> 
> 
> 
> "Best case scenario, I lose my mind. Worst case, I die."
> 
> 
> 
> "So what does it do?"
> 
> 
> 
> "Short version, I go out to the woods and ask to borrow powers from a 
> god. If I'm lucky a higher-powered god will agree and seeing how this 
> is a god that was banished from hell, then I imagine it will be a 
> very powerful volunteer. The bad parts come if I can't handle that 
> power. If we're really lucky I can and then I can go after the bitch 
> and win. If not then well we pray that your sister can win."
> 
> 
> 
> Dawn looked at the red head beside her, "You know you can say her 
> name."
> 
> 
> 
> "Not yet, kid. I know that you're hoping that we can just forget the 
> past and we can be one a big happy family but so much has happened. I 
> never planned on staying here, I was coming in, helping and then 
> going back to my life."
> 
> 
> 
> "Your life with Faith?", Dawn asked bitterly.
> 
> 
> 
> "Yes, Dawn I know you don't understand that but it's who I am. But 
> today kind of put a damper on those plans, now I don't know what's 
> going to happen. Honestly Kid, I may not have to worry about it. I 
> might not even have a life to care about in a few days. If we win 
> then I think you and I need to talk about us and what we need to do."
> 
> 
> 
> "Why do you think the monks made me a teenager and made me Buffy's 
> sister? Why not just make me a baby and give me to her or you?"
> 
> 
> 
> "Well you said yourself that she is stuck between being a kid and an 
> adult, plus she's a slayer, do you think she would be a very good 
> mother?"
> 
> 
> 
> "What about you?" Dawn asked.
> 
> 
> 
> Willow couldn't help but laugh, "Kid Faith and I haven't spent more 
> then a few months in one place, I really don't think that would have 
> been a very good life for you. Besides would you really want to be 
> Faith's and mine's kid."
> 
> 
> 
> "Oh, well I didn't think about that, it might be kinda cool though. I 
> bet she's a lot of fun."
> 
> 
> 
> Willow face brightened a little and smirked, "More then you could 
> imagine."
> 
> 
> "Eww, parents aren't allowed to have sex."
> 
> 
> 
> "Is that what I am to you now, a mother?"
> 
> 
> 
> "I think, I thought a lot about things when we were walking and I 
> miss my mom a lot but I think she would be happy for me to finally 
> have someone I could trust and love like that. She liked you a lot. 
> She was so sad when you left. I think it was almost as bad as it was 
> when Buffy took off."
> 
> 
> 
> "Joyce was a very special woman. You were very lucky to have had her 
> in your life. If we get out of this alive maybe I can fill that void 
> in your life."
> 
> 
> 
> "We will, you have all my confidence."
> 
> 
> 
> "I hope so", Willow said looking into the pond.
> 
> 
> Willow was lost in thought, staring with cold, dull eyes into the 
> rippling water. Taking in all of the implications and complications 
> of her life since she arrived in Sunnydale. She wasn't sure that she 
> could be a role model for 
> Dawn. She didn't have the warmth inside her any longer to give or 
> receive unconditional love. And she was sure that Dawn was just the 
> type of girl who would give her heart and soul without question to 
> have another parental figure in her life to fill the painful void 
> left after Joyce's death. And could she really join with Buffy to 
> give that support and structure to Dawn? It was a bittersweet thought 
> and as her face contorted with anger and emotion, Dawn brought the 
> watcher out of her reverie.
> 
> "You're thinking about Buffy aren't you?"
> 
> "Huh, what?"
> 
> "Buffy? Slayer of vampires? Big sister of me?"
> 
> "Uh, yeah....just a little though," the watcher replied guiltily.
> 
> "Why do you hate her? I mean, I know you went through some terrible 
> stuff, but I don't know how anyone can think that it's Buffy's fault."
> 
> "I wouldn't exactly say that everything is her fault. It was my 
> parent's fault for the most part. They abandoned me, like they always 
> did. But what really tore my heart out is that your sister never 
> tried to find me. I was hurting terribly and I was waiting for a 
> savior. Waiting for Buffy to rescue me from hell like she always did. 
> Dawn, I spent two years of my very young life fighting demons and 
> vamps beside your sister. We shared everything..our fears and 
> secrets. I thought she knew me better than I knew myself."
> 
> "Even better than Xander?" asked Dawn.
> 
> "Even better than Xander. I find it hard to believe that Buffy would 
> honestly think that I left Sunnydale on my own accord, that I would 
> leave forever and not try to contact anyone. I'm a computer hacker 
> for Christ sake. Even if I was away at a private school forbidden to 
> make contact with the scoobies, she should have known that I of all 
> people would have found a way. There are two scenarios but they both 
> have the same outcome. Buffy hurt me in a way that no one else could."
> 
> "Scenarios? I don't get it."
> 
> "Well, the first scenario is that Buffy thought so little of me and 
> our friendship that she thought I could just walk away from all of 
> that without a second thought. That I was so wrapped up in myself 
> that I would abandon my friends, that I didn't care enough to stay. 
> If that's the case then the time we spent together meant nothing to 
> her, she didn't know me at all because I would never do that."
> 
> "I believe that. What's the second?"
> 
> Willow was now choking back tears. She shuddered and after mentally 
> berating herself for such a careless show of emotion and turned her 
> body slightly to avoid eye contact with Dawn.
> 
> "The second scenario is that Buffy knew I was in trouble and didn't 
> care. That she knew I wasn't safe or happy, and she just left me 
> there to cavort around with Angel or whoever else that wasn't some 
> shy bookworm geek always holding her back."
> 
> "I don't think Buffy would do that to you, I know she gets wrapped up 
> in herself, but she couldn't turn her back on you if she knew for one 
> minute that you were in trouble."
> 
> "I'd like to believe that, but my heart doesn't listen to logic much 
> anymore. Believing in other people ended when my family left me in 
> that place."
> 
> "But I'm your family now," said Dawn as she grabbed a speechless 
> Willow into a tight embrace.
> 
> A rustling of the bushes just behind the park bench brought the girls 
> back into their surroundings. A dark haired slayer and a leather clad 
> blonde slayer emerged from behind,
> 
> "Faith, take Dawn to the Magic Box to sit with Tara. Willow and I 
> need to talk"