FIC : "Of Stakes & Spells" 5/? [W/B]

["satanslilangl" <satanslilangl@xxxxxxxxx>]

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(Author's Note: I hope you guys don't mind that it took me so long to 
update. If you've been reading my other FanFic [Hope's Drowning], 
then you know that I had fallen WAY behind in my school work, and my 
marks had dropped. Now, I have a bit of free time, so I thought I'd 
write the next chapter for Of Stakes And Spells [Since I'm still 
waiting for more votes for the survey on my other FanFic {READ AND 
VOTE!} to come it]. HOPE YOU LIKE IT!}

= = = {*LOVE (no matter how you spell it)*} = = = 

Willow still looked shocked, even as Buffy continued to laugh.

"Come on Will, I was just joking!" Buffy put a comforting hand on 
the her leg, still cracking up. Willow sighed, happy to hear that it 
was only a joke, though she was still slightly dazed. 

"Goddess, that scared me . . ." Willow forced out a laugh, "I was 
worried you were serious!" Willow put a hand to her head, trying to 
calm down. 

"Wills? You okay?" the Slayer asked sounding concerned, all traces 
of laughter gone. "You look Shaken."

"Yeah, just the idea of YOU and FAITH . . ." Willow took a deep 
breath, and put a hand over the one Buffy rested on her leg. "Ugh! 
Just gives me the Wiggins is all."

"I take you don't like the idea of me kissing her?" Buffy said 
sympathetically. The Slayer could understand why Willow didn't like 
Faith. The Dark-Slayer had been exceptionally cruel to the young 
Witch. 

"Ugh!" Willow said, looking physically ill at the thought of 
it, "it's just WRONG!"

Buffy stopped. She hadn't expected that response from Willow. She 
herself had dated a Werewolf, she had supported Buffy al through her 
Vampire-Courtship. Not to mention the fact that Xander was now 
dating a former Vengeance Demon (who was now nothing more then an 
annoying pain in the ear)! Buffy had thought that Willow would have 
no problem with the idea of a Same-Sex relationship.

"What's so 'WRONG' about it?" Buffy was shocked, but kept it in, 
wanting to hear Willow's explanation.

"BUFFY!" Willow exclaimed, sounding shocked "It's Faith! She's 
a . . ." Willow got up off the bed and walked to the door. Leaning 
against it she continued. "How can you even say that?!" Willow 
wrapped her arms around her stomach, trying to comfort herself. 

"I had no idea you felt like that." She couldn't keep the slightly 
sour look off her face. Buffy swung her legs over the side of the 
bed, resting them of the floor. The Slayer couldn't look at her 
friend. Just a little while ago she'd realized that she was in love 
with this girl, and her she was saying that it was 'WRONG', and that 
her saying it wasn't even funny. "I don't really know what to say." 
Buffy looked at the floor, trying to think of a reason why people 
would want to fall in love if it hurt this much.

"Well, you said it was a joke right?" Willow said franticly, "You 
never really . . . I mean-"

"I did." Buffy whispered. Willow's heart began to hammer.

" 'Did' What?" the Witch asked breathlessly.

"Kiss her." Buffy hung her head lower, knowing she couldn't lie to 
her best friend. 

"What?" Willow whispered. Her heart had stopped, and her world had 
just collapsed. Buffy had kissed a girl, and it wasn't her. {and 
Faith could not be more different them me . . .} Willow thought 
sadly. {What if this is another Xander situation? Like, what if 
Buffy knows how I feel and she just doesn't care?} Once again Faith 
had gotten something that Willow had desperately wanted. 

The Witch had been heart broken when she'd herd about Xander's night 
with the Dark-Slayer, but now it felt as though she had no heart at 
all. 

"I kissed her once" Buffy got up, but kept her eyes on the ground.

"You . . . You . . . You KISSED her?!" Willow was shaking now, 
almost giving into tears. 

"This was a side of you I didn't expect." Buffy walked over to her 
desk and started fidgeting with the things on it. 

"What do you mean?" Willow finally noticed the almost offended tone 
in Buffy voice.

"I just had no idea that you felt like this."

"I think I have the right to feel this way when you just DROP 
something like this on me! Most people in the world would agree 
with me when I say it's disgusting!" Buffy finally looked at 
Willow, an appalled look on her face. Buffy grabbed her toiletries 
and bathrobe. She walked past Willow, who was still leaning against 
the door, and grabbed the knob. 

"I had no idea you where so Homophobic." Buffy whispered, sounding 
genuinely disappointed in her friend. She opened the door and began 
to walk through it.

{WHAT?!} Willow thought, totally shocked. Then it suddenly clicked. 
{Oh No!} Willow grabbed Buffy's sleeve and pulled her back into the 
room. The Slayer looked stunned.

"You think I'm homophobic?" Willow asked, sounding caught between 
laughter and out-rage.

"Willow," Buffy started, "What you just said-"

"Buffy, I wasn't being homophobic-"

"Really?! 'Cause it sounded that way to me!" Buffy yelled. The 
Slayer was becoming very frustrated. In one morning she realizes 
that not only is she in love with her best friend (who was a girl), 
but also that the same person thought that love between two people of 
the same sex was disgusting.

"Buffy, I'm NOT being homophobic! I was just-"

"I don't get it!" Buffy yelled, once again interrupting the 
Witch, "Your mom was so liberal about so many things, and yet somehow 
she raised a closed minded little girl!" Willow was shocked; she had 
no idea that the Slayer felt so strongly for Gays, Bis, and 
lesbians. "Oh sure, you have no problem with people dating demons 
or deadly monsters but when it comes to two humans in love it 'JUST 
WRONG'!" There was so much Ice in Buffy's tone it made Willow freeze 
before she defended herself.

"Buffy." Willow stated slowly, Resolve-Face set, "I am not 
Homophobic. I was ONLY talking about the idea of YOU and FAITH. I 
have nothing against gay people." Part of Buffy's mind believed 
that she was telling the truth, but the rest of it was still in Fight-
Or-Flight mode. "Trust me when I say this." Willow smiled softly, 
taking Buffy's hand, running her thumb over the Slayer's softly.

"Oh." Buffy glanced down at their joined hands. She once again felt 
the heat that seemed to envelope her every time they'd touched 
recently. She slowly raised her eyes back up to Willow's. 

Willow was near panicking. She had just admitted that she was 
Bisexual, and to Buffy of all people! She'd never told anyone before, 
not even Xander. She was breathing heavily, and her pulse was 
racing. Willow was about to faint due to lack of oxygen flow to the 
brain.

"Willow . . ." Buffy whispered, almost reverently. The Slayer 
walked forward until there was only an inch between them. She 
raised her free hand and lightly held the Witch's face, the skin 
feeling like warm rose petals under her fingers. Willow closed here 
eyes and sighed, her body lavished in the essence of Buffy. The 
Slayer leaned forward, enjoying that familiar Cheery-Cranberry smell 
that seemed to derive from her friend. 

Buffy lightly touched the tips of their noses, her acute Slayer 
Senses overwhelmed with all things Willow. She softly teased the 
red-head with the light touches, enjoying the way they made the girl 
shiver and gasp silently. Buffy moved her hand back to cradle the 
head, readying to kiss the Witch. {She's gonna kiss me!} Willow 
thought excitedly, {She's finally going to kiss me!}

But nothing came. 

Willow opened her eyes to see that Buffy had moved back away from 
her, a worried look on the Slayer's face. She dropped Willow's 
hand and looked away. Buffy nervously ran a hand through her hair, 
and picked up her dropped bathroom stuff.

"Buffy?" Willow whispered, scared that she had done something 
wrong. "What's wrong?"

"No, Will," Buffy put her stuff back down and quickly hugged her 
friend. "It's not you, okay? It's not your fault, alright?" she 
whispered into her friend's ear. She quickly had to pull away, the 
feeling of their two bodies together was too much for her already 
overloaded senses. "It's just . . ."

"You don't like me like that?" Willow guessed, having had it said to 
her before, countless times.

"No, Wills, that's not it." Buffy laughed quietly. "In fact you're 
the only woman I've ever felt this way about . . ." Buffy when back 
to gathering up her toiletries, so she missed the HUGE grin on the 
Willow's face. "It's just the wrong time." The grin left as quickly 
as it had arrived.

"What do you mean?"

"Now's just not the right time." Buffy stood back up, shower-gear in 
hand. "I just had two really bad break-ups. And, Will . . ." She 
gave Willow's hand a quick squeeze, "You and I just spent the night 
grieving over the fact that Oz left. You need time to heal, and I 
need to be the best friend. Changing the metaphorical bandages and 
that type of thing." She looked down at the floor.

"But Buffy," Willow whispered, worried she had lost her chance with 
the Slayer, "You can help me heal by being with me?" the witch 
whispered in her little-girl voice. 

"No, Willow. I don't want to be a Band-Aid, use once then thrown 
away. If that means I have to wait, then so be it." She walked to 
the door with her bathroom stuff in hand, and opened it. "You're 
worth waiting for." Willow gave a winning smile, happy just knowing 
that there'd be a chance for them later. "I'll see you Psych, 
okay?" 

"Okay." She closed the door behind her, as a much happier Willow 
then the night before flopped down on then bed.


{Author's Note: REVIEW! TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!}

(PS: I know I promised smoochies, but I realized that kisses would 
work out better later. Plus, sorry about the fact that I suck at 
writing all the romantic stuff . . .)

~VixenRaign~