Life is Short (revamped) Part 5b/7

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Part 5b

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"Ok, that was...weird..." Xander said, sounding confused.

"She looked really mad..." Willow said, a cold feeling still rolling
around in her stomach. 'Why would she...'

Willow turned to look at Giles. 'How come he's still over there...'
That feeling of cold in her stomach suddenly spread out, running up her
back. "If you hurt her..." she growled.

"Uh Will? What's wrong with you now?" Xander's surprised voice faded
into the background as she strode over to the Watcher. 

'Won't look me in the eye, huh? You did something!' Willow fumed
mentally.

Stepping right in front of Giles, Willow put her hands on her hips and
looked up at him. "What did you do to her!" she demanded angrily.

"I... nothing... it's nothing..." Giles stuttered, avoiding the redheads
gaze.

"Look at me!" Willow snapped. Upon receiving the watchers shocked
attention, she continued, "Tell me what you said to her!"

At this point Willow felt Xander at her back, but he remained silent.
'Thank you Xander!' she thought, feeling a momentary warmth that her
friend was backing her up.

"What goes on between a Watcher and his Slayer is really none of your
concern, Ms. Rosenberg." Giles said stuffily.

'Why you!' Willow felt her jaw sag open and she sputtered in outrage
for a moment. "What happens between you and my girlfriend is
*completely* my business! Especially when whatever it is makes her
upset like that!" she loudly exclaimed.

Giles sighed loudly and said, "I only warned her of the dangers of
becoming emotionally entangled. The Slayer cannot afford the luxury of
such a relationship."

Willow dropped her hands from her hips and crossed them in front of her.

"Uh, emotional entanglements?" Xander asked, his voice sounding
confused.

"Me." Willow explained. 'Not gonna cry... not in front of them...
course I might scream!' Willow's thoughts and emotions churned as her
lips quivered.

"You?" Xander asked, still apparently unclear.

"He told her she can't see me any more..." Willow said, the pain clear
in her voice.

Just then a series of hollow metallic booms, coming from outside, grew
loud enough to divert everyone's attention.

"Buffy?" Willow worried suddenly. Immediately forgetting the Watcher,
Willow ran for the front door. 

There was a momentary silence, and then a loud metallic crashing sound
as something apparently struck the building they were in. 

"Oh God! Buffy!?" Willow shouted, instantly fearing the worst.

Just before she reached the front door, it flew open and the object of
her desire and concern came rushing in.

"Willow! What is it!?" Buffy exclaimed, sounding alarmed.

Willow skidded to a stop right in front of her girlfriend, suddenly
feeling foolish. "Oh, I... uh I heard... and I thought you..." she
mumbled, looking down in embarrassment.

"Oh!" Buffy responded. "I, uh..."

Willow's eyes widened as she noticed the Slayer's hands were bloody.
"Oh Buffy! Your hands!" she exclaimed, reaching gently to take them in
her own.

Buffy pulled her hands away quickly, moving them around behind her back,
stuttering, "Oh, I... it's nothing..."

Willow looked up at the blonde's face in confusion. "Nothing? Buffy,
you're hurt! It's not nothing!"

Buffy just dropped her eyes and turned her head away.

'You look like a little kid who got caught doing something wrong... But
what?' Willow wondered as she considered her girlfriend. "Come on," she
said, grasping the Slayer's shoulder and leading her toward the women's
restroom.

"Uh, where are we going?" Buffy asked, her voice reflecting Willow's
line of thought as she was led away.

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Willow didn't say anything until they reached the restroom. Leading
Buffy to one of the sinks, the redhead released her and started the
faucet running. 

'Oh no... she really looks pissed!' Buffy thought fearfully. 'Oh please
don't be angry with me Willow! I couldn't take it right now...'

"Willow? Are you mad at me?" she asked, her voice high and filled with
trepidation.

Willow looked up from the sink, meeting Buffy's eyes in the mirror.

Before the redhead could respond, Buffy's inner fears rose to a head,
and she began to nervously babble, "Cause, I know I shouldn't have
thrown a temper tantrum like that... I mean, it was silly and, and
juvenile and... he just made me so mad! And, I know I should have just
dealt with it, but I was kinda worked up from the slaying and sometimes
it's hard to turn off the whole fight-mode, and of course I couldn't hit
him, even though I kinda wanted to, and so I didn't want you guys to see
me lose it, so I..."

Buffy's rambling died away as Willow turned and brought her fingers up
to Buffy's lips, shushing the blonde. "Shh. Buffy, I'm not mad at
you," she said with a sincere smile. "I was just worried!"

Feeling Willow's fingers trail over her lips to cup her cheek, Buffy's
eyes fluttered shut and she let out a shuddering sigh. The tightness in
her chest loosened a bit and she pressed her face against Willow's hand,
whispering, "Oh, sorry..."

Buffy had to suppress a whimper when Willow pulled her hand away. She
opened her eyes and watched with rapt attention as the redhead took one
of her arms by the wrist and moved her hand toward the sink.

Willow cupped her free hand under the stream of warm water and gently
poured it over Buffy's scraped knuckles. Buffy couldn't quite bite back
the moan that escaped her lips at both the feel and the sight of the
redhead's careful attention. 

"Sorry," Willow winced.

'Oh my God! You're killing me Willow!' Buffy screamed mentally, her
body suddenly buzzing with arousal while her heart ached with tender
adoration. 'You are so... so... wonderful!' she thought as a single
tear escaped her welling eyes.

Willow didn't look up; she just continued to carefully and gently wash
the grime and dried blood from the Slayer's right hand. "So much power,
such little hands, so lovely..." she whispered so quietly that only
Buffy's augmented senses allowed her to hear it at all.

By the time the redhead finished her task and gently patted Buffy's
hands dry with a paper towel, the Slayer's face was wet with silent
tears. 'I love you!' Buffy's mind exulted. 'Too fast, too soon, but,
so *so* true! Oh, how can I love you so much?'

Willow's gentle smile fell away when she looked up at the Slayer's
tearstained face. "Buffy?" she asked, sounding deeply concerned.

"What did I ever do?" Buffy choked out, on the verge of sobbing. "How
did I ever deserve you?"

The fear that had momentarily bloomed in Willow's countenance dissolved
into an embarrassed smile. She looked away and tossed the used towels
into the trash. 

"I- I..." Willow stammered for a moment before meeting the Slayer's gaze
once again. "Buffy, you saved the world!" She once again looked away
and her insecurity was evident as she dropped her voice to a quiet
whisper, "You deserve way better than me!"

'No, no, no, no, no, no!' Buffy's mind spun at Willow's self-doubt. She
cupped the redhead's face in both hands and pressed a gentle, emotional
kiss upon her lips. When she pulled away a few moments later, she
stared into her girlfriend's wide, slightly crossed eyes and forcefully
whispered, "There *is* no such thing!"

Buffy could almost see Willow's mind working out her meaning for several
seconds before she got it. When she did, the smile that graced her face
was radiant.

'Oh God! If I kiss you right now, I don't think I'll be able to stop!'
Buffy thought, feeling powerful desire coursing through her veins. She
took Willow's hand in hers and pulled her toward the door. "Come on!
Lets get out of here before Xander comes looking for a free show!"

Willow laughed and followed closely behind.

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"Thank God!" Xander said with overdramatic relief in his voice as Buffy
and Willow exited the ladies-room at the Bronze. 

Buffy looked at Willow only to see her confusion mirrored on the
redhead's face.

"I thought something might have happened... I was just about to go in
there and make sure you were ok!" Xander went on to explain.

'Oh yeah, I bet!' Buffy thought, laughing as she remembered her comment
to Willow about the 'free show'.

Willow obviously remembered as well, because she also burst into
laughter.

Buffy's laughter only increased as she turned and saw Xander's face
tighten in confusion. 'We are going to have so much fun teasing you
Xander!' she thought.

The laughter died as she remembered why she was there in the first
place. She began to look around, searching for the source of her ire.

"Don't worry, Buff!" Xander said. "Bad Watcher-man took off pretty
much as soon as you and Will went in there.

"Did he say anything?" Willow asked in a voice that was at once both
irritated and apprehensive.

"Only that he wanted to see Buffy in the library tomorrow... I believe
his exact words were, 'Please ask Ms. Summers if she would do me the
courtesy of joining me in the school library sometime when it's
convenient for her tomorrow.'" Xander reiterated, using a bad English
accent when quoting Giles. "Boy, does that guy use way to many words,
or what!"

When she felt Willow give her hand a squeeze, Buffy looked at her and
saw concern in her eyes. 'Sorry Will' she thought, realizing that she
was glowering. She deliberately put a grin on her face and said, "Let's
forget Mr. Needs-to-mind-his-own-business for tonight, 'K?"

"Absolutely!" Willow said with quiet passion.

"I'm down with that!" Xander said more animatedly. "So, whaddawe do
now? I'm not really up on post-almost-apocalyptic celebration
etiquette..."

"Well..." Buffy began. "I'm supposed to introduce you guys to my mom?"
'Not sure that counts as a celebration...'

"Whoa, Buffy! Slow down the party train!" Xander said with a laugh.

"Xander!" Willow huffed.

'My defender,' Buffy thought with a genuine smile at Willow's protective
posture. "S'ok Will," she said, giving her girlfriend a squeeze. She
began to walk towards the exit as she explained, "Well, I had to promise
my mom I'd introduce you guys before she'd let me leave to come here and
stop the world from ending."

"Well, it's good to know that your mom's got her priorities in order!"
Xander said, moving ahead of the two girls to open the door.

"Well, it's not like she knew about the 'end of the world' part." Buffy
explained as she led Willow through the door.

"Holy shamoly!" Xander shouted suddenly.

"What?" Willow asked as she jumped at his shout.

"That!" he answered, pointing to the left.

'Oh... darn,' Buffy thought as she looked at Xander and noticed where he
was looking.

"Oh my God! Buffy?!" Willow gasped when she saw what he was pointing
toward.

Buffy slowly looked up toward the object of their attention. 'I really
should have thrown that down the alley or something...' she thought,
embarrassed by the evidence of her tantrum.

Lying at the base of the Bronze's wall was a crumpled mass of metal. If
you didn't know what it was, it would have been difficult to identify.
Upon further examination, you'd probably notice the large castor wheels.
An even closer look and you might be able to make out the 'Sunnydale
Sanitation' sticker, though it was distorted and out of shape due to the
crumpled sheet steel to which it was attached.

"Uh... Oops?" Buffy offered embarrassedly after a moment's
uncomfortable silence.

Willow's voice was stupefied as she squeaked, "You slayed a dumpster?"

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Willow sat down at her desk, still bouncing with energy after being
walked home by her girlfriend. 'Gosh, I haven't made a journal entry in
days!' she thought as she booted up her laptop. 'Good thing I keep it
encrypted... mom or dad would definitely put me in an institution if
they ever read about the yesterday and today!'

As she opened her journal file and was prompted for a password, she
suddenly felt hot with embarrassment. "Oh gosh, I'm gonna have to
change that!" she muttered as she typed 'ilovexander'.

'Ok, so I'm a hopeless nerd,' she thought, blushing even harder as she
entered the new password: 'ilovebuffy'

Thursday February 5, 1998:

Gosh, I feel like I'm not even the same person who made the last entry!
I'm not sure where to begin. Everything changed yesterday. I guess
I'll start with the biggest change, for me anyway... I finally found a
cure for my complete obsession with Xander Harris! That's right I
actually met someone! Oh, and I had my first Kiss!! It was only last
night, but I've already had like my second through my hundredth kiss
since then! 

Her name is Buffy Summers!

Yep that's big change number two; she's a girl. Well, that's not a
change, she's always been a girl as far as I know, but it's a change
that I'm liking a girl like that, cause I never have before, at least
not that I ever noticed. I think I would have. 



She's so amazing! She's really, really beautiful. I can't believe that
she'd want anything to do with me! Cordelia was already all like, "You
should hang out with me and my friends" and Buffy totally blew her off
to spend time with ME! That was before she even knew anything about me!


Xander so has the hots for her, but I put him in his place! She's mine
and he's not allowed to touch! Speaking of Xander, he was so cool about
it! I was afraid he'd wig out, but he was all 'I'm glad for you Will!'
so I know it's gonna be ok. I really do love that boy, even if he was
always too stupid to notice. Now it's too late for him even if he did
notice.

I hope Jesse is as cool about it, but he ditched school again today, so
he doesn't know yet.

I'm not gay. Ok that was kinda abrupt and all, but I'm not. Not that
there's anything wrong with someone who is or anything, I'm just not. I
still think boys are nice and all, and I have to admit that I still
kinda get a little fluttery in my tummy when Xander smiles at me, but
that's nothing like what I feel with Buffy!

I'm *so* in love with Buffy Summers!

Gosh, I think I blushed just typing that. It's so soon, too soon. I
can't tell her cause she'd freak for sure! I mean I know she likes me-
yeah, hard to believe, but when she kisses me... definitely much liking
there! Last night she didn't want to come in and I kinda started to
wig, cause, you know; it's like it was a dream, and here I was about to
wake up and find out it wasn't real, but she pushed me up against the
door and kissed me... and then she told me that she couldn't come in
cause she was afraid she would... like lose control. She wants me!
Like, in a naughty-touching kind of way!

When she said that, and I looked in her eyes...

I think I ruined those underwear. 

I am so blushing right now! I never ever felt like that before! Even
though I didn't want her to leave, I was kinda relieved she did, cause I
had to take a shower! I didn't even know you could get like that... I
mean sometimes when Xander would hug me... I felt something, you know...
down there. But this was... God! It's so embarrassing. It was wet! I
mean really, really wet and... I can't even write it here!

Suffice it to say, Buffy has an affect on me that's way more than I ever
felt about anyone else before.

But, that's just physical. I know love is more than that, but I feel
way more than that too! I can't stop thinking about her, and my heart
feels like it's gonna bust open cause it's so full! But, not in an icky
blood and gory kind of way. I mean in a metaphorical way. 

Just want to clear that up.

So anyway, I'm totally in love with this girl, but I can't tell her yet
cause it's way too soon and I don't want to freak her out, cause loosing
her would... I can't even...

New subject! 

So, big change number four; Buffy's a Vampire Slayer.

I guess that should be number five, cause 'Vampires are real' kinda
deserves it's own number. Yes, I know. I didn't believe in vampires
either, cause, who would? But I saw one! In fact, I almost got killed
by one last night, and then there were a whole bunch tonight, but I'll
get to that. 

So, vampires are real, and Buffy is the one girl in all the world who is
chosen to fight them! Which, I guess isn't really so much fun for her,
but it's so cool at the same time! Buffy kicks butt! She totally
dusted this vampire named Thomas that tried to kill me last night. Oh,
dusted is what happens when they die- they just go poof! And all that's
left is a pile of dust! 

I couldn't believe it when I saw it- one minute he's there... Oh, and
their faces go all grr and ugly with ridgy foreheads and fangs and
stuff! It's so gross!

Anyway, he's there, all grr- and then Buffy breaks this board all apart
with her bare hands and stabs it in the heart with this big pointy piece
and poof!

So then tonight, a whole bunch of vampires took over the Bronze! It was
this thing called the Harvest. There's this really powerful vampire
called the master, and he's stuck underground by some kind of mystical
energy thing, and this other vampire called the vessel was supposed to
go kill a bunch of people and suck their blood, and the energy somehow
would go to this master guy. Like harvesting souls I guess. Anyway, he
killed the bouncer at the bronze! I didn't see it, but I saw the body
after... that poor guy. I'd never seen a dead body like that before-
like not all made up and in a casket. Just dead, sprawled out like a
doll someone had thrown away.

I hate vampires!

But anyway, Buffy totally kicked these vampire's butts! Oh! And I
helped! This skanky blond vampire girl jumped on Giles- he's Buffy's
Watcher, which is like her boss, sort of- anyway she was totally all
over him and I dumped a jar of holy water on her! She screamed and ran!
I totally kicked her butt! Yay me! Of course I was completely
terrified too... but still!

Then after the rest of the vampires ran away, and all the people were
gone and it was just me and Xander and Giles and Buffy, and I was kinda
dazed and I said, "Did we win?" and Buffy just pulled me up against her
and kissed me! Right in front of Xander and Giles! I was so lost that
I didn't even get embarrassed. It wasn't a little kiss either, it was
so hot I thought I was gonna melt right there! 

Then, of course after, I got all embarrassed cause Xander was all
smirking at me. He knew, even though I didn't tell him yet. He figured
out Buffy was interested in me before I did. How he can be so observant
to figure that out, but never... oh well. That doesn't matter any more
anyway.

So, everything is going so good, and then Giles goes and spoils it. He
doesn't approve of me and Buffy. He said she can't afford to be
"emotionally entangled". Meany Watcher man! Anyway, Buffy got really
mad, even though she didn't show it, she walked outside and took it out
on a dumpster! She totally smashed a big steel dumpster like it was a
milk carton, it was completely flat! Oh, and her hands were all banged
up when she came back inside. I took her into the bathroom and washed
them, and she was so sweet! She was worried that I'd be mad or
something and she said she didn't deserve me, and I was like, she's a
superhero! She deserves way better than me, and she said there was no
such thing!

God, I'm crying right now just remembering it! How could I not love
her?

Xander kinda freaked out a little about the dumpster. He'll get over it
though. Just like I told Buffy; he's a guy, she's a hot, sexy chick.
Oh yeah, he'll get over it! Of course, I couldn't stop blushing when I
said she was a sexy chick... but I got more smoochies right after!

I'm definitely addicted to Buffysmoochies!

Then we met her mom, and that was a little uncomfortable. I mean, she
was super nice, and she even made hot cocoa! It's just... I think she
caught me staring at Buffy. I really tried to be cool and stuff, but...
I just couldn't help myself! She is so, so beautiful! Anyway, I
noticed I was staring, and when I looked the other way, I caught her mom
giving me a weird look.

I told Buffy, but she said I shouldn't worry about it. I don't know
though... I don't want to get her in trouble with her mom! I'd feel
terrible!

We walked Xander home, which he laughed about. He said it was very
gentlemanly of Buffy to walk us home, but he stopped laughing when I
pointed out that, if Buffy was the gentleman, that made him the lady.

He didn't think that was as funny as Buffy and I did.

When we dropped him off, I could tell he wasn't really happy to be home.
I could hear his parent's fighting, like they always do. They're really
not bad people, except when they're drinking. Anyway, he said something
about trying to call Jesse again, I hope he does. Xander's really
worried about him, and I kinda am too, cause even though he's done this
before, usually he's just at home, or at the arcade, and Xander couldn't
find him either place. Normally it'd be like no big deal, but with the
whole vampire thing... I don't even want to think about that.

So Buffy walked me home and I think there's something about my front
door, cause she did it again tonight. Not that I minded! By the time
we were done kissing, I couldn't think straight! I've got to figure out
something though, I was all... well, messy again- even worse this time!
Plus, when she told me she couldn't come in cause she really, really
wouldn't be able to keep her hands off of me? I almost said 'Ok!'
That's what I was thinking, which is the same thing I've been thinking
pretty much since she put her fist through the wall and made Cordelia
pee her pants! 

Ok, so that's the last two days all caught up, I think I'm going to go
to bed now.

I hope I have more sexy Buffy dreams!

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