Fic: Let the Games Begin 2/4

[Crys Loch <pagansoul@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

You set off gaydar, Buffy. Willow happily informed her shocked friend. 
Many times Ive been asked by members of the lesbian crowd if youre 
gay. You confuse a little, but you definitely register blips. That and I 
just kinda suspected. So, a hearty congrats and no freak here.

Blips? So when do I get gaydar? Of course, I may not get it since the 
big word here is KINDA gay. I still like guys, only with my luck, gods 
know why. It felt good to finally tell someone, Buffy thought.

Well, you should get the standard issue anyway. And the term would be BI.

Wills, I like labels as much as I like guys at the moment. So well 
stick with kinda gay. Buffy was all grins and turned back to look at 
the ceiling. The first was done. Beginning was the hardest part, right?

Alright, I like it. So, whats next? Willow was starting to relax now.

Ah, next? Well, next would be that I like being the Slayer. And let me 
finish before you say thats a good, because I finally had to admit that 
I like the whole Slayer bit. The fighting, hitting and getting hit. The 
staking. The hunting. I think I may like all that stuff more than the 
saving lives, saving the world part. And I like being the first Slayer 
with a life, and Ill fight to keep that, but I know now that it is 
never going to be a normal life. And this next part I learned from you 
by the way, that it is okay that my life is not a normal life. I like it 
the way it is. Though the sex life needs improving. Buffy added the 
last hoping to keep all this light. She knew Willow would be alright 
with this. It was much harder for her to finally be alright with it than 
for any of her friends who had been telling her this for years. But still...

Well you just announced that youre a switch hitter so that should 
improve your odds for a good sex life. Willow knew Buffy didnt want 
this to get heavy, but still she had to make one thing clear. Moving to 
lay down beside her friend, reaching out to stroke her hair out of her 
face and getting all of Buffys attention, Willow continued. Just one 
serious moment, know that I know that all thats okay. A brief pause 
for Buffy to sort through the Willow speak. Buffy, I cant even imagine 
the hormone and chemical cocktail that must kick in when youre in 
Slayer mode. So yeah, a better buzz than money can buy. As for the 
hunter part, I know youre a hunter. An early confession from me, its 
one of the things I like about you. But I also know you are a lot more 
than all that. So, no more guilty of Slayer bit?

Buffy stayed focused on her friends eyes through all of it. She saw the 
whole truth of the words. It was a great relief and she let go a held 
breath she was unaware of. No more guilty of Slayer bit. You dont 
think Ill go too far? One last fear...

I know you wont go too far. I dont know how I know so dont ask that. 
But I know just the same. And Willow did.

You like the hunter? Buffy grinned.

Oh no you dont. Later. Still your turn and this is just getting fun. 
Willow retreated back to where she was before, against the headboard, 
giving Buffy room.

How do you know that isnt it?

I can tell. I just know you too well. Theres more. Willow was growing 
very curious because she could see there was more but had no idea what 
it could be.

I wasnt even trying poker face. Buffy was stalling. She wasnt sure 
if she could just launch into the next part.

Sure you werent. If thats the best you can do well have to play 
poker sometime. Willow noticed her friend was getting wound up again.

Okay, what do you want to lose, your clothes or your money? She knew 
that Willow knew she was stalling now. So, she would just have to be 
honest. Willow, I dont think I can just tell the rest of this. I will 
tell you and I want to tell you, but... Can we maybe trade off times of 
confession? And you take a turn for a bit?

Willow let her head fall back against the headboard and looked up in a 
quick plea to anything above for some strength. Okay, fair enough, my 
turn then. But Ill remind you that this was all your idea. Willow 
returned her gaze to her friend. And fair warning now, open talk of sex 
ahead.

Oh goody, cause thats my next part too, only I couldnt talk the 
talk. Buffy got bouncy again.

You know, for a Slayer you sure do get all innocent and shy sometimes. 
Willow couldnt be sure because they never had a full details talk 
before, but she thought that maybe she now had more experience than 
Buffy in the sex arena. And that thought almost made her laugh out loud.

Yeah well, for someone who was the geek, you sure have been getting all 
bold. So spill, whats the what and whos the why? And what were you 
doing on the computer? A bouncy curious Buffy found she liked this 
knows how to play poker Willow and hoped she could start the topic. 
Because Buffy really wanted to talk about sex, and not just the safe, 
general, straight and vanilla. She wanted to talk about everything else 
and it just seems they never got the chance to even start that.

I was DOING nothing on the computer. I really was just researching. No 
online fling, no chat room naughties. In fact, there was not to be any 
online flings for Willow. Not since her first, last and only turned out 
to be a demon.

Yeah, okay, so... Buffy made continue eyes and didnt even bother to 
hide the grin.

Okay, background first. I told you Tara and I switched to the 
non-monogamous relationship thing, right?

Yeah, still unclear on the what and why but no problem with. Is that 
why you arent staying with her tonight? Buffy sidetracked a little.

Huh? Oh yeah, shes on a date tonight and she wanted the possibility of 
an all night. And dont look like that. Its fine. It really is. You 
know that place in the relationship where the honeymoon is ending and 
you either get even closer or you start drifting apart? Willow was 
going to have to explain this again, she could tell.

Heard of it. Kinda never got much chance to get there myself. But know 
what you mean. Buffy had to puzzle yet again how she, someone who had 
to grow up so fast, could have such a lack of experience.

Okay, yeah well, its all new to me too you know. Anyway, Tara and I 
were growing apart after the intense was over. But, we didnt want it to 
end either. Well, Tara was getting all involved and started talking to 
the Community Girls, and

Community Girls? Buffy interrupted for clarification.

You know, the political lesbians, the whole gay community and join the 
cause scene. Thats just what I call them. Willow explained.

You dont like? Buffy didnt know much about it really.

I dont dislike either. Im just not a joiner I guess. Have a bit much 
on my plate usually anyway, what with all the world saving. I guess I 
dont like labels and they tend to have a bunch of rules, so I pass. 
Its good to have support and they offer a lot of that, but I have the 
Scoobies, so Im not without. Willow gave a big grin at that.

You have support. And even affection. So, Tara is joining? Buffy knew 
Willow was repeating this latest turn in their relationship to her, but 
she still didnt quite get the whole thing and really wanted to.

Yeah, Tara started joining and got to talking with them and a lot of 
them do this whole non-monogamous thing. So, we thought wed try that 
instead of just breaking up.

So, you see other people? Buffy asked.

If we want. We dont have to. Willow was thinking maybe this time it 
made more sense.

But its still a relationship, not a back to dating thing? It was 
beginning to make real sense to Buffy.

Yeah, were still us two together. And theres a lot of honest talk 
about how were feeling. Its more work than you would think. But, I 
like it and theres a part of me that really likes hearing about what 
shes been up to. There, lets just dive in Willow thought.

Okay, that last part again? Buffy settled in for what she hoped was 
the good part and turned back to watch the fire shadows on the ceiling 
and give her friend the space she might need.

Yeah, well, okay, so. All this and that memory of VampWillow still in 
my head started me researching. She glanced over at Buffy. You dont 
look fazed that the VampWillow inspired me.

Nope. Cuddles on the couch with another woman snapped the last of my 
Innocent Willow image. I let you grow up in one fell swoosh. Buffy 
reassured.

Oh well, thank you. Thats good to know. Cause, well, um... okay Buffy, 
um... Willow fumbled, she couldnt help it.

Spill it Wills. Please. Buffy all but whispered the last word. She 
wanted it to start. She needed one of them to kick the line away and cross.

A pause and deep breath later, Willow valiantly continued on. It seems 
I have some kink in me Buffy. There, she said something, not specifics, 
but a start was a start.

Buffy turned to look at her. She was blushing but started to smile as 
Buffy smiled. Kink huh? Full out kink? What kind of kink? Careful here 
Wills, you dont want to leave it up to my mind. I may not have done 
much yet, but I can think of a lot.

Great, so you want me to just list them? It was hard enough& Willow 
was interrupted.

You have a list?! Buffy was in full grin now, curious and relieved. At 
least this wasnt going to be one-sided.

No! I dont have a list. You arent freaked are you? Willow was 
getting cautiously hopeful.

Relieved. Buffy honestly stated.

Huh?

You know, the stuff I couldnt talk about? Well, now maybe I can. 
Buffy hoped Willow would understand the reassurance.

Smiling again, Okay, got cha. So, I found some nice adult toy stores 
on the web. Thats what I was doing when you came in.

Good news, but not kink. But Ill want to shop later if thats 
alright. Buffy knew there had to be more. Willow was still blushing.

Sure. Oh, by the way, I found stores that go to whatever extreme you 
want to get into. Just name your kink. Willow grinned evilly at Buffys 
raised eyebrows. And she realized, this was going to be fun. As for 
mine, Ive been reading about the BDSM scene. Whod have thunk it. 
Little ol me. Willow grinned.

You have to watch out for the quiet ones Ive heard. Buffy wasnt 
surprised. She was intrigued. So, you and Tara...

Nope. I told Tara about it of course, but she isnt into it at all. 
Kind of one of the things we started to drift apart on. Weve been very 
vanilla you know.

Vanilla Alt. Cute. But now you can see others, so have you...? Buffy 
was getting bold.

Nope. We just started the see others thing. And, well, still shy Willow 
here, how do you start out as a Dom? Which is where I seem to lean, 
though you should start out as a Sub so you know whats the what when 
you do your thing, so to speak. But that leads to a whole other thing of 
who am I going to let do that to me. So, I do a lot of reading and such. 
Which leads me to kink number two.

Theres a kink number two? Oh goody. Buffy forgot all about giving her 
friend space and looked directly into her eyes, waiting for her to 
continue, also forgetting for the moment her questions about all this 
Dom and Sub stuff.

Um, this one might give you the ickies.

Willow, really, it will be okay.