You set off gaydar, Buffy. Willow happily informed her shocked
friend. Many times Ive been asked by members of the lesbian crowd if
youre gay. You confuse a little, but you definitely register blips.
That and I just kinda suspected. So, a hearty congrats and no freak
here.
Blips? So when do I get gaydar? Of course, I may not get it since the
big word here is KINDA gay. I still like guys, only with my luck, gods
know why. It felt good to finally tell someone, Buffy thought.
Well, you should get the standard issue anyway. And the term would be
BI.
Wills, I like labels as much as I like guys at the moment. So well
stick with kinda gay. Buffy was all grins and turned back to look at
the ceiling. The first was done. Beginning was the hardest part, right?
Alright, I like it. So, whats next? Willow was starting to relax now.
Ah, next? Well, next would be that I like being the Slayer. And let
me finish before you say thats a good, because I finally had to admit
that I like the whole Slayer bit. The fighting, hitting and getting
hit. The staking. The hunting. I think I may like all that stuff more
than the saving lives, saving the world part. And I like being the
first Slayer with a life, and Ill fight to keep that, but I know now
that it is never going to be a normal life. And this next part I
learned from you by the way, that it is okay that my life is not a
normal life. I like it the way it is. Though the sex life needs
improving. Buffy added the last hoping to keep all this light. She
knew Willow would be alright with this. It was much harder for her to
finally be alright with it than for any of her friends who had been
telling her this for years. But still...
Well you just announced that youre a switch hitter so that should
improve your odds for a good sex life. Willow knew Buffy didnt want
this to get heavy, but still she had to make one thing clear. Moving
to lay down beside her friend, reaching out to stroke her hair out of
her face and getting all of Buffys attention, Willow continued. Just
one serious moment, know that I know that all thats okay. A brief
pause for Buffy to sort through the Willow speak. Buffy, I cant even
imagine the hormone and chemical cocktail that must kick in when
youre in Slayer mode. So yeah, a better buzz than money can buy. As
for the hunter part, I know youre a hunter. An early confession from
me, its one of the things I like about you. But I also know you are a
lot more than all that. So, no more guilty of Slayer bit?
Buffy stayed focused on her friends eyes through all of it. She saw
the whole truth of the words. It was a great relief and she let go a
held breath she was unaware of. No more guilty of Slayer bit. You
dont think Ill go too far? One last fear...
I know you wont go too far. I dont know how I know so dont ask
that. But I know just the same. And Willow did.
You like the hunter? Buffy grinned.
Oh no you dont. Later. Still your turn and this is just getting
fun. Willow retreated back to where she was before, against the
headboard, giving Buffy room.
How do you know that isnt it?
I can tell. I just know you too well. Theres more. Willow was
growing very curious because she could see there was more but had no
idea what it could be.
I wasnt even trying poker face. Buffy was stalling. She wasnt sure
if she could just launch into the next part.
Sure you werent. If thats the best you can do well have to play
poker sometime. Willow noticed her friend was getting wound up again.
Okay, what do you want to lose, your clothes or your money? She knew
that Willow knew she was stalling now. So, she would just have to be
honest. Willow, I dont think I can just tell the rest of this. I
will tell you and I want to tell you, but... Can we maybe trade off
times of confession? And you take a turn for a bit?
Willow let her head fall back against the headboard and looked up in a
quick plea to anything above for some strength. Okay, fair enough, my
turn then. But Ill remind you that this was all your idea. Willow
returned her gaze to her friend. And fair warning now, open talk of
sex ahead.
Oh goody, cause thats my next part too, only I couldnt talk the
talk. Buffy got bouncy again.
You know, for a Slayer you sure do get all innocent and shy
sometimes. Willow couldnt be sure because they never had a full
details talk before, but she thought that maybe she now had more
experience than Buffy in the sex arena. And that thought almost made
her laugh out loud.
Yeah well, for someone who was the geek, you sure have been getting
all bold. So spill, whats the what and whos the why? And what were
you doing on the computer? A bouncy curious Buffy found she liked
this knows how to play poker Willow and hoped she could start the
topic. Because Buffy really wanted to talk about sex, and not just the
safe, general, straight and vanilla. She wanted to talk about
everything else and it just seems they never got the chance to even
start that.
I was DOING nothing on the computer. I really was just researching.
No online fling, no chat room naughties. In fact, there was not to be
any online flings for Willow. Not since her first, last and only
turned out to be a demon.
Yeah, okay, so... Buffy made continue eyes and didnt even bother to
hide the grin.
Okay, background first. I told you Tara and I switched to the
non-monogamous relationship thing, right?
Yeah, still unclear on the what and why but no problem with. Is that
why you arent staying with her tonight? Buffy sidetracked a little.
Huh? Oh yeah, shes on a date tonight and she wanted the possibility
of an all night. And dont look like that. Its fine. It really is.
You know that place in the relationship where the honeymoon is ending
and you either get even closer or you start drifting apart? Willow
was going to have to explain this again, she could tell.
Heard of it. Kinda never got much chance to get there myself. But
know what you mean. Buffy had to puzzle yet again how she, someone
who had to grow up so fast, could have such a lack of experience.
Okay, yeah well, its all new to me too you know. Anyway, Tara and I
were growing apart after the intense was over. But, we didnt want it
to end either. Well, Tara was getting all involved and started talking
to the Community Girls, and
Community Girls? Buffy interrupted for clarification.
You know, the political lesbians, the whole gay community and join
the cause scene. Thats just what I call them. Willow explained.
You dont like? Buffy didnt know much about it really.
I dont dislike either. Im just not a joiner I guess. Have a bit
much on my plate usually anyway, what with all the world saving. I
guess I dont like labels and they tend to have a bunch of rules, so I
pass. Its good to have support and they offer a lot of that, but I
have the Scoobies, so Im not without. Willow gave a big grin at that.
You have support. And even affection. So, Tara is joining? Buffy
knew Willow was repeating this latest turn in their relationship to
her, but she still didnt quite get the whole thing and really wanted to.
Yeah, Tara started joining and got to talking with them and a lot of
them do this whole non-monogamous thing. So, we thought wed try that
instead of just breaking up.
So, you see other people? Buffy asked.
If we want. We dont have to. Willow was thinking maybe this time it
made more sense.
But its still a relationship, not a back to dating thing? It was
beginning to make real sense to Buffy.
Yeah, were still us two together. And theres a lot of honest talk
about how were feeling. Its more work than you would think. But, I
like it and theres a part of me that really likes hearing about what
shes been up to. There, lets just dive in Willow thought.
Okay, that last part again? Buffy settled in for what she hoped was
the good part and turned back to watch the fire shadows on the ceiling
and give her friend the space she might need.
Yeah, well, okay, so. All this and that memory of VampWillow still in
my head started me researching. She glanced over at Buffy. You dont
look fazed that the VampWillow inspired me.
Nope. Cuddles on the couch with another woman snapped the last of my
Innocent Willow image. I let you grow up in one fell swoosh. Buffy
reassured.
Oh well, thank you. Thats good to know. Cause, well, um... okay
Buffy, um... Willow fumbled, she couldnt help it.
Spill it Wills. Please. Buffy all but whispered the last word. She
wanted it to start. She needed one of them to kick the line away and
cross.
A pause and deep breath later, Willow valiantly continued on. It
seems I have some kink in me Buffy. There, she said something, not
specifics, but a start was a start.
Buffy turned to look at her. She was blushing but started to smile as
Buffy smiled. Kink huh? Full out kink? What kind of kink? Careful
here Wills, you dont want to leave it up to my mind. I may not have
done much yet, but I can think of a lot.
Great, so you want me to just list them? It was hard enough& Willow
was interrupted.
You have a list?! Buffy was in full grin now, curious and relieved.
At least this wasnt going to be one-sided.
No! I dont have a list. You arent freaked are you? Willow was
getting cautiously hopeful.
Relieved. Buffy honestly stated.
Huh?
You know, the stuff I couldnt talk about? Well, now maybe I can.
Buffy hoped Willow would understand the reassurance.
Smiling again, Okay, got cha. So, I found some nice adult toy stores
on the web. Thats what I was doing when you came in.
Good news, but not kink. But Ill want to shop later if thats
alright. Buffy knew there had to be more. Willow was still blushing.
Sure. Oh, by the way, I found stores that go to whatever extreme you
want to get into. Just name your kink. Willow grinned evilly at
Buffys raised eyebrows. And she realized, this was going to be fun.
As for mine, Ive been reading about the BDSM scene. Whod have thunk
it. Little ol me. Willow grinned.
You have to watch out for the quiet ones Ive heard. Buffy wasnt
surprised. She was intrigued. So, you and Tara...
Nope. I told Tara about it of course, but she isnt into it at all.
Kind of one of the things we started to drift apart on. Weve been
very vanilla you know.
Vanilla Alt. Cute. But now you can see others, so have you...? Buffy
was getting bold.
Nope. We just started the see others thing. And, well, still shy
Willow here, how do you start out as a Dom? Which is where I seem to
lean, though you should start out as a Sub so you know whats the what
when you do your thing, so to speak. But that leads to a whole other
thing of who am I going to let do that to me. So, I do a lot of
reading and such. Which leads me to kink number two.
Theres a kink number two? Oh goody. Buffy forgot all about giving
her friend space and looked directly into her eyes, waiting for her to
continue, also forgetting for the moment her questions about all this
Dom and Sub stuff.
Um, this one might give you the ickies.
Willow, really, it will be okay.