FIC: "Just Friends" 2/? B/W

2 nights after

Both friends entered Buffy?s room with a sigh and sat nonchalantly on the bed. Buffy sighed again:

?I still can?t believe I almost-?

?And me?!? Willow added as stunned as Buffy. Buffy shook her head:

?Let?s forget about that story and about that whole day in fact?

?Yes, this, I agree with? Willow said and they both went to shower then put on their pajamas and crept under the sheets. They were both looking at the ceiling and Buffy sighed again:

?My God, I?m so ashamed?

?Don?t think about it Buffy, it was just magic?

?You realized I was about to do the boy. On a table! In a classroom! Oh God?

Willow couldn?t help smiling. Buffy turned on her side and Willow did the same then so that now they were both looking at each other. Buffy added:

?I can?t believe how turned on I was for him, fucking jacket?

Willow looked thoughtful:

?It?s funny, I was attracted but I only got horny when I had the idea of turning him into a woman and thinking of all the things then?? Willow smiled and Buffy slightly laughed then looked thoughtful and said:

?Indeed it?s funny, I mean, you?ve already been with a guy, why did you have to turn him into a woman??

?I don?t know, ok yes I do. Honestly I?ve loved Oz with all my heart. Sex was good, it wasn?t exactly miraculous but it was good, I even thought it was wonderful at the time but then? And I know now what it is, honestly I don?t think I could sleep with a guy anymore, ok I?m lying because I could fall in love with a guy so I guess I could but, if I can choose God knows I only want a woman? It?s just? different?

?How different?? Buffy asked.

?I wouldn?t be able to explain it but, I-, with Tara I. I just felt so complete; we were just merging into each other it was?? Willow looked sad at the remembrance of her lover. Buffy gently caressed her cheek and Willow pulled herself together and continued:

?You do not only receive, you share more, you give as much as you get, you even give more in fact. I could have it away just by seeing her climax you know, it was symbiotic. Or maybe it was just Tara and I. Our relationship was very strong and with the magic? Everything was stronger but still? It?s a different feeling, different taste, different skin and touches, it?s? unexplainable but yet matchless to me?

Buffy was staring at her very attentively, she found herself focused on the redhead?s lips as this one was talking. She was a bit mesmerized by Willow?s tale and the slayer felt herself very curious about it, very interested by just the way Willow was talking about it. The redhead noticed the gleam in Buffy?s eyes and she asked her:

?You?ve never fantasized about women??

?No? Buffy replied with her natural prude tone. Willow smiled:

?Come on Buffy it?s me, besides I?ve just told you some very intimate things so your turn now, never? You sure??

Buffy hesitated:

?It?s not really? fantasized?

Willow smiled:

?Ok? Who is it??

?No one, I just, I thought about it sometimes?

?When? Who? I?m sure there?s a girl that inspired you more than the others right??

Buffy blushed but shook her head:

?No, no one. I thought about it sometimes that?s all. When I was seeing you and Tara sometimes, sure I did think about it but that?s all?

?I don?t believe you and please if you ever fantasized about Tara, please do NOT tell me?

Buffy smiled:

?No, not Tara?

Willow propped herself on her elbow:

?But there was someone, ok, my bet is; Faith?

Buffy couldn?t help blushing even more and Willow looked up victoriously:

?I knew it?

?No, you don?t know anything?

Buffy was amusingly embarrassed and Willow went on:

?Come on, admit it?

?Ok, I do admit she kinda? turned me on, sometimes? ok, ok don?t look at me that way, lots of time ok you happy now? I?m so ashamed?

Willow was smiling:

?Why? She was so hot that?s natural?

Buffy looked surprised at Willow?s comment and Willow said:

?Ok I didn?t like her and I was into boys at that time but I wasn?t blind, this girl was screaming sex with her every gesture and sound and everyone could feel it, so not a surprise you fantasized about her?

Buffy asked:

?You mean you did too??

?No, not really, I wasn?t really into sex at that time anyway, I still was in a having crushes on people phase and Faith, definitely not one of them, I was too jealous of her?

?Why jealous??

?Because of you?

?What do you mean??

?Well I mean? Willow stopped suddenly and stammered:

?Well, I-I, just, the time she was spending with you, you know and she was attractive and? everything I was not?

?Yeah, see where she ended up?

Willow said:

?What really happened Buffy? I mean now that we look back at it, things aren?t as simple as we saw them then that is; us good, her bad. You want to know what I think; well I think she didn?t care at all about us? Only you?

?What do you mean??

?Ok, she tried to kill you, steal your life or destroy it but in the end there was just you. I think all these innuendos she was making with you?

Buffy blushed:

?Oh you noticed them??

Willow raised her brows:

?I skipped them at the time but it was so obvious. So ok, it was the way she was, with boys mainly but honestly Buffy, now that I think of it, my guess is, she really wanted to get in your pants?

Buffy blushed in an almost shocked face. Willow smiled:

?I?m sorry but, come on what do you think now??

?I, I don?t know, ok I?ve thought it might be that but, nothing I can do about it anymore anyway?

?Yeah, it?s far now, in fact she wasn?t that bad, she was just like the rest of us?

?What do you mean??

?Having a crush on you?

Willow realized what she just said so she turned on her back, staring at the ceiling hoping Buffy wouldn?t ask. Buffy slightly smiled:

?You? had a crush on me??

Willow creased her forehead:

?It?s err, not, really, it?s- you know, best friends crushes, you know, high school. I-loved-Oz-besides-he-in-his-own-way-had-a-crush-on-you-too-but-for-him-it-was-showing-by-a-huge-admiration-of-you-he-was-telling-me-sometimes-so-having-a-crush-doesn?t-always-mean-drooling-over-someone-ok-there-was- Xander-for-that-but-?

?Ssh? Buffy said while slightly laughing at Willow?s babbling as she put her finger on her lips to stop her:

?It?s ok Will, best friends, you don?t have to justify yourself. I?m kinda honored in fact?

They were staring at each other. Buffy removed her finger and Willow dampened her lips as they were dry. She gulped; she couldn?t help staring at Buffy with that same admiration she felt for her when she was younger and Buffy couldn?t help looking at Willow with the same gaze she?d been looking at her over the last couple of nights, like it was a different person, or maybe like she, herself, was seeing her differently now. Buffy slightly squeezed her legs imperceptibly as this whole discussion about women sex, Faith and now this, had turned her on, she knew it, she?d been trying to hide it but she couldn?t hide the glowing in her eyes and her breathing, slightly increasing. She slightly moved her face closer to Willow like the redhead had done a few nights before. Willow welcomed her lips by parting her mouth and closing it on Buffy?s. She put her hand through Buffy?s hair and let the blonde?s locks slip through her fingers while the slayer was exploring her mouth with her tongue. She felt so warm and so strong and yet so tender and unsure. Buffy slightly moved her hand to Willow?s chest and Willow led it to her breast and Buffy began massaging it while Willow was already sliding her hand under Buffy?s top of pajama on her back caressing it and pulling her closer. Buffy moved to her neck. Willow was breathing raggedly, Buffy slid her hand under her top to massage her breasts properly and Willow moaned. They kissed again then Buffy pulled away. They were both taking their breath back trying to realize. Buffy looked stunned, she removed her hand from under Willow?s top so Willow did the same, still letting it rest on the slayer?s waist. Buffy tried to remain calm, she gently said:

?I don?t really know what is happening right now?

Willow looked annoyed:

?I don?t know either but? Do you, do you think it?s bad? I mean, do you want to, I mean I don?t know, I?m sorry if I-?

?It?s not your fault Willow, I don?t think you want it more than I do, or, well, you want it less than I do, I?m not sure. Obviously there?s something going on but? all I know is? I need time to figure out what it is, is it ok with you??

?Yes, sure, time, of course. I need time too?

Buffy smiled:

?Ok?

She went on a bit bad at ease:

?Maybe it would be best that-? she trailed off and Willow went on with a nod:

?That I go back to my room? Definitely the thing to do yes, ok, well, so, err, I?ll see you tomorrow?

?Yes, ok, goodnight Will?

Buffy said looking slightly aside while Willow was almost at the door already. Once she closed it she remained a while against it breathing heavily and thinking intensely while Buffy was sitting straight on her bed doing the same thing.