Down Twisted: Chapter 22

["tina" <Rogersjctt@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

Well, here goes nothing! All typos are mine.


  The compact blonde stood just outside the closed bedroom door 
trying, desperately, to calm to immense amount of trepidation that 
was quelling around inside her stomach.  With a hard mental slap to 
her brain, and a resoulte shake of her shoulders, Buffy began turning 
the shiny, gold handle.  The Slayer truelly thought she'd be ready 
but the sight that caught her eyes, literally, obliterated that sense 
of hope.  Alexandra Roberts was laying flat on her back atop the 
bedcovers staring, sightlessly it seemed, up at the off-white 
ceiling.  The redhead was, once again, standing at the bedroom window 
and Buffy ached as she watched the other girl's silent tears fall 
towards the uncaring floor.

                      " Wills?"

  The Witch turned and locked gazes with her concerned lover. Buffy 
Summers hazel, blue eyes flickered, constantly, around the room but 
what really caught Willow's attention was how the strong Slayer was 
trying to appear as if she where still in total control.
                 " Look, damnit, look at what Alex was holding 
aganist her heart."

    The other girl's eyes,  automatically, glanced down at the photo 
Willow was holding in her left hand.  That gaze widened after seeing 
just what image that picture contained and her heart grieved all over 
again for the dark Southerner.  

                " She never even noticed when I took it from her.  
God, Buffy, what are we going to do about Alex?"

     The confusion in that painfilled voice compelled the Slayer to 
cross the short distance that was seperating them and enfold the 
desperate redhead with a loose embrace.

                        " I dunno, Will.  It will probably be hard 
but I believe we just need to be here for Alex."

     The Hacker/Witch, silently, acknowledged that she would have it 
no other way.  The older woman meant the world to Willow because that 
girl, damn well, knew she and Buffy would still be floundering around 
in a state of confusion, instead of finally being together, and it 
was mostly due to the dark Southerner's persistance.  However, 
mirrored within that emotion was the realisation that she and Bufffy, 
in all likelyhood, where the sole people who Might be able to jerk 
Alexandra Roberts out from the confindes of her own mindset.  Willow, 
being far from a stupid girl, also knew she wasn't emotionally ready 
to fully process that information yet, so she put it on the back 
burner.

  Buffy, who'ed been thinking along the same lines,drew a small 
amount of strength from simply continuing to hold her lover and best 
friend.  The Slayer knew, as surely as the sun would rise tomarrow 
morning, that they'ed eventually have to talk about their equally 
troubling thoughts.  In all honesty, the blonde was dreading the day 
that would happen.  After listening to Alex's rather complicated 
formative years, she could no longer try and deny that only 
certain..things would bring the dark woman back to herself.  There 
was never any doubt that Willow would do, almost anything, to help 
Alexandra Katherine Roberts.  But, and this was a truelly massive 
but, Buffy couldn't really believe that her tender hearted lover 
would have the mental fortitude to get naked-n-sweaty if other people 
where in the same room with her.  To be sure, Wills had her 
outrageous moments but, at heart, her lover was a very traditional 
girl. Buffy firmly banished those thoughts as she brushed a gentle 
kiss across the Witch's lips and then took a small step back.

           " You know,Will, it occurs to me that neither one of us 
has eaten yet.  Don't know about you but I'm starving over here.  
Let's go to the kitchen, I'll fix us some sandwhiches and we can 
discuss this some more. " 'Kay, Wills?"

   Grateful for any kind of distraction, the Wiccan walked over to 
the dresser to lay the tear stained photo atop it's sturdy surface.  
With one last look at Alex, Willow headed for the door.

                 " Coming, lover?  I can clearly hear an ice, cold 
Coke calling me by name."

 Buffy Anne Summers was dryly chuckling to herself as she exited the 
bedroom.  Meanwhile, the dark clad figure on the bed still hadn't 
moved a muscle.  Alex was trying to stay afloat on the dark currents 
that ran in the abyss that was her own mind.  It was a cold, utterly 
silent place that offered her nothing but total absoulution.  On some 
basic level, Alex was faintly aware of her surroundings.  It was,  
however, a wholly intutitive feeling because there seemed to be 
nothing but a gray space behind her eyes.  Try as she might, and she 
had tried, no words would come from her throat. Thankfully, her 
hearing was still present but it had a radically muted aspect.  The 
cognisant part of Alexandra Roberts wished there where some way she 
could reassure Buffy and Willow.  They where in a great deal of 
emotional pain because of her but, alas, she had no way to tell them 
anything.  The dark, gray gaze blinked, just once, because Alex had 
never really considered the possiblity that she'd Ever be back inside 
this  cold place.  There was only one thought process going on inside 
that woman's mind and the thougth was repeated again and again.

           Dear God, I know we've had our differences but, if you 
could see it within your heart, please don't let the same amount of 
time pass before I can free myself once again.


 That's it for today.  I was going to go ahead and send along #23 
butI'm still not feeling too well.  I caught some kinda stomach thing 
yesterday but am feeling,slightly, better at the moment.  I just 
don't have much energy, that's why I gotta sign off for now.  I'll 
will try and post 23 sometime tomarrow.
                                 Tina
    



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