FIC: This Wasn't The Plan

["xenarip13" <xenarip13@xxxxxxxxx>]

Title: This Wasn't the Plan
Author: Bynx
Email: xenarip13@xxxxxxxxx
Pairing:  B/W
Rating: PG this installment
Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy in any way shape or form.  I am just 
playing in the great world created by Joss.  Don't sue me.  I work 
for the government and make no money.
NOTE: I have no BETA I write for pleasure alone.  I also wrote this 
at 6 am in the morning.  Please take pity.




THIS WASN'T THE PLAN






`Why I am I just standing here with the rest of them?  I should be 
down there sharing this burden with her&' Willow thinks to herself 
as they stand surrounding the walls of the new public library 
watching Buffy and the Turok Han battle, `If you go down there to 
help her&how will you continue your concentration which is giving 
her the extra strength that you both knew she would need to win this 
battle?!  She can't do this without you&But, my boosting is working&
that bastard is practically killing her!'  She wars with 
herself, `you have the connection.  She gave it to you when SHE gave 
you her strength to heal.  All you have to do is to quit fighting 
with yourself and give her all that you have.  If you want her to 
live it is the only way.'  Willow's mind quiets with realization.  

She looks down to the raging conflict to see Buffy held up in the 
air by the throat.  The Turok Han having the upper hand.  Buffy 
looks lost as she glances around frantically for something to use as 
a weapon.  

Willow feels the power in her come to bear as her eyes turn 
ebony, `you can't have her!  I brought her back!  I need her here!  
I love her too much to let her die again!'  Her inner being screams 
as she sends all the borrowed slayer force and her own to Buffy in 
one clear thought.

`The arrow, my love, use the arrow!'  Willow's hands tighten on the 
scaffolding as her resolve face now empowered ten fold forms.

Buffy's head snaps up instantly as the powerful thought feels her 
mind and body with its power.  Her eyes turn to a cloudy gray for a 
split second before her mind clears with one thought.

`The arrow, my love, use the arrow!'  Buffy infused with this new 
source of vitality quickly snaps the end off of the arrow embedded 
in the uber-vamp's chest.  She stabs it in the eye freeing her from 
its grasp. The power screams at her from inside her mind to use it.  
She pummels her foe into a near stupor taking its blows as if they 
were mere taps.  In her mind one phrase repeats over and over&one 
feeling rushes through her body&

`My love&' her mind repeats, `love&this is what love is&Love.'

The Turok Han falls to its knees in front of her.  She slices 
through its neck with ease finally killing the invincible beast.  
She makes a show of wiping her hands of the beast's remains.  All 
the while her mind and heart filled with a sudden realization, `I 
love Willow&I love Willow&what do I do?'

"Dust&"  She pats her hands for emphasis.  She looks at all the 
potential slayers, as she talks never looking at Willow.  She tells 
them all what it will be like, but never acknowledges to them what 
it really took to defeat this evil.  She can never let them know 
that she needed help.  They have to believe in themselves, "Here 
endeth the lesson."  She turns only sparing a glance to Willow who 
looks as if she will pass out if left to her own devices much 
longer.  How she wants to go to her and help her, thank her, hold 
her, but she can't.  She walks off leaving them all to follow her if 
they choose.

Willow watches as the others climb down to follow their new and 
respected leader.  She wants to call out to Buffy for help, but she 
knows that she can't.  It must look as if she had no help but her 
own power.  This was their plan from the beginning as Dawn suggested 
earlier, but no one can know this part of it not even Xander.  She 
finally releases her death-like grip on the scaffolding.  She looks 
down and sees her hands have left their impressions in the steel.  
Power.   She has it and Buffy has tasted it.  What else has she 
tasted in this transference?  She moves to begin her climb down, but 
she sees the First looking at her.

"I know your secret, Witch."  It smiles menacingly at her, "Oh, no 
not the little love issue.  How pathetic you are to think that this 
slayer will want damaged goods like you.  I mean the big secret&the 
power link&I know and it will be your undoing."  It blinks out of 
existence before her.

She climbs down and begins her trek home alone.  No one has waited 
for her.  Buffy could not.  Dawn was too elated at watching Buffy 
win the battle.  Kennedy, the flirtatious youngster, had been 
frightened by the magic and the change that comes over her.  Xander, 
well, he is simply Xander.  She walks the short walk back looking at 
the houses along the way.  In Sunnydale, ignorance really is bliss.  
All the people in these houses don't want to know what goes on here 
so they don't.  None of them will ever know what is coming until it 
is too late.  Willow stands looking at the house on Revello drive.  
She watches as shadows walk by the windows that aren't boarded up.  
She sees this house briefly as when Joyce was alive.  It was always 
so welcoming to come here and now it is her home.  Home. 

`Truth be known little witch, Buffy is your home not this house.' 
Her inner self tells her as a tear slips down her face, `I know this 
now, but thanks for finally filling me in.' she answers to her 
self.  With that new information, she walks into the Summer's, 
Rosenberg, Harris, etc. household.

She sees the potentials recounting the exciting battle.  They now 
have some faith in what will happen, but they must never know the 
truth.  Why does this sound so familiar to her?  She sees Xander 
rolling his eyes at Andrew's nonsensical chattering.  Kennedy looks 
at her briefly only to smile a sad smile at her and return to her 
group.  She walks upstairs managing to make it only by using the 
railing.  She hears Dawn chastising Buffy for not telling her the 
plan.  Poor Dawn, she can never know the truth either.  Her idol is 
not the all powerful that she must believe she is.  Even the great 
chosen one needs a boost now and then.  She passes by the bathroom 
and briefly looks in as Dawn mends and tends to Buffy's wounds.  
Buffy simply sits with her head turned to the side as Dawn applies 
butterfly bandages to the cuts on her face.  She sits silently 
letting Dawn scold her as if she simply doesn't hear her.  Willow 
knows how much Buffy hurts.  She has been the one that has patched 
the slayer up more times than not.  Tara always took care of 
Willow's wounds and nightmares.  Now, there is no one to soothe her 
hurts.
`And that is how it should be.  I don't deserve someone to soothe my 
pain.  I have caused enough of my own to many others.'  Willow sighs 
inwardly and moves on down the hall to her room, which thankfully is 
empty at this moment.  She steps in, closes the door, and collapses 
onto the bed closing her eyes and let's the tears of her exhaustion 
and loneliness fall silently down her cheeks.


NOTE:  I will continue if anyone thinks this is worth finishing.  I 
have a small idea of where to take it.  I was going to try to back 
track and continue from The world has teeth that I posted so long 
ago, but it won't fit into that story line.  I am still considering 
going back and rewriting season seven to my liking, but with 
Military duty it has been hard to find the time. Thanks for reading, 
please let me know what you think......BYNX



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