FIC: Hurt. Pleasure. Love. (WARNING) B/F D/A B/W/K B/W (6/?)

[Raven White <clawsoftheraven@xxxxxxxxx>]

WARNING NOTE:THIS IS FULL OF ANGST AND ALSO
RAPED. IF THIS BOTHERS YOU, PLEASE DON'T READ.
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TITLE: Hurt. Pleasure. Love.  B/F D/A B/W/K  B/W (6/?)
AUTHOR: Raven White
RATING: NC-17
PAIRING: Buffy/Faith D/A B/W/K B/W
DISCLAIMER: These BTVS characters are the property of
Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy. I am only using them for
my sole purpose for a fanfic.
Warning: Contains adult themes, language and lesbian
sexuality. If the thought of two women together
bothers you. Please delete or leave and If you are
still here. Enjoy.
DISTRIBUTION:  Ask first please. You might be lucky. 
SPOILERS: All seasons of BTVS
SUMMARY: After The First is gone there are changes in
the air. Faith leaves and Buffy wants her to come back
to her.
WARNING NOTE:THIS IS FULL OF ANGST AND ALSO
RAPED. IF THIS BOTHERS YOU, PLEASE DON'T READ.
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Dawn and Andrew had been going out for a time.
Surprised the hell out me when Andrew came to me
asking for Dawn's hand. Hell, I thought that boy was
gay. Always thought that he would have gone after
Xander. But it was little Dawnie that turned him
around. So I gave him the okay and they got married
and had gone on a short honeymoon.

Then Kennedy came back and I told them about my own
feelings for Faith. Turned out that they loved the
dark slayer as well. So we came up with our own little
plan. I Loved all three them and there was no way that
I or them could be without each other. Faith had no
idea what she had ahead of her. Two Slayers and A
Witch in love with her. We three had become
inseparable. Lord only knew what the four of us would
be.

Of course we had a call before we ever heard from the
prison. I had a child. So we went and got my child and
then we had word that our slayer would be meeting us
soon. So with Willow, Kennedy and my child, we went to
wait on the outskirts of Sunnydale ruins. 

******End FLASHBACK*******

*************

And that brings me to.... Me and Faith. Someone might
ask me, "How can you love more then one person?" It's
not something that I was looking for. It just
happened. When I knew what I was looking at and
feeling. I mean I had loved Willow forever. And the
love that I have for
Kennedy is new. But then the love that I have for
Faith is something totally different then I feel for
the other two. She makes the slayer in me hum. Some
might say what does that mean? It just feels right.

Each of them gives me something different. I can
hardly wait till they are all in my bed. WHAT? It's
not a dream. It may take time. I can wait. It's what I
do. Well it is now. Guess this means that I need to do
something other then remember. 

*************

Buffy could hear Willow talking to Kennedy as she was
driving. Faith still looked in shock. Faith was now
married and she would also be a mother to my child. As
I sat down by Faith. I heard Kennedy tell Willow to
turn right and then take a left to the camp area.

They would be wanting to have sex soon. Since we had
gotten together sex was a main stay in our life. Buffy
wondered if she could get Faith to take a shower with
her before they talked....*To Talk? To SEX? Yes SEX*
*God I have turned into ANYA.* .....*Okay Talk yes? 
"WHY?" *Okay I have turned into Willow...god I am
babbling with myself.*

Buffy took Faith hand and brought it to her mouth.
"Faith, honey are you ready to talk? I know that you
must have a million questions. Hm, If not we could
maybe take a shower TOGETHER....Or we could eat."

"You could take a nap, or a shower and a nap. OR we
could have sex, a shower and we could eat." *Okay,
Buffy has left the building and I am Willow.* Buffy
smiled to herself.

"Faith, what shall it be?" Buffy asked.

**********

Faith POV:

Faith looked at Buffy. She is asking me if I want to
have sex with her? Does she like plain yogurt? YES I
WANT HER!. ...But as much as I just want to take her. 
I really need to talk for once. Yeah, I have
grown up. Want, Take, Have or is that get some...get
gone? I am not that person anymore. Funny what time to
think to yourself can do.

********

The sound of the camper being parked fills the room.

Willow and Kennedy released the extra walls of the
camper and now the camper was wider. They finished
setting up what was needed for them to be parked there
for a time.

Willow and Kennedy was looking at Buffy and Faith. All
four could feel the tension in the camper. Willow was
wondering if she and Kennedy should go for a walk.
Buffy was wondering if she should leave for a time.
Maybe Faith needed more time. So the three of them was
looking at the door. 

The quiet. How do you get through that barrier? The
resistance that had been there. In between Buffy,
Faith and Willow for so long? This time the key was
Faith. It was all up to her.

Buffy moved to the door as did the other two. Willow's
hand was on the screen door and was getting ready to
open it when they heard......

"B, Red, Ken we all need to talk." Faith said as she
stood up waiting for them. 

"All right." The three of them answered. Buffy sat
down by Faith. Faith sat down by here and Willow and
Kennedy sat on the other couch. They could all see the
other one.

Faith felt strange. Talking was never her strong suit.
She was all action.

Quiet filled the room once more between the four of
them. 

Birds were chirping.....The sun was shining into the
camper.

Kennedy was looking at Willow. Buffy was afraid. Faith
was Faith.

*********

Buffy finally had it. *Okay, Silence maybe golden, but
this sucks.* Buffy touched Faith hand....

"Do you want me to start?" Buffy asked.

Faith nods her head.

Taking a deep breath...."Faith, I have loved you
forever it seems. I didn't always know what it was
that I felt for you. But it has always been there.  I
won't speak for Will and Kenny. That is for them to
do."

"I have kept secrets from my friends and that always
came back to bit me on the ass. I have own up to my
secrets that I still had left. I love you, Willow and
Kenny. I love my child." Buffy stopped.

Faith had to ask...."The child Buffy?

"My child? That has to be the hardest secret that I
ever had to keep to myself." Buffy said and was trying
to get her mind set how to explain this.

"Um...My child...When I left Sunnydale in '98. I went
to Los Angeles and was a waitress. Seems that even
when I don't want to be reminded of Sunnydale it
stilled happened. Lily as she was calling herself this
time,
recognize me. We had meet before only she was
Chantarelle and was in this cult that worshipped
vampires in Sunnydale."

A word was heard from Faith...."Cult" ...she
whispered.

"Anyway her boyfriend disappeared and she had gotten
mixed up with some very ugly looking demons. It was a
different time dimension and me and Lily got caught
and spent weeks in that dimension. It was during that
time that I got pregnant." Buffy finished.

Buffy had tears in her eyes and also some falling down
her face. Red and Kenny moved down in front of her.
They put their hands on her knees. Faith was touching
her face. Trying to find the right words....

"Where you raped?'" Faith asked. 

The dam that was just below the surface broke. Buffy
was crying hard. Faith was sick to her stomach.
Someone had raped her B. "I WILL KILL HIM." Buffy hand
tighten on Faith. In the hiccup voice, "Faith you
can't do anything." "WHY THE FUCK NOT B?" ..."Because
he is already dead." Buffy said.

"Fucking coward." Faith said and got up. 

Will and Kennedy got up and sat beside Buffy...They
knew that Faith was just wanting something to hit and
maybe being by Buffy would be safe.

"Faith...He didn't have a choice in the matter. He was
ordered to rape me. The demons knew that I was the
slayer and they wanted the DNA from me. So they
figured what better way then to have one of my kids.
The guy lost a bet and he got me. I had gotten pretty
beat up the night before and was in no shape to fight
him...I was still able to hurt him. He had me down and
the rape did not take long. It worked and I had a
baby. When the others were coming to take the baby
from me. He came to me and told me that he could
protect the baby and raise it. It was a week later
that me and Lily was able to escape from that hell. He
had told me that whenever the 
time came that he died. Word would be sent to me. That
is why I have my child now." Buffy finished with.

Faith stood looking out the window of the camper tears
falling. She was fighting a war of her own....*Tell
her. NO. DON'T NO ME BITCH! TELL HER!*

Turning Faith ran her fingers over the finger that she
was now wearing.

"Buffy, I am sorry that happen to you....I think that
I need to talk about myself now. I feel like the odd
duck out." Faith said. She sat on the other couch now.
She knew that when all was said she would not be able
to stand.

"Red, Ken, Buffy...I....I didn't have the best up
bringing. My real father left us when I was young. My
mother did the usually stuff. She drank. Done drugs.
Whored herself out. I lost my virginity to one of her
boyfriends." 

Faith was trying not to cry....."SHIT"...her finger
rubbed the ring again..."My mother not only let her
boyfriends use me..there was a girlfriend of hers that
used me. It...was...sniff..during the time with her
that I had a miscarriage. Maw kicked her ass out and
then it was back to being the her boy-toy playmate.
Sniff..I lost a total of three children that I know
of. The reason why I left? My Maw told me that she was
going let that bitch touch me again. SO I FUCKING
RAN. .... later learned that the bitch killed my Maw."

Faith was sobbing...she had never told anyone about
what had happened to her. It felt right with Buffy,
Red and Kennedy. She might just be alright. Her head
was in her hands...She felt alone. She felt scared.
She felt LOVED.

B, Red and Kennedy moved. Buffy pulled Faith down to
the floor and sat behind her. Willow embraced her from
the front and Kennedy was touching her face. They were
all crying.


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TBC 
End part 6
{Raven White}
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