Fic:Closer a songfic...my first fic!

["Wolf MacLeod" <rpjmacleod@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

TITLE: Closer
AUTHOR: Rick MacLeod
DISCLAIMER: these characters aren't mine. Joss Whedon and Mutant Enemy
own them. I only wish they were mine.Lyrics of "Closer" are by Nine
Inch Nails.
SUMMARY:A S7-ish AU fic. Kennedy doesn't exist, althought this is set
around the time of "The Killer In Me". Willow is Dating Faith, and
realizes her true feelings for another...Set to the lyrics of "Closer"
by Nine Inch Nails.
SPOILERS: None Really, as most of this is AU...a reference to S6 and
to "Once More With Feeling" but that's really all
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Feedback Welcome. If you have an aversion to girl-girl
sex, don't read it. there isn't alot, though...cause i'm not sure how
good i am at writing it. So if you like what you do see, let me
know...i might get brave. 
WARNING TO ALL HARDCORE BUFFY/WILLOW FANS: Most of this chapter is
Faith/Willow...but I'll get there...


**Prologue**

	Faith padded down the hall to the bathroom, her hand lazily
scratching at her stomach between the black t-shirt and boxers she
wore. As she neared Willow's bedroom, she heard her screaming out. "Oh
my god! Tara! No!" Faith ran to the witch's room, concerned for the
woman she now considered her friend. <Friend, that's a laugh,> the
dark slayer thought. <You know you want more than that.> She shook the
thoughts away, replacing them with concern as she opened the door. 
	"Noooooooo!" Willow screamed as she thrashed around on the bed,
nearly knocking her head on the nightstand. Faith ran to her side,
hurredly getting into bed beside the witch, wrapping her arms and legs
around the smaller woman, making sure she couldn't do harm to herself.
	"Relax, Red, shhh. It's okay, I'm here. Not gonna let anything happen
to you." <That's for goddamn sure!>
	Willow struggled against Faith for a few more moments, before her
eyes snapped open as another "No" died away from shuddering lips.
"Faith! Oh my goddess, what are you doing..." her voice trailed away
as the slayer shushed her.
	"Relax, hon,<hon? oh my god i shouldn't have said that!>You were
having a nightmare."
	"A night...oh...Tara..." Willow softly moaned and started to sob.
"Will it ever end, Faith? I miss her so much...but I can't go on this
way."
	"I know Red, relax. I'm gonna go pee, okay? But I'll be right back."
The urgency in Faith's midsection was verging on pain. She went to the
bathroom, and came back as quickly as she could. She got back on the
bed, and put an arm around the red-head.
	"I'm here for you Willow." <Oh crap. First hon, now calling her by
her name? What am I getting myself into?>
	Willow put her head on Faith's shoulder. "I..I Don't know how to ask
this, Faith..." The witch's voice trailed off in a sea of unease.
	"Go ahead, Red. I'm listening."
	Willow looked up curiously at the slayer. She was being awfully nice,
and Willow had a hard time just now wrapping her cute, red little head
around it. "Well, it's j..just...w..will you stay with me?" Willow
braced herself for the rejection.
	"No prob, Red. I'm not going anywhere." Faith slid down the bed, and
rolled over slightly so she was facing the woman in her arms. She
wiped the tears from Willow's cheeks and put her free arm around the
witch. "Go ahead and try to sleep. I'll be here if you need me." The
urge to kiss the red-head in her arms was almost overpowering the
brunette, and if she didn't close her eyes, she doubted she'd be able
to contain herself. Her eyelids fluttered, and when she opened them,
Willow had closed her own green orbs. 
	
	Opening her eyes ever so slightly, Willow realized Faith had fallen
asleep. <Thank Goddess...> she thought. <I didn't know if i'd hold out
much longer.> She let herself sink against the dark slayer and soon
fell asleep herself.

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Faith opened her eyes, and realized the wonderful dream she'd been
having, consisting mainly of having Willow in her arms, was
alarmingly, not a dream. She almost bolted from the bed, but
remembering the night before, thought better of it. <She needs me.>
She thought. <She needed someone, and I was there. I'm not gonna hurt
her, I fucking swear it.> She watched the red-head open green eyes
that Faith wished she could fall into and drown in. 
	"Mmmm. Faith?"
	"I'm here Red." Faith stroked Willow's hair, pushing a stray strand
behind her ear.
	"I'm glad you stayed."
	"Me too."
	"I felt..." Willow faltered, unsure of how to say the next words.
	"Go ahead."
	"I..I felt Safe with you here." A blush began to creep up the witch's
neck and face, turning her ears bright red, matching her hair.
	"I'm glad. I really am." Faith felt a stirring, and started to blush
herself, not wanting Willow to see her like this, she opted instead
for extricating herself from the tangle of Willow, and yawned.
	"Do you have to go? I could use some company for a while. Not ready
to get up yet."
	"Okay, Will. no problem." <Ah shit. Now you've done it.> Faith slowly
turned back toward the witch, bracing herself for the question she
already saw on Willow's face.
	"Will? You never call me anything but...Red." Willow blushed a little
deeper at mentioning the nickname herself out loud, though she'd
called herself that dozens of times alone at night, her hand working
furiously, wishing it were Faith's.
	"Well, I..uh..." Faith blanched. "I..."
	A slow smile spread over Willow's face, as the situation dawned on
her. Maybe there was hope, after all. "It's okay, Faith...I understand."
	"Y..you d..do?"
	Willow put her hand on the dark slayer's waist, where her t-shirt
didn't quite meet the boxers rolled at her hips. "Yes, I do." The lust
was unmistakeable in the red-head's pale green eyes.
	"But...the nightmare...Tara..."
	"It was a nighmare, Faith, I have them alot since..." Willow trailed
off, knowing the slayer would understand. "But I've moved forward.
Maybe not on, exactly, but...I know Tara would want me to...move on,
that is...she'd want me to be happy."
	Faith thought about that for a moment, before realizing that the
other woman was right. Tara was a wonder of a woman, and her love for
Willow meant she would want the witch to move on, and be happy. The
slayer lay down next to the red-head again, enveloping her in her
arms. She sighed, feeling a sense of peace she hadn't known in a long
time.
	Willow leaned over, and trapped Faith's lips with her own. Faith
hesitated, then submitted to Willow's questing tongue. Willow felt her
need grow, and was sure the dark slayer's hightened senses were
keeping her steadily informed. She deepened the kiss, and let her hand
fall to the other woman's breast. Cupping her through her t-shirt,
Willow toyed with Faith's nipple, alternating between light passes,
and rough touches. Faith gasped into the red-head's mouth, and broke
off the kiss as her head fell back in response. Willow attached
herself to Faith's neck, and bit her, first lightly, then more rough.
Hearing the other woman's moans, she was encouraged, and her hand
rubbed down the slayer's body, stopping to cup Faith's firm, rounded
ass. Faith trailed her hand along Willow's side, and brushed down her
cheek, where tears had been only hours before. As the witch looked up
at her, Faith drew in a sharp breath, taken by surprise by the
incredible eyes staring at her, green eyes darkened by passion.
<Oh...my...god...>Faith ran her hand back down to cup Willow's small
breast, teasing the nipple through her pajama top, before slipping
under it to stroke the hard peak.
	"Oh...my...goddess..."
	<My thoughts exactly!>
	Faith leaned down, kissing Willow again, and, closing her eyes, felt
her run her hands over her thighs, stopping at the rolled waistband of
the boxers. "Mmmm..." Opening her eyes again, she saw the green orbs
looking questioningly at her. "Mmmm...yes...Red...please...Willow..."
	Willow felt a surge in her core when Faith said her name, and with a
new confidance, slipped her hand inside the boxers, finding no
panties, as Willow expected. She slipped her fingers into the juice
pouring from Faith's sex, and began stroking her clit. 
	"Mmm...oh god Willow..." Faith scratched her fingernails down
Willow's back, making the red-head arch into her. The dark slayer then
fingered the witch's own waistband, looking into her eyes.
	"Ohh yes, goddess...please Faith..."
	Faith ran her fingers under the pj bottoms, over Willow's butt,
before reaching down to where Willow was even wetter than she herself
had been. Sliding a finger inside, the slayer started moving in and
out, slowly at first but gaining momentum as she felt herself get
closer. "Willow...Willow..."
	Willow removed her hand, and Faith moaned. "I want to taste you," the
wicca breathed into her lover's ear, pulling at the boxers in her way.
Faith quickly complied, removing the soaked shorts, and Willow moved
downward, kissing Faith's belly, and her thick thatch of almost-black
hair. Spreading the slayer, Willow breathed in the musk of Faith, and
slid her tongue between the swollen lips and over the sensitive nub.
Faith cried out, chanting Willow's name like a mantra.
	"Willow...Willow...Will...ohhhh!"
	Willow entered Faith with her tongue, and reached up to caress her
breasts. Faith felt the rising of her orgasm, and bucked wildly
against the wicca's face, while Willow continued to fuck her with her
tongue, riding out the wave of Faith's pleasure.
	Still shuddering, Faith used her slayer strength to flip Willow over
to face her, and pulled the red-head's pants off. Kissing Willow with
urgency, she slid her hand back down between Willow's legs, and
slipped a finger inside her.
	"Faaiiiithhh!" Faith's name became a shriek as she fucked the other
woman, Willow shaking on Faith's hand as she, too, reached her peak.
Faith gathered the wicca into her arms, and looked into her eyes.
	"Hmmm...I liked that." Willow smiled playfully. "'S'been a long time,
y'know?"
	"Shhh...yeah, I know." <Believe me, I know. And if I have my way, it
won't ever be again.>
	Willow's eyes fluttered closed, and soon Faith heard even breathing.

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Chap 1.

Willow lazed in the backyard, enjoying the sun. <Wonder when Faith is
getting home?> The wicca smiled to herself. <Wish she was here
now...>The sun disappeared from the sky suddenly, and she opened her
eyes to look up at her girlfriend. "Hi."
	"Hi yourself, gorgeous." Faith sat on the arm of the chair Willow was
sitting in, and leaned down for a kiss. Breaking the kiss after only a
moment, she looks down at the red-head. "So, what do you think about
going out for a night?" Faith asked, smiling at her lover.
	"Hmm...kinda dangerous..."
	"With big, nasty, slayer-y me to protect you?"
	"We-ell...what did you have in mind?"
	"Well some of the newbies are going to this goth club a few miles
outside of town...Thought it could be cool."
	"That does sound kind of fun...even though I was hoping to have you
to myself for the night." Willow grinned mischeviously and licked her
bottom lip.
	Faith felt her whole self tingle, but forced herself to reply in what
she hoped sounded like a normal voice. "Well you could always have me
afterwards..."
	Willow reached up wrapped her slim fingers around Faith's neck and
pulled her down for a kiss. "Hm...okay, you have a deal."
	"It'll be cool, I promise...Red..." Faith knew the nickname drove the
red-headed witch crazy.
	"I'm sure..." She jumped out of the chair, and started for the house.
	"Hey?! Where are you going?" Faith started to follow her girlfriend.
	"To shower and change, silly. I wanna look good, don't I?" Willow
smiled suggestively, and walked into the house without another word.
Faith ran after her, into the house, and up the stairs, only to find
the bathroom door locked, and walking further down the hall, the
bedroom door as well. <Red's in there, and I can't even get to the
adjoining door to the bathroom...> Faith walked back down the stairs,
running smack into Buffy. 
	"Whoa! Sorry, Faith. Didn't see you. Hey, are you alright?" The
blonde slayer looked at her counterpart, and saw the defeated look on
her face.
	"Yeah, I'm fine, don't worry about it...Red locked herself in the
bathroom/bedroom, and won't come out."
	Buffy looked concerned, "Is she okay?"
	Faith laughed. "Yeah B, don't worry your pretty head...she's getting
changed for the club we're going to tonight, and won't let me see."
	Buffy's face brightened. <Lover's Quarrel.> "Oh is that it? You look
like somebody died. I'm sure your libido will hold out" <But will
mine? Huh? Where'd that come from? Oh no...not again...>
	Faith chuckled again. "Yeah probably." She walked passed the blonde
slayer and sat on the couch, flipping through TV channels.

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	Buffy walked up the stairs, and stopped by the bathroom door,
listening before knocking.
	"Oh...oh...Mmm..buffy..Mmm.."
	<Sound's like Willow's having fun in the show...wait...did she say my
name?> The slayer looked at the door as if it might answer her mind's
question, and listened again.
	"Mmm.buf..Buffy.Mmmm.."
	<Oh my god...she is!> Buffy knocked on the door. "Wills? I need to pee."
	"What? Oh sure Buff, be right out..." Willow called out, Buffy
noticing the nervousness in her voice. Less than a minute later, Buffy
heard the bathroom door unlock, and Willow poked her head out of her
bedroom door, a few feet away. "G'head, Buff...I'm out...I
mean...y'know, out of the shower." Willow blushed, and withdrew her
head with an audible 'eep'.
	 Buffy stepped into the bathroom, and coming out a minute later,
knocked on the door that had once belonged to Willow and Tara, and now
held Willow and Faith. Jealous as she was, she had always assumed that
the red-head would not return the feelings she hid from the world, 
but after hearing Willow in the bathroom just now, well...she thought,
she'd, well she wasn't sure what she was going to do.
	"Wills?"
	"Come on in Buffy."
	Buffy blushed when she walked in and saw Willow in a bra and panties.
"Uh...what club are you guys going to?" Buffy tried to sound normal.
	"Some goth club Faith found, or something."
	"Cool."
	"Yeah, we kinda thought so. You wanna come? Some of the potentials
are coming."
	<Hmm...> Buffy thought the prospect of watching the witch dance
fluidly between steaming bodies was more than she could handle,
but...well, she would see about it later.
	"I might catch up with you guys after I patrol." Buffy looked
everywhere but her friend. Luckily, Willow didn't seem to notice.
	"Cool." Willow buttoned up her leather jeans, a present from Buffy a
long time ago, and put on a sexy black top she borrowed from Dawn.
"How do I look?"
	<Good enough to eat.>"Great." Buffy smiled. "You look really good,
Wills."
	"Thanks."
	"You're welcome. I gotta go take a shower before I patrol. I smell
like hamburger."
	The wicca smiled. "No prob, bob. I'll see you later." Willow turned
back to her dresser trying to pick out a nice scent to wear that night.
	Buffy grabbed her shower stuff, and locked herself in the bathroom,
careful to make sure the door leading directly to Willow's room was
locked. Stripping slowly, she turned the water on, and stepped in.

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	Willow came down the stairs, and walked into the living room, where
Faith and Dawn were watching music videos.

you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you

help me I broke apart my insides,
help me I've got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me,
help me get away from myself

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

	"Oh...my...Dawnie!" Willow listened to the lyrics, thinking of Buffy,
then realized that Dawn was bopping her head to those same lyrics.
	"Oh please." Dawn rolled her eyes. "Get over. This is so tame."
	Faith just looked at Willow, a hungry look in her eyes.
	"Hon, you're turn to change. Buffy's in the shower though, so you'll
have to wait a few minutes." Willow purposefully avoided her
girlfriend's gaze. If she looked, she'd scream with her jumble of
emotions right now.
	"Fine...Grr...Argh..." Faith got up, and passing Willow on her way
upstairs, smacked her lightly on the ass.
	"Uhm...hello? Don't wanna see that." Dawn held a hand up in front of
her face, blocking them from her view.
	"Oh please. Get over, D. This is sooo tame." Faith mocked Dawn,
laughing as she went up the stairs.

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	Faith walked into her bedroom, and over to the door leading to the
bathroom, listening to see if Buffy was finished yet.
	"Mmm..oh god, Willow..."
	Faith backed up, a look of shock on her face. <B? muttering about
Willow? While she's...oh my god...>
	She backpedaled till she hit the bed, and Called out. "B? you done? I
need to get going."Faith's slayer hearing let her hear the 'Oh shit'
from Buffy, before the more audible, "Just a second."
	Faith just shook her head, and gathered her clothes.

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	Willow stared at the video on TV, listening to the lyrics.

help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else

	<Oh my goddess...that's the way I feel about Buffy...Wait! what am I
talking about...what about Faith? Goddess, I even babble in my head.>
	"Dawnie, what's the name of this song?"
	Dawn scrunched up her nose in thought. "Umm...'Closer'. by Nine Inch
Nails."
	"Okay." <Mental note. DOWNLOAD THAT SONG!>

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive

	Lost in thought, Willow didn't even realize how long had gone by,
until Faith was standing in front of her, looking yummy in her usual
black leather pants, and black t-shirt.
	"Shall we?" Faith asked, helping Willow to her feet.
	"I think we shall." Willow said, hoping she sounded cheerful, feeling
only miserable for lying to her girlfriend. <Lying my ass. I'd
forgotten all about my feelings for Buffy, until I heard...her...in
the shower...It's not my fault.> 

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	Willow danced like she had a proverbial demon inside her. She
shuddered at the thought, remembering her and her friends' run-in with
Sweet. All the same, it felt good to dance. The release of it, and to
this song, too. <This fucking song!>

you let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
you let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you

help me I broke apart my insides, help me I've got no soul to sell
help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself

	Willow spun around, and spotted Buffy, standing on the edge of the
dance floor, watching her, a hungry look in her eyes.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

	Willow returned the look, knowing what was happening, and couldn't
stop it.

you can have my isolation, 
you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, 
you can have my everything

	Buffy moved toward Willow, on the dance floor, and pressed her body
against her best friend's.

help me tear down my reason,
help me its' your sex I can smell
help me you make me perfect,
help me become somebody else

	Buffy was mouthing the words to Willow now, <I didn't even know she
knew this song.> pressing tighter together, finally reaching up to the
taller red-head, and claiming her lips.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive

	Willow broke this kiss, to see Faith staring at her from across the
room, and then, she was gone.

you can have my absence of faith, 
you can have my everything

	Feeling guilty, but unable to contain the feelings she's held for so
long, she kissed Buffy again, and pressed herself even tighter against
her.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god

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	Buffy and Willow stumbled up the stairs, and into Buffy's bedroom.
Quickly stripping each other, they returned to their kiss, smashing
their lips against one another. Buffy ran her fingers over Willow's
nipples, and Willow ran her nails down Buffy's back. Buffy broke away
from their embrace, grabbed the CD remote, and pressed play, as they
began kissing again.

through every forest, above the trees
within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
you are the reason I stay alive




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