FIC: Back to the Middle 1/?

["Tiffany" <tstewart31@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

Title -Come back to the Middle 1/?

Author - Stewie

Pairing - B/? 

Rating - PG

Summary - It takes place at the end of the summer just before 
season  7. Just Buffy's take on her current situation after a slow 
night of slayage.

Disclaimer - Buffy the Vampire Slayer belongs to Joss and a couple 
other folks whose name I don't know. I wish I had come up with the 
idea but...i'm not that talented.

Authors notes - This is my first fic and, incidentally, the first 
time I've ever written anything  for fun. So imagine my surprise 
when I realized that i had fun writing this. Long story 
short...eventhough this probably sucks, I got more coming.:)   
Please send all happy thoughts to TStewart31@xxxxxxxxxxx
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 Who would of thought that so much would of changed in one

year...hell, in three months? Spike's disappeared. Giles...thinking

about him makes my blood boil. Anya left...Xander followed her, and 

Tara...I don't think I'll ever be able to deal with that. I know 

that her death isn't my fault directly but I still can't shake the 

feeling that I could of done something more to prevent it. 
  

 I still can't  believe I let Dawn go live with dad in Paris for 

the school year...but,she was so happy that he knew who she was and 

that he wanted to spend time with her, not to mention that I wasn't  

to keen on her going to the 'New and Improved' sunnydale high, so I 

crumbled and let her go...and woah babble much. i miss her a lot but 

we seem to get along a lot better with an ocean  between us, and 

with dad footing the phone bill we talk more then I ever remember us 

talking...ever. So I guess all is of the good for now, but I stiil 

can't wait to see her.
  

 Faith showing up on my doorstep came right out of left field. At 

the time, it seemed like everyone had just picked up and left me. 

Giles stealing Willow from me was when I thought I was going to 

crack. A few days after that Faith was knocking on my door, sporting 

her trademark smirk but her eyes seemed softer than I remember. My 

first instinct, as always, was to kick her ass into next Tuesday, 

then my common sense took over(thank god for that). The little guy 

sitting  on my shoulder backhanded me and reminded me that Willow 

tried to kill me, my loved ones and end the world and I forgave her 

so forgiving Faith should be a piece of cake. So I invited her in 

and she's been here since. If I'm being truthful with myself, she's 

helped me keep it together this summer. She came thought for me when 

I really needed her and... I'm just really glad she came back. I 

know I don't tell her enough but I am. We learned a lot about each 

other this summer. I never thought of Faith as a talker but if you 

can get on a subject that she's into there's no telling how long 

she'll go on for. I guess she  realized that the best way to shut me 

up was to talk about every and anything that came to mind. She even 

shared  her opinion with me about my feelings towards a certain 

redhead. Which is the real reason I'm still sitting out here on my 

back porch at one in the morning under the pretense of 'taking in 

the night air' after a slow night of slaying. When, again...if i'm 

being truthful with myself, I'm avoiding her. Just like I've been 

doing since she got back a month ago. It's not because I don't want 

to talk to her...I just don't know what to say. There's moment's 

where I feel like I'm gonna explode if I don't tell her everything 

that's going on in my head...stuff about the summer...how much I 

missed her...how much I love her. Then I see her and all the things 

that I had planned to say goes out the window. I'm not sure if it's 

nerves or what but I haven't  been able to start a real conversation 

with Willow yet. It just feels like were both waiting for something 

to happen that'll force us to talk to each other...i'm not really 

sure how to explain it. I just want to pick right up where we were 

before things went bad but I know that we're supose to have some 

big 'clearing the air' talk, but I don't need that talk...I 

understand why she did what she did, i'm not angry with her and 

could never hate her. The only thing I really need to get off my 

chest is how much i'm in love with her. And I know I should sit her 

down and tell her all this but I think i've already covered, as best 

as I could anyways, my inability to string together anything that 

resembles a coherent thought when she's around. And I know I can't 

start with 'I'm in love with you' . I don't want to put any more 

pressure on her then she has already and its way to soon after Tara.
  

 I still can't believe that Tara not here. she was the only one in 

the gang that I always saw making it to the blue haired stage in 

life. I always assumed that Will and Tara would always be together. 

Now I'm hoping that it might be me and Willow instead. I' don't even 

think Willow is interested in me. I've seem her checking out Faith, 

and eventhough I'm sure she's not ready for a relationship, I'm just 

as sure that whatever she thinking about when she's looking at 

Faith's ass is illegal in about thirteen states. I can't fault her 

for that though...Faith does have a nice ass, and she's the only 

person I know who's body seems to scream 'screw me'. Her and Faith 

have been spending a lot of time together too. (No thanks to me,of 

course) Right now I wouldn't be surprised if I found out they dating 

or something...





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