Changes...book 1...nc17 BW

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Changes 
book 1
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Joss' folk.
BW...nc17
Summary: Answer to the Scott challenge at IKOLY...hope it's suitable. 
Note: I consider Buffy dead when Will magicked the bullet out of her 
in season 6...hey, it's a me thing, sorry. 
{CHALLENGE: Takes place right after Buffy is kicked out of her house.
Buffy, lost and alone, gets an offer from the First Evil and accepts 
it, becoming the First's ally. They manage to find a way to release 
the "dark magic Willow" seen in season 6.
Must have:
-Evil! Buffy/Evil! Willow
- Kennedy either:
a) dying
b) being kidnapped
c) being tortured/otherwise harmed
d) hooking up with Dawn

- A Xander/Willow fight about Buffy just before she (Willow) turns 
evil

-Everyone feeling guilt about kicking Buffy out

-Kennedy and Willow breaking up
-and a happy ending for Buffy/Willow.}

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Buffy walked the empty, dark streets of Sunnydale, tears in her eyes. 
After seven years, it finally happened. Willow, her beautiful, always 
there by her side, Willow, had finally lost faith in her. The slayer 
had died 3 times, had sent her first love straight to hell, had 
fought vampire after demon after frankenstein soldier to hellgod. For 
the past seven years, Buffy Summers had lived the word pain every day 
of her life. 

And every bit of that paled in comparison to the pain she felt at the 
moment...the pain of her Willow, no longer believing in her.

She wiped her eyes as she stopped in front of the Bronze. The once 
fun, party place now just a silent shell. Her teary eyes looked up as 
her heart remembered and she couldn't help but want to go back...back 
to the good old days, when Willow still believed in her.

Buffy had to smile as she saw them there that first time after 
starting college. Even Giles had shown up, creating much choked back 
laughter. They had so much fun, the Scooby gang...she, Xander, Giles, 
Willow and Oz...Oz...Buffy found herself  growling under her breath 
and furrowed a brow at herself. She liked Oz...yeah, he hurt her 
Willow but he did come back, apologise and make things right. And 
when he saw how much Will loved Tara, he didn't cause problems. 
Tara...Tara...and again, the slayer found herself growling.

"Ok, what's up with this?" she muttered aloud.

"You love her."

Buffy turned around and came face to face with herself. 

"Oh man, you have to be kidding...I can't even get one of the big 
bads I've killed? I get myself?"

The First Buffy smiled. "What can I say...you've always been a bit 
vain."

Buffy's jaw dropped in insult. "I am not vain!"

The First shook her head. "Look, I don't have time for this...neither 
do you...plus, you're being all avoidy about the, you love Willow 
stuff and I can't let that happen. It's time you realize the truth."

Buffy glared at her evil twin. "What I am, is the slayer that's gonna 
kick you ass back to hell, which is where I assume you came from."

"You and what army? Oh gawd, did I so just say that? I swear, this 
whole Sunnydale gig, really wearing on my creativity. Look Buf...can 
I call ya Buf?"

"No."

"Ok, Buf, here's the deal...you, are alone...look around you..." The 
First looked around, then brought their eyes back to the slayer. "I 
see you, poor little slayer, all alone...no watcher, no sister, no 
Xander...and no fine red witch." The First smiled. "She is 
fine...hello, that ass alone is-"

Buffy swung her fist and, of course, fell right through herself. The 
First giggled.

"Uh oh, someone's a little touchy about their witch's ass."

Buffy picked herself up, glaring.

"I don't like evil talking about my family and their...parts."

The First grinned. "Giles ass...Xander ass...Spike ass...hmmmm, 
nothing...no attempts of face bashing, even tho' you know it's 
impossible. Now, let's try this one...fine, sweet, Willowy ass...all 
naked and-whoa there, champ!" It laughed again, as once again, Buffy 
attacked. "Can ya see it here, Buf, or do I need to get Hot Pocket 
here with his markers? You so have a thing for Red."

Buffy turned to face herself. "Willow is my best friend...I don't 
like things of evil discussing her...Willowy parts, got it?"

"Best friend...evil creature...ok, ok, so then, the little 
slayer...the one named after the great American president...what's 
her name...Lincoln? Clinton? Oh yeah, Kennedy...so then, she's not 
evil, she's one of you, so it's perfectly ok for her to not only 
discuss, but to actually be all over said Willowy parts." It smiled 
evilly. "Naked, sweaty, Willowy parts."

Buffy growled so loud, she scared herself. The First smiled contently.

"I rest my case. Come on, Buf, don't stand there and lie to yourself 
anymore...you love Willow and for so much more than a best friend...I 
bet you have spent a good time since the juniors arrived, thinking 
about your fellow slayer. Willow, your Willow, fucking a slayer that 
isn't you. First Tara...who was a beautiful blonde, by the way and 
now a slayer...help me out here, Buf...math, never my strong point. 
2+2=OPEN YOUR EYES! She's got it just as bad for you, duh!"

Buffy wanted nothing more at that moment, than to twist the neck of 
her other self slowly, until he felt the bones snap in her hands. 

"You're lying...that's what you do...lie, try to make us go crazy, go 
bad."

"And speaking of bad..." The First grinned. "How about that dark 
haired Willow, huh? Can we say hot stuff! That was some bad ass fight 
you two had...very impressive, Buf...tell me, honestly..." It moved 
closer, close enough that if it were corpeal, their lips would have 
touched. "How wet were you?"

Again Buffy swung and again, she fell. And again, the First laughed.

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"Willow, we did what we ha-"

"Giles, shut up!"

The Englishman looked more taken aback and sickened than Xander had 
ever seen him...and that was saying alot. After all, he never thought 
Giles could look more sickened than he did the time he found Xander 
and Anya doin' the naughty in his bed.

"Will," he began, taking her hand.

Willow pulled back as if she'd been burnt. "No Xander...we were 
wrong...oh goddess, more wrong that we've ever been..." She look at 
him with tears in her eye. "We turned on her, Xander...we betrayed 
her...Buffy, our Buffy...oh goddess, I turned my back on my Buffy."

"Your Buffy?" Kennedy cracked, coming into the kitchen. "So it's true 
then...all the crap Faith and Anya have been saying...all this, 
Willow and Buffy are too stupid to see how they really feel about 
each other, crap." The slayer eyed the witch hard. "You're in love 
with Buffy."

"Hey, Anya and Faith have issues," Xander quipped. "Will and Buf have 
been-"

"Yes."

Willow's soft yet firm declaration stopped Xander in his tracks and 
he turned to his oldest, bestest friend so fast, it hurt his neck.

"Huh?"

"Dear lord." Giles removed his glasses and rubbed his temples. How 
the bloody hell could he have missed it? "How the bloody hell could I 
have missed this?" he muttered, leaving the room.

Kennedy stepped closer to Willow, her dark eyes hard on green ones. 
The slap surprised everyone...and Xander truly believed that it hurt 
him more than it did Willow, his own hand flying to his cheek as he 
eyes watched his friend not flinch under the impact of the slayer's 
hand.

"Go find your precious Buffy...I don't want anything to do with you." 
And with that said, Kennedy left.

"Will," he began.

"Don't...you wanna come help me find her?"

"She's outta control, Will...I love Buffy just as much as you do, you 
know that...but she's wrong on this one."

"No, no she isn't...Xander, goddess, I'm so sorry about your eye, you 
know that...and Buffy, the guilt...but you followed her, no questions 
asked...just as you have for the past seven years...you've always had 
faith in her, Xander...we've always had faith in her...I can't lose 
faith now."

"That's good to know, Red."

Willow turned and found the smirking dark haired slayer.

"I'm going to find Buffy."

Faith nodded. "I figured as much...gotta admit, Red, seeing you turn 
your back on her, wigged the hell outta me."

"Willow, you can't go out there alone," Xander said.

She turned to him. "So you're not coming with me?"

He shook his head. "I can't, Will...not this time."

Without another word, Willow turned and made her way out the back 
door...she had to find Buffy.

She had to.
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"So ya see, Buf...Willow...the whole, evil veiny Cher hair 
thing...was due in part, alot, to you."

Buffy ran her hands through her hair. She couldn't believe she was 
sitting on the Bronze stage, listening to the world's oldest 
evil...who incidently, looked excatly like her...explain how her 
dearest, beloved Willow was in love with her just as much as she was 
in love with Willow.

The slayer wanted to argue, to yell, scream, hit, slay...but all she 
could do, was listen. From the moment she allowed herself to believe 
that everything being said could in some, minor way, be true, 
listening was all she could do. She was in love with Willow. She had 
been since that day on the bench at Sunnydale High. Oh, she loved 
Angel...and Riley, in some small way. Hell, she even had a soft spot 
for Spike.

But as she sat there, her mind replaying every second spent with each 
of them, she knew, knew without a shadow of a doubt, her heart had 
always been with the redheaded witch. Anger and jealousy, long pushed 
back flooded through and showed itself...Oz, Tara, Kennedy...

She could have more understanding for Oz...after all, she had been 
all, oh Angel, oh Angel...it was only fair that Willow have someone 
to oh over. And Tara...well, Oz had been such a prick...it was easy 
to understand why Willow had found comfort in those gentle arms. 
Plus, can we say, soldier boy?

Buffy really wanted to kick herself at that moment...had she only 
been more aware, less self involved, she could have been those gentle 
arms. Oh well, no use kicking over stupid selfishness. That was then, 
this was now...and now there was Kennedy...

Buffy growled and the First smiled.

Kennedy who was, no doubt at the moment, comforting HER Willow...in 
naked, sweaty ways.

"Buffy, just admit it...admit that you love Willow...that you are in 
love with her...and I promise you, you will have her."

"She hates me now...she was with them...she was ridin' the 'throw 
Buffy out' train."

"She was scared...of her feelings for you...trust me, she's as in 
love with you as you are, with her."

Buffy cocked a brow at herself. "Trust you? Ok, where do I begin with 
that one?"

The First chuckled. "Ok, I'll give ya that. But seriously, 
Buffy...all good, evil, work stuff aside, don't you think it's time 
you have some real happiness?"

Buffy sighed. "Would be nice."

"Then admit it...for your own sanity."

Buffy thought about Willow and smiled big. "I am in love with 
Willow...MY Willowy witch."

"Feels good, huh?" The First smiled.

Buffy nodded, smiling herself. "Yeah, oh gawd yeah...I'm in love with 
Willow! I'm IN LOVE with MY WILLOW!"

"Sing it, sister!"

Buffy laughed...actually laughed, falling back onto the stage, 
holding her tummy, laughing as she repeated her new mantra over and 
over. The First grinned evilly and made it's move.

"Well, now that that's out in the open...tell me, slayer...what are 
ya gonna do about Kennedy?"

to be continued.....

















Willow: "It's a good fight, Buffy, and I want in."
Buffy:  "I kinda love you."
                     'Choices'

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