So In Trouble, by Red...BWC...NC17...WARNING...deals with self harm

["cocoachanel67" <red.slayer@xxxxxxxxx>]

So In Trouble
book 1
Red
joss' folk.
BWC...that's right, kids, tryin' somethin' new!
NC17
Summary: Buffy and Cordy have a deal with their witch...if Willow 
feels like being bad, she goes to them. It's been 6 months of no bad, 
so they plan a special surprise for their Willow...Yes, as usual, 
this deals with self harm...sorry, it's my vent.
This is for Rebecca Z...who mentioned she may read a bwc.

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Cordelia Chase ran up the front walk and let herself in the front 
door. She was so excited, she was ready to burst! Xander and Anya had 
picked Dawn up after school and had taken her to L.A. to vist Angel 
and the gang, thus leaving the house completely to she, Buffy and 
Willow for the entire weekend.

And oh, did she and the slayer have plans for their witch!

Buffy had picked up all the supplies earlier, while Will was in class 
and dropped them off at the house. And now she was picking Will up 
from class and running a few 'errands', which meant that Cordy had 
approximately half an hour to shower and set up the room for their 
first night of freedom.

Kicking her shoes off, she rumaged through the bags on the bed, 
praying that Buffy had gotten everything on the list she'd given her. 
Cordy had wanted to go herself, but her pain in the butt boss 
wouldn't let her have an extra long lunch so she was forced to trust 
the slayer. Not that she didn't trust her...hello, she loved the 
fashion victim. But this, the whole, romantic set up, this was the 
May queen's speciality and she really wanted everything perfect for 
this very special weekend.

It was an anniversary, a very special one.

Plus, it was their first time alone in the house since Joyce had died 
and they had moved in to take care of Dawn. Cordy paused in her 
rummaging, a wave of sadness washing over her. She missed the eldest 
Summers so much, it made her heart ache. Joyce has always been a 
mother to all of them, herself included. When Cordelia had found 
herself involved with the already involved, Buffy and Willow, Joyce 
had welcomed her with open arms. Not once, did she ever treat her 
with anything but love and kindness.

The woman the entire gang called mom had been dead almost 2 years now 
and they still cried.

Shaking herself out of it before she started crying, Cordelia pulled 
the nighty from the box and smiled. Willow was so going to look hot 
in the white lace. Laying it on the bed, she checked out  the naughty 
toy bag. 

"Oh nice," she purred, smoothing her finger sover the cherry wood 
paddle. "'And just the right size for that sexy little witch ass!"

Cordelia Chase was a closet domme...in the nice way. Both she and 
Buffy played the role perfectly to Willow's adorable little brat, but 
all three knew that when push came to shove, the slayer weilded the 
true paddle. Buffy was the, for lack of a better word, top of the 
trio, Cordy snuggling in the middle with Willow resting nicely at the 
bottom. Of course, everything they did was of mutual consent and 
everyone had a safe word just in case. They weren't into the s&m, no, 
what they liked, Willow had affectionately termed, creative 
theatrics...role play, nice, comfy bondage and lots of spanky! 

Cordelia giggled. Willow was so the spanko! Her favorite place was 
lying over their laps. Not that she was complaining...no, she very 
much liked having the witch's ass at her disposal...and the slayer's 
too, when the occasion arose. Buffy had love for the corpral 
punishment herself, tho' not nearly as bad as Willow. Cordy herself 
loved a nice warm behind, but Willow...The redhead was practically 
addicted, tho' neither of them were complaining. Aside from the fact 
that they both loved her ass and touching it was one of the great 
happys in the world, it was better, way way better, than her other 
addiction.

Cordelia had been totally stunned when she found out that Willow was 
a self harmer. The girl seemed to have everything, why would she do 
it? Cordy found out she'd been doing it since high school and yes, 
felt more than a little guilt. Her mind couldn't get passed the, how 
many times did I cause her to do it, stage. After they had become a 
trio, Buffy had spent hours talking to her about it, explaining 
everything to her, but that still didn't ease the guilt. A session 
with the slayer's paddle had eventually done that. Still, Cordelia 
would never forget the way she found out...she had walked in on her 
in Giles' bathroom, by accident, and caught her with a razor blade to 
her thigh. To say she was shocked, was the understatement of the 
year. Although, something good did come from it. The sight of the shy 
redhead harming herself had jolted Cordy's head to finally get with 
her heart and tell both Willow and Buffy how she felt about them. 
That led to a long night of deep conversation and by morning, Buffy 
and Willow were Buffy and Willow and Cordelia.

Talk about enlightment. 

That night, was the night of discoveries for Cordelia...Willow's self 
harm, the slayer and the witch's feelings for her...Buffy's spanking 
of Willow for doing bad. Oh yeah, Willow may have loved the spanky, 
but not when it was for punishment. And whenever Willow harmed 
herself, she was punished. It was something that Willow, herself, had 
come up with. She had talked to Buffy about it and an agrangement had 
been made...when Willow felt the need to, as she said, do bad, she 
was to go to Buffy. Buffy would give her a nice spanking and 
hopefully, the urge to do bad would go away. It usually did. However, 
if Willow didn't come to Buffy, if Willow did bad, then the slayer 
did punish her. 

Buffy never hurt her witch. Cordelia knew that before she ever saw it 
happen. There was no way the slayer would ever hurt Willow. But, as 
Cordy saw that night, Buffy did punish her. The ex cheerleader would 
never forget that first spanking she witnessed. She had felt so sorry 
for Willow...then she remembered seeing her with the blade, cutting 
into her own flesh...

When she became involved with the slayer and the witch, they had 
agreed that she would also partake in this. Willow could go to her, 
just as she did Buffy. And, if Willow did bad, then both Cordelia and 
Buffy would punish her. Buffy suggested it and Willow fully agreed to 
it. She trusted them with her very life and needed them...their 
strength, their support...and their word to be kept if she did 
stumble.

It had been 6 months since she had stumbled and Cordelia and Buffy 
were so thrilled, they decided to reward her...and this weekend, was 
that reward.

Six months of Willow no self hurty.

Cordelia smiled as she went through the candles...sniffing and 
nodding her approval.

"You did good, slayer...everything just as listed. Now let's so hope 
I have no calls from the PTB's this weekend."

She placed the candles about the room...on the dressers...the bedside 
tables, smiling as she did, the mental of the redheaded witch in the 
new nighty dancing in her head. Once she was finished, she placed the 
nighty in the chair, along with the now empty bags and took a moment 
to admire the silky sheets.

It had cost them way more than they could afford, but both she and 
Buffy had agreed that Willow was worth it and so the expensive 
bedding was purchased. Cordy ran her fingers over the fine, red silk 
and purred. Not only did it feel like heaven, but her two girls, 
naked and writhing in them...

"Oh yeah!"

Giggling, she hurried to get them on the bed and once she had, 
quickly undressed and hurried down the hall to shower.

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"What are you so smiley about?" 

Buffy turned her head looked at Willow, her best innocent face on. 

"Can't I just be happy?" she asked.

""Yes, but I know you...far too well, oh one who slays...and you have 
that look."

"What look?"

"The one you had when you and Cordelia decided that it was a good 
idea to give me my birthday spanking every day the week of my 
birthday."

The slayer grinned big. "That was a good idea."

"For you two, maybe...my poor bum was on pillows for the whole week."

"Like you hated it. Will, admit it, you have a spanking fetish."

It was Willow's turn to smile and as she did, her face turned the 
color of her hair.

"Maybe I don't mind a little, playful spanky."

Buffy turned to her so fast, she nearly sideswiped the stop sign.

"Mind? Maybe you don't MIND a little playful spanky? This from the 
girl who actually ordered engraved paddles online and gave them to us 
for, what was it, oh yes, Happy Tuesday!"

"It should be a holiday." Willow pouted. "Everyone loves the weekend, 
but Tuesday has feelings too, ya know."

Buffy smiled. Her witch was so darn adorable!

"Yes, I know...and we appreciated the gifts...and we use them, quite 
often."

The smile returned to Willow's face. "I can't believe I'm with you 
guys...I mean, when you and I got together, I was like...ok, I am so 
in love with this woman, I can't believe that she loves me. And then, 
big crazy evil comes to town, Cordy brings Giles a book and boom...we 
find out that she has feeling for us."

"And I find out that you have feelings for her," Buffy teased.

"Well, you were the one who was all, mmmmm with the mentals!"

Buffy laughed. "True, I admit it. I'm just glad that we sat down and 
talked, honestly, because if we hadn't, well..." She looked at 
Willow. "I've never been happier, Will...I love you so much...I love 
Cordy so much...it's like we're a set now...like, you and I, I was 
way happy then, don't get me wrong..."

"I know, baby, me too...I was so happy with you...but once I found 
out Cordy liked us...it was like..."

"Now that ya knew, you felt like a piece was missing from the 
puzzle?" Willow smiled and nodded. "Me, too."

Buffy pulled into the drive and parked.

"Hey, ya didn't get in the grass at all, yay you!"

She looked at her witch. "That's 10...and you know the rule, one 
spanks, both spank, so you've got 20."

"Hey! I was telling ya what a good job you did!" Willow protested as 
she got out of the car. "It was a compliment!"

Buffy choked back a laugh as she got Willow's bag from the backseat.

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Cordelia heard them come in and hurried to light the candles. The 
curtains drawn, she finished lighting and flipped the light off, 
turning the stereo on. Looking around, she smiled proudly.

"We are so the team, slayer."

"But Buffy, honest! I wasn't being a brat!"

Cordy giggled as she heard her witch's protest. Will must have made a 
driving comment.

"40, Will, wanna go for 50?" 

Hearing the slayer, Cordelia burst out laughing. She couldn't help 
it...they loved teasing Willow and they were both so good at it. 
Plus, their redhead loved it just as much...it was foreplay for them.

"Fine!"

The bedroom door flew open and a very pissy witch appeared. Cordelia 
smiled wickedly.

"Surprise!"

Willow's eyes widened and her jaw dropped.

"Surprise, brat," Buffy whispered, now standing behind her.

"Oh goddess...this is..." She looked around, the candles, the sheets, 
Cordelia's black gown. "For me? This is for me?"

Buffy wrapped her arms around her and kissed and nuzzled her 
neck. "Happy 6 months, sweetie."

"I want some of that action." Cordelia moved to them and wrapped her 
arms around them from the front.

"Happy 6 months, baby." She kissed Willow softly.

Willow felt the tears well up and started to cry.

"Awe, it's ok, sweetie," Buffy hugged her tighter, as did Cordelia.

"No, no it's not...oh goddess, is it not...I don't deserve this."

"Yes you do," Cordelia stated.

"No, no, oh goddess." Willow cried harder.

Buffy and Cordy looked at each oither, then moved their witch to the 
bed where the sat down, keeping her between them. Cordy rubbed her 
back while Buffy tried to figure out what was going on. It didn't 
take the slayer long.

"Willow, have you hurt yourself?" Her voice was soft, yet firm, her 
fingers tilting the redhead's chin so they were eye to eye. Buffy 
knew the answer but she needed Willow to say it...for her own 
sake. "Willow."

Willow nodded, crying harder. "Yes, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."

She fell into the slayer's arms and Cordelia looked to Buffy. 
Together, they embraced their witch tightly.

"It's gonna be ok, Will," Buffy soothed, stroking her hair.

"It will be, honey, we promise," Cordy affirmed, rubbing Willow's arm.

The seer and the slayer looked at each other again...both wearing the 
same worried expression...

to be continued...







Willow: "It's a good fight, Buffy, and I want in."
Buffy:  "I kinda love you."
                     'Choices'

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