Re: Fic: Simple Choices...NC-17 Buffy/Willow (20/?)

["bslayedw" <bslayed@xxxxxxx>]

Great update. I think the girls might not get the sleep they really 
need.


--- In buffywantswillow@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx, "Chris" <elizabethrex1@...> 
wrote:
>
> Disclaimer: All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, 
and 
> lots of people in expensive suits. I'm not making any money here, 
> just trying to create a happier Buffyverse for my favorite 
characters.
> Spoilers: General spoilers for S5, starting with "The I in Team." 
Eh, 
> who am I kidding? This is really AU now.
> A/N: Thanks to Ivy for pre-reading and Zigpal for the beta. There 
> would be no writing without you guys.
> 
> 
> "Perfect. Another benefit to being a Slayer." Willow winced at the 
> bitterness in Buffy's voice. "And just what prize did Faith and I 
win 
> this time?"
> 
> "Well, I?" Willow broke off, unable to meet the accusations in 
> Buffy's eyes. She hadn't meant to find a connection between Adam 
and 
> Buffy's Calling. Gritting her teeth, Willow forced herself to go 
> on. "I don't know for sure. What if Adam wants to use the Slayer 
in 
> his creations?"
> 
> "What?" Giles sat forward in his chair.
> 
> Tara looked worried. "Are you sure, Willow?
> 
> "You mean, he thinks Faith and Buffy are just going to go to the 
Dark 
> Side?" Xander asked.
> 
> A flurry of questions broke out all at once. Willow listened to 
the 
> cacophony, head pounding. "Shut up!" Maybe not the best choice, 
given 
> her headache, but the voices stopped. "I don't have all the 
answers. 
> It just makes sense. Buffy, Faith, you both made comments at 
Willie's 
> about the Slayer. It sounded like she was something completely 
> separate from you."
> 
> She looked at Buffy. The blonde Slayer gazed at the floor.
> 
> "You're almost there, Red." Faith's voice was quiet, completely 
> lacking her usual bravado. "For me, the Slayer?it's more like a 
> voice. When the adrenaline starts flowing, the voice whispers, 
> taunts, screams for more. There's a need to fight."
> 
> Giles stood up. "I believe it's got to do with the way the First 
> Slayer was created. The originating spell acted very much like 
Adam's 
> laboratory. The essence of a demon was melded into the body and 
mind 
> of a young girl. The Council, at the time, felt the only way to 
> defeat the forces of darkness was to harness some of that power 
for 
> their own use."
> 
> The Scoobies absorbed that information in silence. Their 
expressions, 
> though, gave away their feelings about the Council and their 
> treatment of the First Slayer.
> 
> "In other words, it might be possible for Adam to split the Slayer 
> from Buffy and Faith?" Joyce glared at Giles. "How do we keep that 
> from happening?"
> 
> "It's theoretically possible, I suppose." Giles sounded 
> frustrated. "However, there have been no documented cases of 
anyone 
> trying. I haven't the faintest notion of how to even attempt such 
a 
> thing."
> 
> Tara picked up when Giles broke off. "Magic." She blushed when 
> everyone looked at her. "He has to reverse the original spell the 
> Council used.'
> 
> Her response didn't impress the ex-Watcher. Willow saw Giles 
grimace 
> in distaste. "Young woman, magic is not the answer to everything. 
> After all this time, it would be impossible to remove the First 
> Slayer's essence from Buffy and Faith, by magic or any other 
means."
> 
> "I don't know, Giles. It makes sense." Buffy raised her head and 
met 
> his eyes. "Let's not rule it out so fast. What else could Adam 
want 
> with a Slayer?"
> 
> "Buffy, we cannot afford to waste more time-" Giles started.
> 
> A slim hand snapped up, cutting him off. "You're the one who's 
always 
> telling me to consider all the options before making a decision." 
> Buffy's voice was clipped and angry. "What is it with you and 
magic? 
> Tara and Willow are trying to help, and every time they have a 
> suggestion, you shoot them down."
> 
> Giles' hands curled into fists on his thighs, and he pressed his 
lips 
> tightly together.
> 
> Willow held her breath. The atmosphere in the room was charged 
with 
> tension as Buffy and Giles glared at one another. Remembering 
Buffy's 
> actions at the bar, Willow started to stand, afraid the two might 
> actually get physical.
> 
> "Jesus, B. Power down." Faith's voice shattered the scene. "You're 
> both missing the fucking point." She held up a hand, stopping 
Joyce's 
> instinctive protest at her language. 
> 
> "What point might that be?" Willow had never heard Giles sound 
quite 
> so stuffy and British.
> 
> Hands rubbing the thighs of her pants, Faith looked at the ex-
> Watcher. "Adam wants to add the Slayer to his arsenal. That means 
he 
> thinks it's an upgrade."
> 
> "Holy shmoly!" Xander sat forward so fast he almost knocked Anya 
off 
> the arm of the chair. "Good point, Faith."
> 
> "And again, I'm missing something." Buffy sounded more tired than 
> angry. "Xan, Faith, we've been at this a long time. We're tired. 
> Either this waits until we get some rest, and maybe I can 
understand 
> the big words, or you try explaining everything in great detail."
> 
> No one seemed to know how to respond to that. Willow watched the 
gang 
> look at each other. Finally, Joyce stood up and clapped her 
> hands. "Bedtime. No more big and important discussions until we 
all 
> rest."
> 
> "I'm not sure-" Giles started to object.
> 
> "I am sure. Right now, a first grader with a water gun could beat 
all 
> of us combined." Joyce glared around the room. "What are you all 
> waiting for? Find a room, find a bed, and start sleeping."
> 
> Faith was the first to react. "I ain't arguing. Been trying to get 
> some sleep since I got to this joint." 
> 
> Willow considered sleeping where she sat. She was so tired; 
letting 
> her eyes drop closed, she gave in to the exhaustion.
> 
> "Wills?" Buffy held out a hand in a silent offer to help her 
> up. "Don't fall asleep here. There's plenty of room in the back. 
> You'll be all broken if you sleep on the floor."
> 
> "Too tired," Willow whined. Still, she let Buffy pull her to her 
> feet. She shivered and flushed when her friend didn't release her 
> hand. 
> 
> Buffy gently dragged her out of the living room and into the large 
> suite where Buffy had napped earlier. "Here, climb under the 
covers." 
> Buffy's voice was soft and beguiling. 
> 
> Willow fought that voice. She didn't want Buffy so close right 
> now. "Where are you going to be?" The words sounded harsh, almost 
> angry.
> 
> "I?" Buffy cleared her throat. "Here?" she asked hesitantly.
> 
> "Buffy," Willow's voice wavered, "I don't think that's a good 
idea." 
> She blinked away sudden tears. She was too tired to deal with this 
> right now.
> 
> She watched Buffy wrap her arms around her stomach. "Yeah. Sorry." 
> The Slayer backed toward the door. Her hand was on the doorknob 
when 
> Willow heard her whisper, "I remember, Will. Everything."
> 
> ***
> 
> Buffy turned the knob, wanting to run again. Willow didn't want 
her 
> here. Even the thought made her friend cry. 
> 
> "Wait!" Willow's soft plea stopped her on the threshold. 
> 
> Huddling against the partially open door, Buffy peered over her 
> shoulder. "Yeah?" She forced the word from a tight throat.
> 
> "What do you mean, you remember?" Buffy flinched at the mix of 
pain 
> and hope in Willow's voice. Green eyes begged her to answer.
> 
> Buffy closed the door again and turned so she could lean her back 
> against the heavy wood. "After the thing in Willie's, I started to 
> get flashes." Searching for words, Buffy hunched her 
> shoulders. "Little things, really. You and me in the Bronze. 
Riley?" 
> her voice trailed off. When she spoke again, the words were mere 
> whispers, "?kissing you."
> 
> Movement drew her eyes up. Willow now sat on the bed, her head in 
her 
> hands. 
> 
> "Will, I'm sorry." The slim shoulders shook. Willow was crying. 
Buffy 
> took an instinctive step forward, reaching out to her friend ? 
then 
> stopped. Just a minute ago, Willow hadn't wanted her anywhere 
> close. "Tell me what to do, Will. I'll do it. Anything." Her voice 
> broke. "I never wanted to hurt you. I swear."
> 
> "I need to know, Buffy," Willow whispered hoarsely. "Why are you 
> sorry? For the kiss? For forgetting? Why?"
> 
> Shoving her shaking hands deep into her pockets, Buffy swallowed 
> audibly. Her throat ached. It hurt to breathe. Pulling in air 
through 
> her nose, she choked out, "For hurting you. For making you doubt 
my 
> friendship." Tears welled over and burned a steady path down her 
> face. "For telling you I loved you and then not remembering."
> 
> Willow's sobs were audible now. The sound pushed Buffy into 
action. 
> Quick steps brought her to the bed, and she knelt on the floor 
next 
> to Willow's knees. "Shh, Wills. It's going to get better. I 
promise." 
> She inched closer, wrapping her arms around Willow's waist and 
> resting her cheek on the redhead's thigh. 
> 
> Tentative fingers combed through her hair. "I'm sorry, too. I 
> shouldn't have freaked like that." A watery chuckle sounded over 
> Buffy's head. "I mean, if I spazzed over you suddenly not being 
> entirely straight, that makes sense. You forgetting the most 
> important moment of my life? What was I thinking?"
> 
> Buffy raised her head, gazing into Willow's damp green eyes. "We 
need 
> to talk, but not now, OK?" She released her grip on Willow's waist 
> and lightly stroked a thumb over the freckled face. "We need to 
get 
> some sleep. No way do I want Adam to win. I've got some serious 
> relationshippy things waiting."
> 
> "As soon as this is over, Buffy," Willow whispered back. "I don't 
> want to wait or go slow like we decided earlier."
> 
> Nodding her agreement, Buffy stood. "Whatever you want, Wills. 
Now," 
> her voice got firm, "get in bed. I don't want my girlfriend to be 
too 
> tired to cheer from the sidelines when I beat Adam to a pulp."
> 
> Her cocky comment got an eye roll as Willow slipped under the 
covers 
> and wiggled to the far side of the large bed. "You better get in 
> here, too." Willow's grin showed all her teeth. "You've had a busy 
> couple of days. I want you in fighting trim when we go against 
Adam."
> 
> "Don't have to ask me twice." Buffy pulled off her shoes and 
climbed 
> in next to Willow. Still leery of pushing too hard, she left 
several 
> inches of space between them. 
> 
> The space didn't last long. A warm body snuggled in close.
> 
> Buffy shuddered at the touch. Combing her fingers through the red 
> hair, Buffy fought her body. They needed sleep. 
> 
> Willow didn't help the situation. Green eyes peered up at her, and 
a 
> teasing smile spread slowly over Willow's lips. "Whatcha thinking, 
> Buffy?"
> 
> "You're evil." The words came out deep and husky. Desire raged.
> 
> "I am not." Buffy could hear the smile. Warm lips pressed against 
her 
> neck. "I just need smoochies?and more."
> 
> Pulling in a sharp breath, Buffy expected to incinerate on the 
spot. 
> She had to be strong. They had a big battle on the horizon. Sleep 
was 
> more important than making love right now. Staying very still, 
Buffy 
> worked on ignoring her arousal. "Sounds divine, Wills. Not now, 
> though. We need sleep. Lots of sleep. I'll be all worried about 
you 
> and not concentrate on Adam if you don't stop with the kissing and 
go 
> to sleep."
> 
> "Now who's evil?" Buffy watched Willow's lower lip pop out.
> 
> "Wills?" she pleaded desperately.
> 
>  Finally, Willow gave in. She rested her head on Buffy's 
> shoulder. "Good night, Buffy." She kissed Buffy's neck softly one 
> more time and yawned.
> 
> "Night, Will." Laying her right arm over Willow's shoulder, Buffy 
> closed her eyes, drifting into sleep.
>




Willow: "It's a good fight, Buffy, and I want in."
Buffy:  "I kinda love you."
                      --'Choices'

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