Part 1

Buffys thoughts

I loved Angel he was my first love, and for a while I fooled my self in to believing we were destined to be together, but it wasn’t meant to be I guess. I’ve been miserable since we…. What? Broke up? That’s not really the correct term but it’s as close I’m gonna get. Everywhere around me I see people being happy…Xander's happy Cordelia's happy what’s really funny is that they’re happy together. I’m happy for them. Willow is happy…She’s happy with Oz and I wanna be happy for them I really do but I can’t be because the truth is I don’t want Willow to be happy at least not with Oz.. I let my first love slip through my fingers I can’t let that happen again.

"I love you. I’m in love with you willow…. Now when I can say that out loud to her face I’ll be making real progress"

Buffy twirled as a sound from the bushes jolted her out of her wallowing. She pulled Mr pointy from her belt and mentally cursed vampires for always appearing when you were trying to be deep.

Willows thoughts

I sorta have this habit of following Buffy on patrol sometimes as an excuse to practice magik…Just small stuff protection spells and stuff like that. Nothing is happening which is weird cause that almost never happens in Sunnydale Buffy is muttering to herself she must be as board as I am. I should tell her that I’m hear then we can both just…did she just say what I thought she just said…Oh my God I have to get outta here.

"Who’s there" Buffy demanded, shifting her weight on the balls of her feet "I should tell you that interrupting a slayer is a crime punishable by…"

Willow stood up "Will what are you? I mean why would you? Did you hear?"

"I heard" was all Willow said there wasn’t any more to say was there, was there? "I should go cause…well grave yards…night…. Vampires…. Unsafe" This is definitely a bad time to start babbling thought Willow "well I’ll go then and I’ll see you at school…because we’ll both be there right? Well bye" Willow turned and walked away.

Three weeks later and things were different, both Buffy and Willow were trying to pretend that they were still best friends but they weren’t. Ever since that night at the graveyard when Willow had overheard something she shouldn’t, they never talked anymore, were never alone together.

"Baby I’ve gotta go band rehearsals, love you" Oz stood up and Kissed the top of Willows head. This left Buffy and Willow sitting on opposite sides of the cafeteria table. "Will we have to talk…"

"talking is good…." There was silence Willow felt as if she should say something "did you mean it when you said you loved me? Cause I love you too you’re my best friend and all…" Willow trailed to an end, that was what Buffy had to have meant wasn’t it? They were friends they’d been through so much together.

"Willow I do love you. You were my first real un-superficial friend" Willow and Buffy exchanged a small smile. "But I…I don’t remember when it started…but I’m in love with you…" Once the words were out of her mouth there was not going to be any taking them back and she was going to have to live with the consequences of what she had said.

Part 2

Buffy's in love with me. Buffy's in love with me.

Willows brain was completely incapable of processing any coherent thoughts at this point. It was still having trouble processing what Buffy had said.

"Buffy you’re my very best friend in the world. And I do love you, but I guess I just never thought of you…Y’know…That way"

"Oh" was all Buffy could say. That was that there was nothing more she could do she couldn’t force Willow to love her.

Were-Oz bounced off the walls of the book cage desperately an escape route. While Willow sat at the table, two days of avoiding Buffy later and she was still unable to come to terms with what had happened. She had refused to take calls whenever Buffy had called her house, had walked in the opposite direction when she saw her coming and had even for the first time skipped school to avoid classes she and Buffy had together. She didn’t want to accept that they’re friendship was over but she didn’t see what other choice she had.

"Oz" The wolf stopped at the sound of his name and stared at Willow growling softly. "Buffy is in love with me…I can’t discuss this with the human you so I guess I’ll tell you now. I told her that I’d never thought of her that way…But I have…I never wanted to admit it…I was always brought up to believe being gay was wrong. So when I started having feelings for Buffy I tried to convince myself that it was just friendship and gratitude, and anyway I had you, a cool boyfriend who was in love with me. I was starting to accept that I had these feelings for Buffy I would sit daydreaming about kissing her and telling her how I felt. But I thought they were just daydreams…And when I suddenly discovered she felt the same it scared me cause fantasies were safe real life is something different entirely" Willow felt better having got it off her chest, she still didn’t know what she was going to do, but she felt better. And settled down to wait for Xander to show up for his shift.

Oz was glad the full moon was over it meant his friends no longer had to give up their nights to stay with him. And normally it meant he could spend time with Willow but things were different recently Willow had been distant recently and it wasn’t just him she hadn’t been spending time with Buffy either. Oh well he supposed it was a girl thing she’d get over it. He rolled over and went to sleep and began to dream…. Oz was in wolf form…And Willow was there…Talking….

Oz woke up in a cold sweat and reached for his phone, Willows happiness ment everything to him and Buffy and him were close too, he wanted to help both of them find happiness. "Hello, Buffy, fine, no I’m alright but I need to see you, thanks bye." Dialling a different number "Willow, hey, no nothings wrong, but I need you to come over…Okay see you soon"

Buffy arrived at Oz’s place first and was surprised when he opened the door looking more sleepy than in fear of his life.

"Good I was hoping you would be here first we need to talk" This was the last thing Buffy expected to here from the usually non-committal Oz.

"Okay about what? Is everything okay? Is Willow okay?" The first thing on Buffys mind was to make sure Willow was all right.

"No…Buffy she loves you…trust me I know…I want Willow to be happy I thought we could be happy together, but she loves you…And…you love her"

Buffy was in shock that Oz had said that, Oz was in shock that he had said that. Then again he was a fairly straightforward person.

"You know…..Oh God I’m sorry…..Oz…..Buffy…..Buff" Willow stopped in her tracks she was shocked as she looked at her boyfriend and her…What? What was Buffy now? One thing was definite nothing was going to be the sane again…

Part 3

Buffy, Willow and Oz were standing on Oz’s front porch at stupid O’clock in
the morning.
“I hate to break up this party but I think I’m gonna get some more sleep” Oz
turned to re-entered his house.
“Oz wait we…need to…we need to talk” Buffy turned and walked down the path,
Willow had made her decision, the decision Buffy always knew she would.

Willow and Oz were left standing alone.
“You should go after her you know she thinks you don’t love her”
“But I love you…….”
“Willow don’t say that I love you and I always will…But you love Buffy, go
after her I understand” Oz gave a weak smile
“Thank you Oz…for everything…” With that Willow turned and pelted at full
speed down the road towards Buffys home and with any luck, a new start.

Buffy sat on her bed, eating choclate ice cream and listening to her Macy
Gray cd on a loop…This was especially strange for Buffy as it was 8 am.
Joyce was worried she was used to Buffys strange moods…but still…”who’s at
the door this early…Oh hello Willow…she’s here…no go right on up”

Buffy was enjoying moping in self pity, nothing was better for a good mope
than rejection and unrequited love. So the last thing she expected to happen
was for the object of her unrequited love to walk into her room, sit down on
her bed and proceed to say. “I love you I’ve always loved you I was just
frightened I never ment to hurt you and I hope you can forgive me.” Willow
looked nervously into Buffys eyes.
“Of course I forgive you, I love you too…”
Buffy wrapped her arms around Willow and kissed her girlfriend.

The End (and not before time)

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