Fwd: Snippet: Thoughts and Illusions

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Pt. 2
Hey again! Got some feedback so here's the end.

DISCLAIMERS: I don't own, won't ever own. Now read the story so I can
be by my lonesome! (does your gf count as lonesome?)



You're back?
Okay, whatever. Don't give me that look! I know, those weren't the
nicest words I could have chosen, that your the only one who's been
here to talk to, but I have had my memories.


'Can I sit here?'
'Why? I mean...'


There is lots of free time here, and I've spent a good bit of it
trying to figure out how long I have been in love with Willow. I'm
not sure if it was love at first sight. I'd like to say yes, but I
fell in love with Willow, not some gorgeous redhead. (Btw don't take
that as i don't find her attractive, because I do. I find her very
very atrractive.)


'Quit trying to protect me! Buffy...!'


I love that fire, that spark, that thing that makes her unique,
Willow.

Her passion.

She has a passion for any and everything. Schoolwork, her friends,
witchcraft. It shows in everything she does. So, no I can't say that
I was in love with Willow when I first met her.

Maybe it was that Halloween when she was a ghost? Not the ghost per
se, but the outfit before that.

'I look like a...'

Hot, beautiful, sexy, to die for.

No, I think I just wanted to see her wearing something dangerous. Or
maybe subconciously I was trying to tell myself something? (I did
learn something else from Proffessor Walsh besides Riley was a dork.)
(Grins)

I'va been thinking about us, all our time spent together. I said last
time that I think she loved me, but now that I have thought about it
(And I have had PLENTY of time!)I know she loved me also. All the
times I told her I loved her she told me it too. I've heard her say
it jokingly to Xander, but never serious, not like us.

I get kinda sad when I realize this, that maybe we could have been
together.

I know I would of had a much easier time jumping off that
scaffolding. Yes, I love her, but I know without a doubt, I would
have jumped off it the moment it occured to me. Well, after I had
told Dawn my messages. All I am saying is I would have been content.

I am so happy I ended up here. Don't look at me like that! Sure I
miss my Willow, but like I said I have my memories. This place isn't
all that bad. no demons to fight, no prophecies to advert, and no
homework!

All right that last one was stupid, but it doesn't matter. It's
actually....

peaceful here, and I figure I could have ended up somewhere worse.


The end.
-Angel
Hope i didn't mess it up :)
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