Re: [buffywantswillow] songfic challenge

[Peppy two <Willow4tara_2001@xxxxxxxxx>]

Well here's my bash at this songfic challenge, excuse
the poor writing it is my first songfic. I've been
sprred on by my muse Haychee to expand my writin
skills.

Disclaimer: the characters of 'Buffy the Vampire
Slayer' belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy and WB. No
copyright infringment is intended. The song is the
property of REM

~I've found a way to make you
I've found a way
A way to make you smile~

It's been nearly a month since I declared my love for
my best friend Willow. Those 3 words had been burning
inside me since Oz had taken off. All I had wanted to
do at the time was wrap my arms around her and tell
her, but the time just wasn't right and I was being
completely selfish in a stupid attempt at denial of my
feelings. I had let Riley consume my time. I've done
that a lot. I can see that all my relationships since
I arrived in Sunnydale hve had one thing in common,
they were never meant to last.

~I read bad poetry
Into your machine~

I hate to admit that my feelings for Angel had been
based on a lie, but they were. I was in love with
Willow before Angel. I suppose it was some sort of
psychological way of pretending that I didn't love
her.

~I save your messages
Just to hear your voice~

Things had really begun to get intense when we began
to share a dorm room. I didn't know why I suggested
that she move in, perhaps it was some perverse way of
getting closer to her without actually revealing my
feelings and I felt so guilty letting her believe that
my motives were purly platonic. I had always been
hyper aware of everything slighty Willowy, but living
with her was just too intense and I started dating
Riley in an attempt to distance myself from her. I
know it hurt her, but I just wasn't ready to reveal my
feelings.

~You always listen carefully
To awkward rhymes~

After the Oz dust had settled I broke it off with
Riley. I couldn't keep up the pretense anymore. He was
getting to the point where if I didn't I would have
either stayed with him out of guilt or ended up
hurting him more.
I remember every detail of how I told her about my
feelings. I had come back from a very eventful night
of slaying with a massive gash across my midsection. I
was all for letting my slayer abilities do their
thing, but Willow put on her 'resolve' face and I
didn't stand a chance, she just looked so cute. I was
sitting on the end of my bed and she was kneeling in
front of me. I had to take my shirt off for her to
have access to the wound. In the intmacy of that
moment I just couldn't hold back my feelings anymore.
I remember her head shooting up to meet my gaze taking
her attention away from bandaging my stomach. I
thought that she would bolt but she just looked at me.
I tried to back peddle, but she put her finger on my
lips and silenced me. We stayed like that for minutes
just looking at each other, until she inched forward
and replaced her fingers with her mouth. It was just a
simple delicate kiss, but I knew from that she felt
the same way. We got onto my bed but we didn't do
anything more than kiss. There wasn't the same rush I
felt with the guys I had dated, it was more,
controlled is not the word, peaceful maybe.

~You always say your name
Like I wouldn't know its you
at your most beautiful~

So I pace around now, remembering what has bought me
to this evening and fussing with everything. My mother
was out of town so I said I would house sit. We've
waited until we wre both ready, I mean I've been sure
of my feelings for years now, but Willow was so deeply
in love with Oz that we didn't want it to be a rebound
thing. I can hear the doorbell ring. I give one last
look around beofre I go to answer it. As I get near to
the door I hear her voice.
"It's me Willow"
She always does that, she doesn't need to though
because I know instantly when she is near me.
I open the door and my breath catches in my throat.
She looks so beautiful. She looks slightly embaressed
as I stare so I quickly step back to let her in. God
she looks great.

~I've found a way to make you
I've found a way 
A way to make you smile~

I close the door and she turns round to meet my stare.
God, I'm so nervous, but in a good way, but that
doesn't stop me from wanting to bolt. It's like Willow
can read my mind or something because she walks up to
me and caresses my cheek. Her skin feels so good that
I don't notice myself leaning into her touch. She
moves forward a little and kisses me. I never thought
the mear action of kissing could be so erotic, but as
she massages my tongue with hers I can feel my knees
begin to buckle. She breaks the kiss and trails the
hand on my cheek down my arm until she reaches my hand
and entwines our fingers. The look of lust in her eyes
tells me all I need to know as she begins to lead me
upstairs.

~At my most beautiful
I count your eyelashes secretly
with every one whisper I love you
I let you sleep
I know your closed eye watching me
Listening
I thought I saw you smile~

God I have never been so happy as I am now. I just lie
here watching her sleep, praying that this is the way
it is going to be forever.
All I want to do is make her happy.

~I've found a way to make you
I've found a way
A way to make you smile~


--- Jim_D_Means@xxxxxxxxxxx wrote:
> Yes, I've got another songic challenge for you. 
> This one's by REM, from their album Up. 
> Makes me think of Willow, somehow.
> 
> Kirayoshi
> 
> At My Most Beautiful
> I've found a way to make you
> I've found a way
> a way to make you smile
> 
> I read bad poetry
> into your machine
> I save your messages
> just to hear your voice.
> you always listen carefully
> to awkward rhymes.
> you always say your name.
> like I wouldn't know it's you,
> at your most beautiful.
> 
> I've found a way to make you
> I've found a way
> a way to make you smile
> 
> at my most beautiful
> I count your eyelashes secretly.
> with every one, whisper I love you.
> I let you sleep.
> I know your closed eye watching me,
> listening.
> I thought I saw a smile.
> 
> I've found a way to make you
> I've found a way
> a way to make you smile
> 
> 
> 
> 


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