FIC: Drifting Sand 1/1

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TITLE: Drifting Sand
AUTHOR: Tony McD
DISCLAIMER: All characters belong to Joss Whendon, Mutant Enemy, WB and 
others. This is for fun, not profit.
SUMMARY: Xander is gone and has left Buffy a note
SPOILERS: None really.
DISTRIBUTION: Anywhere is fine, just email me first at CDRERamius@xxxxxxx
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I don't know who wrote this poem but it is so damn 
appropriate. Xander has gone after realising he has no place in either Buffy 
or Willow's lives. When I say gone I mean as in "gone into the light". Sad. 
Part of my "Xander's Way" short story collection.


Buffy tried the door but it was locked. She paused a moment before 
breaking the door down. She cautiously made her way down the stairs, feeling 
for the light switch.
She was worried. Xander had been acting weird of late and in the last few 
days everyone had become concerned at his change of attitude. No one could 
put their finger on it but he was definitely acting weird. The final straw 
was last night when he didn't show for the gang's dinner at her mom's place. 
Xander never missed anything to do with food.
She found the light switch, turned it on and saw him.
Tears flooded her eyes as she approached him. He lay on the sofa, his 
eyes forever closed. He was cold to touch and pale. Beside him was a bottle 
of pills and an envelope marked Buffy. She opened it and began to read the 
note through an ever changing lens of tears.

We have met, strangers among strangers
Searching for meaning, through people and experiences.
Our adventures provided warmth,
An added dimension to our lives.
We gave to each other, even though it wasn't expected.
Between passing days and fleeting romances
My love for you has grown, never defined by words
Because of the way you are.
I have wanted to give you a gift.
Nothing I have to give would represent my love to you.
Finally one day I found my gift for you.
All I can give you is time:
Time to grow, to share, to love, as only you can do.
My demands of you are simple;
Blossom, my love, into the beautiful flower I see inside.
Share your warmth as you love, spread your happiness as you give
And remember me as I pass through your mind
Like gentle waves on the drifting sand.

All my love,
Xander.

It rained tears on the letter as it would rain on the soul of Buffy and 
Willow for the rest of their lives.