Poem:Standing at the Gates of Hell.

[Carol.Clarke@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx]

Note: I wrote this poem about a year ago. I wrote it about Buffy. It is
Buffy's POV after saving the world one to many times. Anyway after reading
Femvamp poem The day we met I thought I would send it out.. (I suck at
names so if I get it wrong don't kill me.) 

Standing at the Gates of Hell

Standing at the gates of hell
pushing the evaluator button down
Searching for oblivion -It does sound good in this heat

but I try instead,
And I try
AND
I 
TRY
I am such a fool 
I linger with the believe that heavens comes
Good always wins
Evil is week
and the meek will inherit the earth.
They are the lies told to
children
Lies to hid the truth
as if there was such a thing as truth.
If I could only understand
See the quantum physics of the land. 
Instead I hold my hands up in the pouring rain and scream
THIS IS THE WAY YOU WANTED IT?
I just couldn't understand
I recognized the lies but do not have the strength to apologize 
For being my own man 
For wanting it all
Only I am not a man 
nor a child
and I have never wanted it all, 
Only enough to survive- To feel alive.
So I am standing at the gates of hell
banging down the door- 
wanting in.


"I wear the cheese it does not wear me." Bald Man, Buffy the Vampire Slayer.