FIC: Destiny Achieved (Prologue 1/3)

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Destiny Achieved
Prologue 1 - You Want A What? (WPOV)

Disclaimers: I don?t own Buffy and company and I never will. All power belongs to Joss and Mutant Enemy.

Author's Note: Yes you have read right, this is a repeat of sorts. 'You Want A What?' is not my property. But I do have the author's permission to use it. When I read it I just started thinking and the idea wouldn't go away.

Spoilers: This is set three months after 'New Moon Rising' but even then I only make a few referance to the episode.

Rating: PG. Upon reading the rules of the game I can assure you that there won?t be any wild monkey love, yet.

Summary: Riley can never exists in this Buffyverse, Buffy has had enough to deal with. Angel does exists but as the story goes, he and Buffy are no more. Oz left and Willow met Tara. Oz tried to come back to Willow but she stayed with Tara. Oz's return really got Buffy thinking. She knows that she loves Willow, could she be in the same position as Oz?

We begin now about three months since Oz?s last departure. Willow and Tara have never been happier. But Buffy can no longer keep her feelings hidden. In a moment of insanity she finally confesses her love to Willow. Willow is in shock, she loves Buffy too but she is with Tara. To make matters worse Tara already knows what Willow and Buffy feel for each other. She saw and heard Buffy?s confession. What is are favorite red head to do? Let?s find out.


Destiny Achieved
Prolouge 1 - You Want A What?
By Crazzy Nut
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So I?m sitting here, not one thing on my mind. Then why won't my head stop pounding? Life seemed so easy before,...before you. I remember it so clearly, I was so happy. Then someone decided I shouldn?t be that happy. Perhaps it was God throwing me a curve or Fate just getting carried away. I must say though, it was one beautiful day. Now I?m stuck between what I have and you.

Just thinking about it all leads me to worry. If I look to you while I?m with her, who will I look to when I?m with you? Why must it all be so hard? Can you tell me? To tell you the truth, I don?t think I even know what I want. She?s upset, I understand. This is unfair to all of us. I think she is more tired than anything else, perhaps you are too. I just wish my head would stop spinning.

Here?s a question, perhaps you can shed some light on my situation. Maybe your perspective is all I need right now. How can I feel this bad? My entire being, straight through my heart is yelling out to chose you. When I?m away from you it hurts so much. I feel part of me is missing, something torn out. I know you?re my soul?s mate, something just clicks when we?re together. From the first time I laid my eyes upon you I felt different. I love you so much. You know I want to commit and share my life with you. Yet, I can?t find it in me to hurt her. I love her too, it?s a different love, but it?s there none the less. If you could see how much she loves me perhaps you?d understand.

To tell the truth, I feel I fear commitment. Or maybe I just fear, fearing commitment. I DON?T KNOW! For the longest time I knew I could never approach you, let alone be with you. For years I was told to "drop it" or just leave you alone. Now, out of the blue you come up with "why not"? All I can do is stand in shock. I hope you know, this is the closest me and her have been. You?ve done this, you have brought us together.

So what do you think? I?m tired of asking perverted teens and childish adults. I just want you, but at what cost I?m not sure. I don?t know how much I?m willing to give up or lose. How am I to think I can be with the most wonderful person in the world and not lose them at the same time? And now you?re asking me for a what?


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