FIC: Destiny Achieved (Prologue 2/3)

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Destiny Achieved
Prologue 2 - My Sincere Apology

Disclaimers: I still don?t own Buffy and company and I never will. All power belongs to Joss and Mutant Enemy. This is just where my idea kept going.

Spoilers: None that I can think of.

Rating: PG

Summary: Buffy has made a mess of everything, or so she thinks. Not only does she feel terrible about everything, she?s also afraid she?s lost her best friend. It?s been a few days and Willow does nothing but avoid her. What must Buffy do? What else can she do?

Author's Note: For good or bad the rest is mine.

Destiny Achieved
Prologue 2 - My Sincere Apology
By Crazzy Nut
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What have I done? I can?t believe I could be so stupid. I must not have been thinking straight. Hell, I doubt I was thinking at all. I can see that you?re happy, I?ve seen it for some time now. I just wish you could be happy with...me. I?ve been such a fool. Actually, I?m beyond a simple fool, aren?t I? I?m up on the imbecile level. And it kills me when I think about it because this isn?t the first time I?ve hurt you. You?re my best friend and have been for many years. I?ve had more than enough opportunity to tell you how I feel. Now I hurt so much, and it?s all my fault. I should?ve...could?ve...I could always see it in your eyes but I was scared. I doubted you, I shouldn?t have. You had never kept anything from me, except her. That really hurt. But it was the key factor for me to get over my fears. Unfortunately, my heart beat my head and before I could think of the consequences I was telling you everything.

You let me kiss you. I?m sure it was only slow reaction time on your part, but for those few moments I was in heaven. I?ll never forget the feel of your soft lips against mine, or the sweet taste of you that still lingers on my taste buds. I?m left with a hunger and yearning, knowing it?ll never happen again. I?m sorry for overstepping the boundaries. I guess if I really loved you I wouldn?t have put you in this situation. If I could, gladly I would take back all I said. Not because I don?t mean them but because they?ve brought you nothing but pain and unhappiness. I guess it?s true when they say that love hurts and you hurt the ones you love.

Who would have thought it? My feelings for you have hurt so many people. I can see the hurt in her eyes. She hates this as much as I do if not more. I wouldn?t blame her if she were upset and blaming this all on me. But I know she still loves you. Why else would she remain by your side? I love you too and to prove this to you I know what I must do. You love her, she loves you, you two were happy until I came along and did this. Now I must make things right, I?ll step aside. Even if it kills me I know it will be better this way. Won?t it? I just want you to be happy.


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