Story: Allies & Enemies: Anyanka

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TITLE: Allies & Enemies: Anyanka
AUTHOR: Femvamp
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Anyanka

Morally ambiguous. I've heard someone calling me that once. I don't 
like it. When I get my powers back I will embowel whoever said that. 
I will reek havoc on all the untrustworthy men of the world. I will 
be Anyanka again; the patron saint of scorned women. Men will quiver 
at my name.

I will not miss being human. It is hard. All the rules and 
regulations. Don't do this. Don't do that. This is ok, but only 
sometimes. That is not so bad as long as you do it this way. I hate 
it. There is nothing I will miss about being human.

Well maybe Xander. All our interlocking parts fit. He is my orgasm 
friend. I love him. I may miss him. 

What will happen to Xander when I become Anyanka again? Will he find 
another orgasm friend? NO! He's mine. He's my Xander. I will tear 
out the intestines of any woman who takes my Xandy away from me. He's 
mine. They can't have him.

I am the patron saint of scorned women. I can do that. I can do 
anything I want. And I want Xander. He is mine. I did all the work 
on him. I made him just the way I want him. There is no way I will 
give him back. He is mine.

I don't share well. I know that humans are supposed to share. I 
don't do that. It's just another piece of proof that I don't make a 
good human. I don't understand them. They are so.....They are just 
so odd. 

What do I do? Do I ask the goddess to make me Anyanka again? Do I 
give up being human, being Xander's orgasm friend? Or do I.....stay 
human. Do I live with all the rules, all the insane rules that make 
no sense? Do I grow old....with Xander? 

That's another thing, growing old. It's such a disgusting thing. Who 
would want to get all ugly and useless? I hate being a teenager,I 
have no wish to be an old lady. I'm over a thousand years old and I 
can't even buy a beer, at least not without a fake ID. Hey I wonder 
where I can pick up one of those.

I want to be Anyanka again but I want to be Xander's orgasm friend 
too. I can't be both. I know that much. 

Anyanka or Xander?

How do I choose?