Story: Allies & Enemies: Willow Rosenburg

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TITLE: Allies & Enemies: Willow Rosenburg
AUTHOR: Femvamp
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Willow Rosenburg

Not many people get to see their dark half, their dark side and not 
have it eat them alive. I got to see mine. And boy was she scary. 
All leather and dominatrix. Is that me as a bad guy? Wow! 

Not many people get to make a choice about their lives. I mean a real 
choice. Not the if I do this that might happen. I mean a, I don't 
want to be a warrior of destiny anymore choice. That's the kind of 
choice I've been given.

What do I do? Just a few weeks ago I ran away looking for a normal 
life. That's all I wanted. No that's not true. That's all I thought 
I wanted. I wanted out. I wanted out of my life, out of my skin. I 
wanted all those bad thoughts to stop.

Then I came back. Some people say you can never go home again, but I 
did. I went home and found everything I ever wanted. I found a 
family. I found Buffy. 

Buffy loves me. She really really loves me. Not just as buddy kind 
of love, but as a 'I want to snuggle' kind of love. 

I've never been a normal kind of girl. I was always different. I was 
smarter then everyone else. I know that sound pretentious (see I told 
you I was smart), but its true. My only real problem was in the 
friend department. I didn't have any, except for maybe Xander. 

Then who should appear in my life and turn it all topsy-turvy? Buffy 
Summers. The Slayer, the love of my life. That's who.

Now I betcha you're thinking, what bout Tara? Didn't you love her? 
Well I did. I really really did. The only problem was that I always 
went a back to Buffy. I never knew why. It just happened. When it 
came down to it, I always chose Buffy.

Don't get me wrong, I miss Tara. She was so sweat, and innocent. I 
wish she hadn't died, but in the end.....

She was right. I loved Buffy.

Maybe that's what's making this choice I have so difficult. Do I want 
a normal life? 

Yes.

Do I want Buffy?

Yes.

Do I want to be a hacker-witch?

Yes.

Do I want to be a member of the Scooby Gang?

Yes.

Do I want to accept the Goddess's offer?

Yes.

Am I going to accept the Goddess's offer?

No.

You see, it's not a matter of wanting to. It's a matter of fate. 

I know mine.

Its Buffy.

And I know hers.

She's the slayer.

By choice or chance, it's who she is. It's who we all are.

We are Destiny's children. 

We are a family.