Re: [buffywantswillow] ff: Becoming Real Part 11

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-- Carol.Clarke@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx wrote:
> Title: Becoming Real Part 11
> Rating: NC- 17. Smut Warning not for the squeamish
> Chapter Eleven: The Heart and Feather Test.
> Disclaimer: All BTVS characters belong to Joss
> Whedon and Mutant Enemy.
> Summary: Set seven years after The Reinfield. Yes
> it is a sequel. 
> Feed Back: YES! Please!
> Thanks: Cheryl Hill for the Beta. AnneBar who I miss
> a great deal. Shadow
> for keeping me turned on and thinking all at once
> and Slyfox for humbling me
> often. Come on I need more from you two soon. 
> 
> The Heart and Feather Test
> 
> Kate wanted to howl at the moon. To run and hide.
> She needed to be anywhere
> but here. It was hard to be confronted with your
> actions for the last 7
> years. She looked down on Frank's hand covering her
> own. Buffy had brought
> him in as a co defense lawyer. Buffy had kept her
> word and tried to give a
> good defense. Which was almost impossible with Kate
> not talking at all.
> Sometime after Duncan had calmly explained what was
> happening, Kate just
> shut down.
> 
> She spent the time before the trail lying on her bed
> and staring at the
> ceiling. The witches tried to get her to eat, Buffy
> tried as well. In the
> end it was Duncan that managed to get small amounts
> of food in her. Oddly
> she found the little Reinfield comforting. 
> 
> Kate felt Frank squeeze her hand as Buffy began her
> questioning of the
> Succubus. "Violet" She hated the way they gave these
> things names. Actually
> she needed to hate them. Needed them to be things.
> But the thing on the
> stand was sweet and polite. Why the hell hadn't she
> seen that before she
> tried to kill it? The woman was telling them.
> Telling them everything and
> she couldn't stand it anymore. It was bad enough
> listening to Angel and his
> assistant, God what was her name.
> 
> They told the truth. And only the truth. And the
> truth was she wanted them
> dead. Almost got them killed dozens of times. She
> hated them. Hate him.
> Blamed him, for her father, for the truth. The Truth
> about what killed her
> father; destroyed her life. And he told the truth.
> The good and bad of her
> life. He stood up there and told the truth. And she
> hated him.
> 
> And now another one of those evil things was on the
> stand telling them.
> Telling them what she had done and her heart was
> crumbling. She didn't want
> them to know. She didn't want to know herself.
> Violet had been the last
> straw. After her attack Kate had wanted to die. She
> knew she needed to die.
> But wasn't that why she started doing the
> challenges? Wasn't it her holy
> war? Her way into heaven, like the knights and
> crusaders. It was her Jihad.
> Her holy war and she was a noble warrior. She killed
> the evil and protected
> the innocent. Only she didn't know who the innocent
> were any more. 
> 
> As Violet continued her story of how Kate had beaten
> her Reinfield. Had sent
> the challenge and followed the creature home.
> 
> Tears were pouring from her eyes. "Stop it." Kate
> whispered. "Stop it now,
> please"
> 
> Slowly the room quieted. No one spoke. "Stop it
> please. I admit it. I did
> it. I am guilty. Just please stop it." Kate cried. 
> 
> "Did what? What did you do Kate?" Martha asked from
> her chair of judgement.
> 
> "I don't know. I hurt the girl and I nearly killed
> the woman on the stand. I
> did it. Just do what you are going to do. I don't
> want it."
> 
> "Don't want what Kate? What don't you want?" Martha
> asked.
> 
> "This, the trial. Please just let me die." Kate
> begged as she crumbled to
> the ground with Frank holding on to her.
> 
> "Kate, we need to finish the trial. We need to know
> what happened to pass
> judgement." Martha explained.
> 
> "Kate why didn't you finish killing Violet what made
> you stop?" Buffy asked
> while she helped Frank get Kate back into a chair. 
> 
> "I can answer that, Buffy." Violent said from the
> witness chair. "She was
> beating me up. You saw the bruises; then my son ran
> in and tried to stop
> her. Ryan is such a good child. Sorry proud parent
> moment. Ryan grabbed her
> arm and was crying mommy, mommy, and she was about
> to hit him. I was pretty
> beat up and I was trying to get to him but she just
> looked at him. Her fist
> pulled back. Then she put him down and left. She
> could have killed us both.
> Buffy there is good inside her, she has just lost
> her way."
> 
> "Why do you keep doing that. All of you. I hurt you.
> And you say there is
> good inside me. I don't understand. What is wrong
> with you people?" Kate
> cried. She really couldn't take any more. Angel had
> told of her crimes and
> her good deeds. The good and bad of her life. It was
> confusing her. She
> needed the lines to be black and white. She needed
> the hate. But the hate
> was too much to bear anymore. 
> 
> For the rest of the trial she just sat there crying.
> She didn't even hear
> most of it, she just moved into her own little
> world. 
> 
> It was over. She was found guilty. And her sentence
> was passed. She was to
> pay the sum of fifty dollars a month for three years
> once she got out of the
> hospital and went back to work. She was sentenced to
> two years of slave
> service as a Reinfield but that was remedied to a
> short stay in a
> psychiatric unit of a local hospital. The Reinfield
> sentence was more of a
> warning to her of what would happen if she tried to
> return to her old
> habits. She had listened to the sentence then she
> had been led to a car and
> taken to a local hospital. Frank had been there for
> her the whole time. 
> 
> (Two months later.)
> 
> Kate had been at Ten Brook hospital for almost two
> months. Frank had
> arranged for her stay so that the LAPD paid for it.
> She wasn't the first cop
> to crack up. LAPD had only put her on extended leave
> and had lost her
> resignation. Kate was a good cop. Or at least she
> had been a good cop. Now
> she didn't know what she was. 
> 
> There was a tiny knock on the door and she saw
> Duncan entering with a care
> package. Kate still didn't understand way the girl
> always brought her gifts.
> She had basically raped the girl, not once but
> twice. Girl, Kate thought,
> not thing, not demon. If nothing else, Kate was at
> least dealing with her
> crimes and she was beginning to see Duncan and
> Violet, as well as other
> creatures she had hurt in LA, as not necessarily
> evil. She had violated the
> girl when she sent the slayer the challenge with
> that damn cucumber. She
> couldn't believe she had done that. It was like
> watching someone else. And
> when she had whipped the girl and threatened to rape
> her, she had been
> counting on Buffy stopping her. She still wasn't
> sure how far she would have
> gone if Buffy hadn't showed up. Not that the
> whipping she had given the girl
> was a good thing. She had really let loose on the
> girls bottom and back.
> Thank god that was all she did, was her only
> thought. 
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